What Happens Next? What Happens When You Figured it Out?

The video below with Alex Collier is really a symbol of synchronicity. Some of the things he’s talking about such as “you are powerful beings” I often write about. The other issue he’s talking about is: What happens next?

It’s obvious to most people that things aren’t like they used to be; this world/reality is changing. To the unawakened or ignorant, it’s very traumatic and stressful as they live moment to moment having no clue as to what is going on and why it’s going on.

So, are you one of those wishing for things to be the way they were; or, are you just accepting the changes because of the way nature works?
Truth is, nothing is changing; it’s simply evolving into what our mass consciousness is telling us to do or what we are thinking. Buddha said that humans cause their own suffering by holding on to the past. He said the only certainty in life is change.

My partner’s son and his partner are here visiting their dad for a month. My challenge 3 years ago when my partner was diagnosed with Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension and COPD was that he lived to celebrate his 70th birthday. This is about to happen in a few days. But anyway, his son, a 40 yr. old man believes black cats are a bad sign and should be avoided. We have 2 black cats and I asked him: “Why do you believe this?” He answered that he’s always believed that and it probably came from childhood. I wonder why he never bothered to investigate this, but it is his belief system. After being around Nero and Bella for a few days, he realized that they are just normal cats like other cats.

A few years ago I ran into a friend of mine on the ferry sailing to the mainland. She said she was going to have a mammogram done. When I told her about the studies relating to mammograms and breast cancer, without even thinking about the seriousness of my statement, she responds with: “The Min. Of Health sent me this free examination so it would be a shame not to use it”.

I didn’t respond to this because to tell you the truth, I had a million questions. Do you feel obligated to have this done because the government sent it to you? Do you feel obligated to have this done? Despite hearing about the dangers of Mammograms, you still don’t feel you’re in danger especially since you get it done every year? Don’t you care about getting breast cancer? Are you not at least willing to do the research before you do this? Since there is no appointment necessary, isn’t it more logical to seek out more information given the fact you have had thyroid cancer?

These are all the questions I wanted to ask her, but I had to remind myself that she is the creator of her own destiny and it’s not for me to interfere in her process. It’s the choice she’s made and the consequences if any to bear. I doubt that she would even admit to the Mammogram being the cause of breast cancer should she succumb to it.

Believe it or not, I’m almost 60 years young and have never had a preventive exam done. We get free colonoscopy tests, mammograms, men get free prostate Ultra Sounds and forgive me for sounding skeptical but don’t these very tests cause the actual cancer they are trying to find in early stages? Or, why would the Gov. give out FREE exams to the population unless they have an agenda? Nothing is for free and you know this.

If you can’t feel changes in your body, you need to take another look at your self and lifestyle because I can feel a fever coming hours before it actually arrives. I know the signs and symptoms and know my body very well. Why do I need a stranger and radiation laced technology to tell me this?

I often run into people on the ferry (all of our health centers are on the mainland) and they are headed towards the doctor. When I ask them what is wrong, they all answer the same way: “I’m going to see the doctor so he/she can tell me what is wrong with me”. Are you kidding me? You’re going to a stranger to tell you how you feel? Croatians only have 2 gods….god and their doctor. They give all their power away to these two institutions of death and as someone is awake, I had no choice but to work hard on being the observer because it was difficult to deal with. Watching this self inflicted human suffering and then blaming it on external factors, just hit me hard. I’m now able to just listen, not judge and love them for who they are because they are Souls like me, experiencing and learning. We’re all at different levels of awareness.


The world is not changing in the sense that it’s different than before, it’s changing as a natural occurrence. Better term to use instead of change is “evolution”. We only know about Linear evolution, you know from way back to now, but I’m talking about Evolution in terms of progress, moving towards and evolving towards a new reality. As souls occupying the human body with an average life span of 70 to 80 years, we can’t know the whole picture. What’s 100 years in a span of billions behind us? The planet will continue to evolve, difference today is that man is interfering with that nature cycle using HAARP, geo-engineering, chemtrails and so many other secret programs that nobody knows the actual cause and we can’t even begin to speculate on where the  climate is heading because it’s being manipulated by technology.

Are we going through the natural cycles of change? Probably not, because even 2000 years ago, we weren’t drilling holes in mother Gaia and burning her blood to use for fuel. We didn’t clog up rivers to form dams so that we could harness electricity. We didn’t have nuclear weapons and energy taken from the Earth. So, these cycles of change may not be natural anymore but if we go back into history, there is evidence of extreme weather, it’s just that the planet wasn’t so populated at the time.

Now that we have the past out of the way, where does that leave us now? What awaits us around the corner?


If history keeps repeating itself (and we know it does) then it would seem we’re up for another war. Money is made in wars and when economies start to crash, wars are started. Even Atlantis collapsed because technology was abused and caused the entire civilization to destruct.
There is plenty of historical evidence showing the Banksters/Zionists financed both sides of wars. They didn’t and don’t care who dies, who wins, who loses. They are only interested in making large amounts of money and sucking humanity dry from every single coin they have left.

I’m sure you’ve heard the following statement: “”Civilian deaths are just a given or collateral damage is just part of war”. Those that made these kinds of statements like that are the problem; death in any way shape or form is unacceptable for whatever reason.

In America, and only in America do you get punished by lethal injection for murder. It’s not ok to murder, but the Gov. is allowed to do so. Punish the murderer by murdering him. Cool.

Our world is changing because everything around us is moving forward. How can we expect the same thing everyday when every living organism changes, is in a constant flux? As I type this post, millions of cells have died in this body and new ones replaced them. I think I read that millions of cells die each minute.

They purposely and masterfully remind us of the painful past through education, monuments, gravestones, holidays etc. As long as we live in the past, we can’t accept the future or  move forward. We can’t move forward if we are constantly repeating “things are not the way they used to be” as acknowledgement that we are not only victims of the past but victims of the unknown as the future is unknown to us and doesn’t exist. We are always in the moment, whether that’s 10 years from now or tomorrow, but our state of awareness is always in the now as we see, walk, hear, feel, taste and smell the now-ness.

You can’t smell a rose tomorrow, you can only smell it in your now moment. You can remember the smell of a rose, but you can’t experience the scent unless you are in the now and smelling it.


Our memories are linear unlike a Hard Disk that stores data in different clusters. So, in order to access a memory the passage to that memory must be clear. If something traumatic happened between that data and the now moment, the memory will be blocked. The brain doesn’t record the same way as a HD does, thus humans experience linear reality. I don’t care what the experts say about the brain and how it works. It’s a fact that we all don’t remember the same way and if you know anyone that has had some kind of trauma in their past, they have blocks of blank memories, it’s a given.

People that have photographic memory simply don’t have any blockages in that linear memory so they can access it faster and it’s recorded in a neater way.

Where do we go from here? Well, most of humanity is living in fear energy at the moment. Even the poorest on this planet fear how to get food or if they can even get food for their families. The wealthy fear losing their money or fear that we will figure them out and come after them. Most of the world’s population lives in fear of another living creature such as spiders, mosquitoes, snakes, dogs, cats, you name it. Then there are those that fear the future, which doesn’t exist. By fearing the future and thinking negatively about it, totally unaware they are creating it for THEM.

So what are most people fearing today if not uncertain future yet if you ask them what kind of future they want, they have to think about it. They put more thought into fearing the future than expressing how they see it or what they want that future to be.

Get over it folks. Fearing the future will only manifest that what you fear. They have succeeded in convincing most of humanity to fear the future so that you manifest it for them. If you fear a war breaking out and give it energy, a war will manifest if mass consciousness unites in those thoughts.

Here is the catch; and this is based on my observations and opinions, gathering information from trusted  and unbiased media sources. Americans by population alone are the most afraid and paranoid nation that is now boiling over and unless they wake up soon, the vitriol and hatred will explode into Civil Unrest and Civil War.

Here is my prediction following massive civil unrest and war: American enemies (it has many, almost the entire planet except for Israel), will use this situation to attack it. China will stop using the dollar, sell all their treasury notes, collect it’s debt or try to and all those countries that have been bullied and experienced Nation Building American Style will turn against it. I’m sorry to say that should America fall, nobody will come to it’s aide be that an internal unrest, natural disaster etc. Even as I watch the Hurricane Harvey events unfolding from different media outlets, there is no mention of even Canada, it’s big friend and neighbor offering help. I’m sure Trump would jump on that and let the nation know how well they are doing by bragging about how other countries are offering their help. Notta.

The enemies will be gloating over the destruction and I for one would be one of them not because I don’t like Americans, but because they didn’t do enough to stop their government from destroying the planet and then leaving behind civil unrest, toppled governments and let me not mention Depleted Uranium.

This is my prediction based on what I feel and visions I have, but America, even while down and wounded will not go down by itself and will attempt to cause death and destruction to those that didn’t answer the S.O.S. call. If that happens, then a major power will simply release EMP weapons and Americans will be left in the dark.

Since history keeps repeating itself, the madman doing the same thing over and over yet expecting different results, but we can’t seem to let go of this past, it’s then probable that the once great Empire of America will burn down as Neron burned Rome and only from the ashes shall a new generation desire peace.

I write about this often, things must get worse before they get better. So long as you can fill your belly today, you’re not going to do anything, but if you go without food for a day or two, we’re used to seeing the violence in America when there are crowds for riots, looting and stealing anything they can get their hands on. This is what will happen if anyone even hints at food shortages, within hours, the stores will be stripped of food and water.

I’m not picking on Americans, they are great people but they have lived in lies so long that even when the truth hits them, they don’t believe it. I have never seen a country filled with so much anger, vitriol, aggression, self-righteousness, judgement and stupid in my life.

Today, I was watching Hurricane Harvey Live on Fox TV and observed the chat box. I could not find or notice ONE person out of hundreds that spelled and punctuated one sentence correctly. It looked like it was a 3rd grade classroom typing, not to mention statements like: “Suck my dick, eat my pussy, lemme cum over and nock you over the head”.

Very sad indeed  and let me add another observation I had while watching the Hurricane updates. America still have poles above the ground. Texas looks like a third world country. Very few countries have above ground poles anymore. Even here in Croatia that is considered a developing country has all underground  cables. I was shocked to see this as you will only now see this in Thailand, Africa and other poor countries. Instead of spending trillions of dollars on infrastructure, everything went to Foreign Nation Building. What a joke and Americans just tolerate this shit. Yes you can do something about it just like Europeans do when they are pissed off. They come in huge crowds to the government buildings and demand change or demand that someone be removed from office. There ARE things that can be done, but sadly, they are now paying the price for letting it happen.

Where do we go from here? That’s something you need to answer yourself. Can’t change anything until you change first. Since the future doesn’t exist, I live in the moment, I live it like I won’t be here tomorrow yet I have no fear of dying. As Alex Collier said something really interesting about those that have had an NDE. Supposedly, researchers found that those who had NDE’s, changed their DNA structure and this is why all of us who have had those experiences do come back different and have a different perspective on life. Yes, the day I died for 12 minutes impacted me to this day and that event alone was what motivated me to seek the truth.

Old Soul, you’ve been here many times before to have an Earthly experience. It is because of your many many lifetimes and experiences here that you are here now. You’re the experts in Earthology, you’re here to wake up those that are still asleep. You’re here for different reasons and have different roles. Are you doing something to change a life? If you die today, what kind of legacy will you leave behind? What are you waiting for?

Peace to All

It is said and I believe it to be true that while under the influence of alcohol, we show our true selves. Are the rules the same as Cannabis? As I write this, I’m under the influence of Cannabis Oil; feeling relaxed and maybe even a bit vulnerable as I’m open to negative influences. I have just had a cup of tea made from Cannabis stems and I must tell you it’s an incredible experience. When you see a happy drunk, he’s a happy guy. When you see an aggressive drunk, he’s one unhappy and angry person. Our true identity is revealed under the influence and if you want to know someone before you start a relationship with them, get them drunk first and then you will know who they are.

But that’s not what I’m here for. I’m here to tell you that I was right about the mass hysteria from full moons, blood moons, economic collapses, the Rapture, and this most recent total Eclipse that only the US got to experience this time around. So, what happened to all the bible thumpers now? Did god change his mind and decide not to avenge himself upon humanity? Did god decide to give everyone a second chance? I didn’t pay much attention to the Eclipse because it’s just another sensationalized event. It happens as a natural occurrence although I didn’t see anything natural in it at all. It just seemed too perfect for the moon to cover the sun. Despite the distance between the Sun and Moon and it just happens to cover it perfectly? It just happens to travel across the US? Doesn’t this sound like a construct? I’m going by my intuition here as I’m not an expert in Astronomy or physics, but I do have common sense and logic and something stinks about this Eclipse.

Perhaps we’re just more aware of our environment, we ask more questions, we don’t take everything for granted as true, we just question things.

So question this: Didn’t Americans have better things to do in life than stand out in the sun and wait for this eclipse? Could they not see it from their homes? Isn’t it more important to stand out in front of the White House and demand disclosure? Have we lost track of our priorities?

This fear mongering has been going on for centuries. Remember way back in the 50’s when they started to demonize Cannabis? Wasn’t that about the time when pharmaceutical companies started producing drugs? Did you ask yourself the question: If we know that Chemotherapy is just business, the doctor knows it’s just business; do you ever wonder if they are psychopaths? Psychopaths kill without guilt, they make people feel bad without guilt. Are doctors not psychopaths when they intentionally pressure you into chemotherapy and know it’s not going to kill the cancer. When they know the poisons will not only kill cancer cells but all the healthy cells?

Have you asked today why the sky is no longer blue? Why in the middle of summer there are floods and hail? Did you ask yourself what would happen if you put away $1 everyday for the next 20 years how much money you could save?

What are they going to think of next to make us fearful? I’m not talking about me, I fear nothing. In fact, my now deceased mother used to yell at me for being so fearless. Yes, I would jump in the fire like Trump and then realize it was hot. It’s called being stupid, but at the time, my mother thought it was due to a stubborn nature. Sure glad I was stubborn because I don’t think I would have survived everything I went through in this reality.

There is no lesson in this post, I’m simply sharing my thoughts. The feeling of total peace and serenity should be on everyone’s menu. Make some cannabis stem tea, thank the Universe for all that you have and for all that you don’t have. It’s an ugly reality out there, but if you can find that spot within, even bombs coming down can’t change your mood. And that is what life is all about. We find our inner peace, our inner sanctuary because it’s the only safe place to be when things get rough. Live from the heart and act from the brain. Remember, our brains don’t serve us, they serve the body and we are not our body.

Remember who you are old soul; quick, time is running out.

Get Over It

Source: Waking Times | by Dylan Charles

It seems the fear is taking over. After all, it’s been such an integral part of our lives for such a long a time now that, sadly, life just wouldn’t feel normal without it.

They used to say that if it bleeds it leads, implying that fear-pimping was somehow an acceptable part of economic growth. But, we know there’s more to the story. We know that fear is a tool used for social control. It’s a weapon of mass destruction and mass deterioration of mental health. It’s a technique used to entrap us into lower consciousness, to keep us humming along in a dense vibration. It keeps the reptilian brain in the driver’s seat, and used to create conflict and chaos.

Most importantly, though, fear, whether real or perceived, keeps us focused on survival and security, forgetting that abundance and cooperation are both possible and far more enjoyable.

“Fear begins and ends with the desire to be secure; inward and outward security, with the desire to be certain, to have permanency. The continuity of permanence is sought in every direction, in virtue, in relationship, in action, in experience, in knowledge, in outward and inward things. To find security and be secure is the everlasting cry. It is this insistent demand that breeds fear.” ~ Jiddu Krishnamurti

Those in positions of power in government and in the media know this all too well. They use fear to influence the behavior of the masses. They front it as an offer we can’t refuse, telling us it’s okay to be afraid, because, we have them to protect us. They use it as justification for the ever-expanding military industrial complex and the Orwellian Permanent War. They use it to manufacture political consent, and to manufacture tolerance of the ever-incessant attacks on privacy and liberty.

And here’s the catch-22: The more we give in to the tyranny of fear, the less secure we are. Fear is a trap, and here are five tricks it uses to enslave you.

1.) The Fear Tells You to Indulge in Anger and Hate

This one is widely understood, but worth repeating. If you’re unable to overcome fear, then you’re open to anger and hate, of which we see so much of in our world today. What is rarely discussed, however, is that fear is what fuels the anger and hate, and that fear that drives the unrest and chaos we see in our world.

Yoda, of course, said it best:

“Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.” ~Yoda

2.) The Fear Expects You to Abandon Rationality

There’s a stark difference between fear and caution. Caution is a functional process that occurs in the present moment to keep us out of immediate danger. The fear in question here, on the other hand, is more like an art form, a type of refined capacity of human imagination. And imagination doesn’t need rationality.

Fear tells us to ignore facts, statistics and direct experience, and focus instead on hype, sensationalism and comforting lies. It draws our attention to the worst case scenarios, no matter how ludicrous they may be. From this perspective, sensible solutions to problems are practically invisible, and options are thin.

3.) The Fear Wants You to Try to Control Things Which are Beyond Your Control

“We think we are running things. But unless we reconcile what our unconscious and subconscious fears and motivations are, we are just a child on a bus with a toy steering wheel making ‘vroom’ sounds with our mouth. We aren’t in control of shit.” ~Aubrey Marcus

As individuals, there is only one thing in this world that we control: Ourselves. We have absolutely no say in the thoughts and judgements of other people, we have no control over the actions of others, and we have no control over the development or course of world events. We only have the ability to control our own thoughts, actions and reactions, although, fear would have us believe otherwise.

4.) The Fear Instructs to Take Sides and Mob Up

Divide and conquer works as a political strategy because it capitalizes on fear to push people into groups and mobs in attempt to find security. We see this in big ways in society today, and as hearts harden and the war of rhetoric heats up, people will find it more and more comforting to join a group and participate in mob action. Fear is driving us toward a new feudalism, into a new divide.

“It takes nothing to join the crowd. It takes everything to stand alone.” ~Hans F. Hansen

Do you have the courage to stand alone?

5.) The Fear Orders You to Close Up Your Heart

Heart-centered being is anything but a sign of weakness. On the contrary, it is the most courageous way of being, for it requires you to be vulnerable, a feat which is only possible when you totally abandon fear. But fear orders you to keep the heart closed. It tells you to lock up love in a safe place and guard it with the ferociousness of a caged lion.

When fear subjugates love, humans become wild animals, incapable of accessing empathy or of exhibiting compassion.

“Don’t give in to your fears. If you do, you won’t be able to talk to your heart.” ~Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Final Thoughts

Fear certainly can be a dangerous master, but what exactly is it? Can you touch it? Can you see it? What color is it? Is it even real, or is it really just a lapse in discipline of the mind?

Spiritual growth stops until fear is confronted and overcome, but, on the path to self-mastery, fear is the first thing to go. It’s the first unneeded part of yourself that gets ferreted out of the psyche and dragged into light from the dark hollows of the subconscious mind. It doesn’t serve you well, and your spirit knows this. Do you hear it?

How do you reconcile your subconscious? Get still enough to hear it whisper to you, and then bring it into awareness. How do you get still? Meditation, floating, yoga, breath, ecstatic dance, plant medicine, time in nature… many ways up the mountain.” ~ Aubrey Marcus

Flat, Round and Manifesting Reality


I may make a fool out of myself with this post, but it feels right so we’re going to talk about the Flat Earth. As this post shows: https://wearelightbeings.wordpress.com/2016/01/06/questions-about-flat-earth/, I wasn’t concerned so much because it wouldn’t change my life in any way, it didn’t matter if it was flat or a sphere; but Michael Tellinger helped me decide in the above video because it’s based on Empirical Evidence. There is more proof showing the Earth is flat then there is about it being a sphere.

Michael Tellinger:


I can’t seem to link a YT video called ” Under The Dome”, good watch!

Most of our science and physics is based on theories and lies. Scientists would have to literally travel from Earth through the various atmo/strato/blah/spheres, through the Solar System and out into deep space to be able to ‘ prove‘  their science is correct.

The mere fact that we have no photos of the Earth other than what NASA admits to fabricating an image based on fragments of images the satellites collect then create a composite of what they think Earth might actually look like or want us to believe.

I’m not a scientist nor am I am expert in anything related to these topics, but I do have good intuition and common sense. I have seen enough to be convinced that there is no curvature in the horizon or looking at an object from a distance. Even from an airplane, I have never seen any curves in the distance. Even the clouds are flat and not rounded at the far ends.

So, this alone is good enough for me. If the Earth is round, then why don’t we build curved bridges? If we travel at approx. 50,000 m. per hour around the sun and then together with other planets move towards the galactic center, how come we don’t feel anything? The truth is what you see. If Earth travels at such speeds, how come chemtrails don’t disappear in a second? How come cloud horizons are level?

So, based on my research, I am now out of Denial and believe that we’re living on a flat Earth, encased in a dome and that we are like a giant terrarium for the rest of the living beings to observe us. It’s like being in a fishbowl and you know that story. The fish know there is a world out there beyond the glass but can’t get out and even if they could, they couldn’t survive. They’re aware that a world beyond what their eyes can see exists and can only speculate because even if humans knew they couldn’t communicate that to the fish.

Maybe we are an experiment as some people claim. Maybe we wanted to create a duality world, separate ourselves from Source to see if we could figure it out but had to be isolated otherwise someone could tell us the truth and it would ruin the experiment. This doesn’t seem that logical because the truth is being hidden from us at all costs. In other words, someone does know the truth and is going to great lengths to keep us away from the truth.

If the Earth is flat then so many things change. It means the pole shift theory is false or made up because it goes along with the round earth lie. If the Earth is flat, it doesn’t have North or South poles. Magnetic poles don’t exist and since we’re not allowed to travel to the North or South poles, it’s obvious they are hiding something.

Logic and common sense dictates that when you stand outside and look up to the sky, you don’t see or feel movement. I always thought this gravity theory was crap. We’re moving at thousands of miles per hour and then together with other planets in a spiral movement outwards towards a galactic center yet oceans don’t fall over or slosh around? Now when I think about this, how the fuck can gravity keep massive amounts of ocean from not overflowing?

South Americans would be standing sideways looking at the map with US/Canada in front of us, but water pours into their glasses sideways because of gravity? How does gravity know what’s East or West, gravity isn’t selective and it only works up and down not sideways.

The Pole Shift is about fear. Although I have always believed it to be an impossibility, and for the last 10 years so called experts and researchers have been warning about this happening any day, instilling fear into the masses because this is what control is all about. If this is the case, why don’t we get hit by meteors and space debris? If there are thousands of satellites in the Earth’s orbit, how come we never hear about one being hit or falling to Earth?

But wait a minute. Alex Collier has been in contact with Andromedans since the 70’s and I don’t remember anything about them telling him the Earth is flat. If it is, then Alex is full of crap or the Andromedans are not who they claim to be. How would he know anyways? It’s not like he hangs out with other Andromedans so he can discern who is real and who is a fake. I don’t think that Alex is dishonest, but I think he’s been duped because I have always believed that our right to not be interfered with must be honored and that those that do contact humans are not of the light but are dark entities trying to confuse us or keep us from finding the truth.

But wait a minute. Barbara Marciniak has been channeling the Pleaideans for over 40 years and I have been with her from the start, but I remember on a few occasions where they have said the Earth is not flat. If the Earth is flat, then Barbara is either a fake or she too is being duped into who the Pleaideans are really.

Billy Meier was told by the Plajerans they gave themselves that name; but that there is no such race as the Pleaideans. This would confirm something that I write about from the start of this blog. We are not allowed to be contacted; the law of non-interference must be respected, therefore the only conclusion I can come to is that those that do contact Humans are not of the light and don’t wish us well.

Nobody has ever traveled far enough into space to take an image of Earth. The same globe we look at in photos is the same from 100 years ago, only touched up a bit because of technology. We have satellites that can scan your eye retina yet we can’t get an image of Earth?

Because we’re restricted within a Dome/Matrix and like in the Truman Story, if we ever figured out the truth, we would cause a global civil war. Problem is that even if we found out the truth, we can’t make the Earth round. Does it matter whether it’s round or not? Is this really about whether the Earth is flat or spherical? No.

Nothing would change and this is why I wasn’t concerned about it; but if it is true that I live on a flat Earth then the question that will be driving me crazy is: Why are we being lied to? Was that part of the experiment that our goals were to figure it out? Why is this being hidden to us? What do we have to gain if we find out the truth? What does anyone have to lose by us finding out the truth? What difference does it make flat or round? Scientists have made many wrong assumptions or theories and have come clean many times and corrected their data.

We all know what even science and medicine can make mistakes. We also respect them when they admit to it and remedy the situation or correct the data. What is the problem with them telling us their research was incorrect and that they now believe the Earth is flat?

There are thousands of images drawn and painted from ancient history and civilizations depicting the Earth as a flat dome. They were not primitive civilizations. Some were much more advanced who lived before us. They built the Pyramids that we can’t figure out how they did it and we can’t duplicate what they built even with the technology we have today.

They lied about our history. They lied about how old our Earth is. They lied about the Pyramids, about alien gods and civilizations. They lied about everything. Why?

Because they don’t want us to know or find out we are powerful creators? They used us for their agenda. They hijacked our minds that they actually created (genetically altered the human body suit) and then used us to create their reality because they know how the mind works. They created dissonance in us so that we would believe the lies and through our thoughts create their reality. How?

Simple. They want to continue to rule and control this planet. They make up the story of N. Korea being bad and is a dictatorship. Because very few people are allowed in N. Korea, there is not much solid evidence to prove that Koreans are not hungry and that generally they are very happy. They have continually misinformed us to believe that N. Korea is a threat and this is then transferred to our thought processes and if enough of humanity believes that Korea will be attacked, IT WILL. This is how we manifest for them, which leads me to believe that if they need to use us, it means those that control us don’t have what we have.

I can’t say enough times that you are a powerful being and instead of being obsessed with finding the truth that you start learning how to use your power to improve your life and existence while you are here. Slowly, we will stop creating their reality and we will collapse it. When we collapse it, the dome will fall and we can finally free ourselves from this prison.

I may not be able to change this reality alone; but by using my power to create, I have created the life that I want. By focusing all my energy into what I want, eventually it manifests itself. The speed all depends on how much energy I give it. Usually, and lately; if I spend most of the day thinking about what I want, it manifests in a day or so, so it all depends on how much power you give to your thoughts.

Here is an example of something I want to manifest. How to and how NOT to.

How to manifest a greenhouse. After deciding that I want the greenhouse, I have to manifest the money to buy it. I don’t focus on the money, I focus on the intent. So, like anything, you build the thoughts to build the concept. I imagine and think about the space I want to deliver it to. What I need to do in order to clear that space, visualize the greenhouse itself. I draw out plans on how I want it to function inside. Do I want a keyhole shape raised bed or do I want half side raised bed and the other side as a working space. I see myself working in the greenhouse. This is what I write about, think about and see myself as.

What not to do or think: You can’t manifest by wishing something. I wish I had a greenhouse. I wish I had money for a greenhouse. I need money for a greenhouse. Will I be able to find the money? Will I be able to get it this year? These are non-intent thoughts. Universe isn’t getting instructions, it doesn’t see your plan or visualize the greenhouse. Wanting, wishing and hoping are all non-intent thoughts.

So, when you want to manifest something, you literally manifest that in your mind, see it the way you want to see yourself. If it’s having a lot of money, see yourself counting it or sharing it with others. See yourself shopping for things you want. If you need money to pay the mortgage, see yourself at the bank making the payment, sitting in your home relaxed and happy. You literally have to ” imagine” what you want to manifest. If you have ANY doubts, if you’re not sure, if you have self doubts about your abilities, you will not be able to manifest.

At first it takes a while because you have to remove the self doubts and uncertainties. You have to ” know” you are a powerful creator and your thoughts have to be intentions or visions of what you want.

I live this everyday, although I spend less time focused on what I want because I have everything I want, but yesterday I started to manifest a protector for my new cellphone. Today, I went to the mainland and found one at a price I could afford/willing to spend.

When I manifested the greenhouse, I actually went out to the garden to the space I wanted to build it and measured the exact space for it. I drew plans, I created a list of vegetables/plants that I wanted to grow. I researched on ideas; all day long I just thought about that greenhouse and how beautiful it would look in the garden. A few days later, as I was making a batch of Cannabis Oil; there was much more oil produced than I thought and was able to sell it exactly for what the Greenhouse cost me.

Stop creating their reality of wars, death, destruction, racism and negative behaviors and start manifesting your own reality by focusing on what you want and not what you don’t want.

When you’re watching something you don’t like, you must ” think with intent” in order to not create their reality. They are using methods to deceive you and insert thoughts into your mind so that you focus on it and create for them. ” This is not my reality and I will have no part of it”; is usually what I think when I come across things that don’t fall into my reality. By doing this, we will eventually collapse the Matrix/Dome.

This has been a very long post and I thought about separating the Flat Earth and Manifesting but somehow they blended really well together. I’m not the fat lady giving advise to others on how to lose weight. I’m actually living what I give advice about. I have experience in manifesting.

Let me clarify something. Manifesting is not easy. Why? Because we don’t have an entire day to just sit around, meditate on what we want. We all have to venture into the world, go to work, take care of our children, whatever else that we need to do during the day so we have to find time in between to focus. This is the challenge. The challenge is to remove thoughts that don’t benefit you in any way. To avoid discussions that don’t benefit you in any way. To stop worrying about the little stuff like do you have enough vacuum filters to clean the house or will you be able to buy lunch tomorrow because it’s a holiday. These things are like weights on our minds, they clutter the space we could use for more beneficial thoughts. It’s a process that requires a lot of practice and remembering that we are trying to manifest. A simple phone call can throw you off because the conversation upset you or caused you to worry about something.

I found it much easier when I became the observer, I didn’t react to the external stimuli, I simply saw it for what it was without emotion or judgement. Our minds are cluttered with so much crap that we have to clear the garbage first, set our goals, make a good plan and then start practicing it.  Like me, you won’t get it the first time, you may feel at times that nothing is moving or nothing is happening, be patient. Just losing confidence will stop the manifesting. You have to get to a point where you already have what you want. The Universe just gives more of what you have.

Hope this helped and hope I didn’t make a fool out of myself on the Flat Earth but it’s not about whether it’s flat or round. I want to know WHY it’s being hidden from us. I want to know why we are not told the truth. So, I will keep digging and searching until I find the answers.

Dumbed Down and Drugged

My usual morning routine is to make my coffee, sit at laptop and turn on RT news to see what madness is happening and where it’s happening. After watching what is going on in the US, I thought about writing a Dear American post but then thought it would not be appropriate because most of you that read this blog are not as stupid, ignorant, violent, disrespectful, hateful and drugged up or dumbed down as other Americans are. To make matter worse, I find this message below in my FB Messenger. My first reaction after reading this was sadness. I didn’t take offense to this, it didn’t bother me that someone would go out of their way to find me and then leave something like this because there is nothing to get upset about. I feel sad for all Americans that think and feel this way. What happened to the “Beacon of Light” America once stood for?

This person obviously doesn’t have much respect for fellow human beings, doesn’t value different views and opinions and unless you’re agreeing with him, he will label you as something. It’s just sad, really sad because as I often write, this is not going to end up very good. Trump is just another diversion to keep you chasing his problems, while things are being planned and done in the background.

There was a time when I was hopeful that humanity would finally open it’s eyes to the problems it’s caused and find a way to come together, but as each days passes, I am losing hope. Not for me, not for humanity, but for Americans because THEY, the Americans will decide the fate of their country. They can blame anyone they want for things going wrong, but this kind of hatred and violence will only bring more of it and this is what the cabal wants. They want chaos, they want disorder so they can bring in Marshall Law and bring in the big tanks.

There is no need for me to give out advice because each one of us are creators of our own realities, but it’s obvious this is the path Americans have chosen and I’m sure there is purpose in this, nothing happens by chance. And finally, this man that I won’t leave his identity obviously didn’t like what I wrote though he didn’t refer to any specific post so not sure what it was that triggered his deranged anger, but it must have something to do with God or god; whatever, let’s just hope he realizes what he’s done and has done me no harm, only to himself and contributed to  lowering his frequency.

“I just read your blog on OUTOFTHISWORLDMATRIX. CONGRATULATIONS!!! I hereby dub you as the NEW-UNSURPASSED BIGGEST MORON WHO’S EVER WASTED OXYGEN ON THE FACE OF THIS PLANET! ( Yes, I was yelling – I had to make sure your dense little pea sized brain could absorb it. ) You fit right in on that site with those whacko disinfo new age artists! Have you ever considered suicide? Honestly, that is your best option at this point. When this hits the National media airwaves, I promise to make sure your name and facebook page is listed as well as the morons who own the blog site. People need to know delusional idiots like you are really out there. See you on the tube… moron.”

Can you Dream?

As I sit here reading Michelle Walling’s posts, I realized that my moment was just blank. What does that mean? It means that I’m not fretting about the weather, wondering if I have clients tomorrow, not looking at the watch to see if it’s bedtime yet, not thinking about what I need to take out of freezer for our meals tomorrow. The entire day was spent just daydreaming about all the abundance that has come my way in the last few months.

I sit here, trying to explain the stage/phase I am at in life. This life. This reality. One that started out with so much violence, abuse, rigid parents, moving every couple of years, being sexually assaulted, dying while giving birth to my son 37 years ago, marrying another abusive man…the list goes on. The traumatic experiences in the first 30 years of  my life are enough to send someone to a looney bin or drive them to drugs and alcohol. At least that’s what the statistics show.

I’m sitting here, just being. Each time I want something it manifests. Two weeks ago I wanted to buy some things for myself and within days a group of clients show up at my door needing help and money just kept coming in. This happens to me everyday. A packet arrived this morning that I ordered shoes for my partner and myself, a package of leggings and some items for making creams. My wallet is never empty. I stopped watering a batch of tomatoes a week ago, with temperatures over 36C for the last 10 days, these tomatoes refuse to die and I’m still picking them.

Nothing seems to end, money keeps flowing in, I’m in constant gratitude for all the things I’m spending money on this year. I know that I talk about having a great life and it’s always filled with abundance. Now I’m literally manifesting everything. The difference is that I don’t think about the outcome. Will I make it or not? Will it come in time? Will I have enough to pay for it? I don’t think about it that way anymore. I just KNOW that Universe will provide and it does.

Then the mind does a trick on me: “Am I really here?” “Do I really exist?” “Am I a figment of my imagination?” “Isn’t life supposed to be difficult?”. The answer: I don’t care, it matters not. I am where I am, I am what I am. The past or future are just illusions we imagine but are not real. I am here in this moment and almost afraid to wish for anything because I’m afraid that I might become materialistic. Who me? Heck no. How do you stop money from coming? “Money, please don’t come, I don’t need it”.

I know life is tough for many people. I look at what is going on in the USA right now and I don’t know whether I should laugh or cry. I can’t decide if it’s funny or sad, comical or pathetic. Maybe I am not in their reality anymore. Can someone please knock on my door so I can be sure that we’re sharing the same reality?

You may think I’m nuts. No. I’m sharing every thought that is coming through. There is no fear, no apprehension, no worry, no cares, no negativity about anything, I am simply sitting here and trying to put in words how great this new reality is. What happened? What changed? What was the magic word or thought that brought me here? I don’t know.

The next step is to now look for new challenges. I think I’m going to go back to Photography and start recording the beauty of this island. I already have many postcards that I made years ago. Here are a few: n1277889945_11527_4304

My ancestors moved to the island and lived in the tower of this palace. They were servants to the Italian Marchi-Martini Family, that was in 1776.


You see, I can do anything I set my mind to do. I have never thought “I can’t”. I have never NOT accomplished what I set out to do. Isn’t that godlike? Isn’t that like Creator?

Ines and Gina

My daughter Gina and I last year when she came to visit from Vancouver. She's 38 years old. Wow. I still feel like I'm 38. Time stopped.

If we talk about talents, I can’t list them all. It’s not about how much I know and can do, it’s about doing it with heart. I never do anything unless I feel it and enjoy doing it. I hate cleaning house so I hire a housekeeper. While she cleans, I cook gourmet meals. Life is fantastic, this reality is complete, I’m ready to move on.

What about you? Do you have something to be proud of? Have you helped at least 100 people in this lifetime? Can you wake up in the morning not even knowing what date it is because you’re not slaving for anyone? Do you cook when you’re hungry? Can you take your partner by the hand and say: “I’m in the mood, can I take you with me?” What is life if you’re forced to live it by a schedule or because you have obligations, loans to pay back, maxed out credit cards? Instead of putting money away you went out and bought the latest smart phone, right? Do you know how much money you can save simply by not buying your morning coffee? A penny day for 25 years is million dollars. Did you know that?

So, if you had to rate your life right now would you say you’re doing everything you want to do? Do you have enough of everything? Do you check prices when shopping for food? Do you grow your own food? If you die today, will you leave a legacy behind? Do you even know why you are here?

I know why I’m here. I’m here to manifest and be an example to others. It’s one thing to just talk about it, another to live it. Are you living your life to your full potential? Can you walk away from everything and start over?

Screw the little things, they get us into trouble, clutter our minds for bigger thing and disable us from creating. True, life is what you make it. But what kind of life do you want and or do you even know? Can you survive 3 months without a paycheck?

If you never hear from me again, just know this: Typing on this laptop and sharing my stories got really boring. If I left this reality, you can be assured I did it with joy and knowing the other side was waiting. When I cross over, I’m heading straight home and asking Creator to give me an A in manifesting!

The Cannabis Story

If you have been diagnosed with Cancer, before choosing or accepting any treatments; you have to think about why your cells turned against you. It doesn’t matter that you HAVE Cancer, if you don’t know what caused it, you can’t cure it.

Many experts/scientists and medical researchers outside of the status quo give different reasons/causes for Cancer. Whether it’s an invader such as bacteria, parasites, viruses or fungus, whether the person did bad things to their body like smoking, poor diet, exposure to chemicals and radiation; the bottom line is that a once healthy cell for whatever reason turned rogue and started to replicate itself.

I’m very active in the Medical Cannabis Online Community and share my personal experiences with others, along with how I cured my partner from PAH (Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension), COPD that have the same outcome as Cancer. PAH and COPD are considered deadly and it’s a commonly known life span after diagnosis. For those of you that have been reading this blog for the last few years, you know the struggle I was having, arguing with doctors, writing letters and insisting on transparency when it came to toxic drugs.

Well, in the past few days a few people contacted me through FB Messenger. These are my people, Croatians. It saddened me to read and feel their desperation. None were actually Cancer patients, the people that contacted me asking for help were friends, sisters and co-workers. Three of them were Cancer and one of them COPD who didn’t get any benefits from conventional treatments and they were sent home to die because the Cancer had mutated.

These people were actually repeating the very same thing their loved ones were and that is contacting a stranger and asking for help without giving any specifics.

How do they know I was truthful in my posts? How do they think I could help them when I grew the Cannabis and made my own Oil? This is typically how people diagnosed with Cancer behave. A stranger tells them they HAVE Cancer and must start Chemotherapy as soon as possible. These so called experts/oncologists never ask the patient what kind of lifestyle they lived, what their diet is like, where they work or if they had any exposure to toxins to at least get an idea of how the Cancer developed.

In turn, the patient, having met the Oncologist maybe for the first time completely hands over their power to this so called expert/stranger, doesn’t ask any questions and dares to ask: “What are my odds?”

The people that contacted me told me their friends/co-workers didn’t look at other options after being diagnosed. They trusted a stranger/doctor, accepted the therapy no questions asked. So, like in most of the cases the chemo and radiation didn’t work, the Cancer cells mutated and only then do they get desperate.

It’s difficult for me to be understanding let alone objective because we live in an informational age. These people obviously have access to internet, have researched in different forums and blogs and found me so why couldn’t they do this right from the start? How come they didn’t or couldn’t just learn how to grow the Cannabis or find someone to buy it and make their own Oil? They weren’t even specific about what help they needed, they just asked for help.  When I asked them for more information, I would get a few short sentences and then it clicked and started to make sense to me.

These people wanted a quick solution and wanted someone else AGAIN to do the work for them. I have no experience with treating Mutated Cancer Cells so I couldn’t even offer the Oil to them for free. Because I don’t have that experience, I don’t dare give hope to patients whose bodies are damaged by chemo and the rest of it being eaten up by mutated cancer cells and tried to find a gentle way to say: “Sorry, I can’t help you, I can only send you love”.

For starters, candidates for receiving my Cannabis Oil are those that have not gone through conventional therapies. Not only do they have the best chance of being cured but their mindset is different. They have done their research, they have noticed people dying from Cancer and the conventional treatments don’t work and they take responsibility for their condition.

Treating mutated cancer cells can be successful but under certain conditions. I tell my clients if they choose Chemo to also take Zeolite so that it can detox and clean out the toxins so they don’t build up in the body and cause more damage. They have to remove everything from their lives that could have a negative influence on them including family and friends that are not supportive of their choices. They need to take supplements to strengthen the immune system, to be positive. To stay away from negative people and environments even if that means staying home like a recluse. To take walks in nature and notice everything around them, to observe nature and connect with it, if possible walk barefoot to connect to Mother Gaia.

I can’t help people that continue to harm their bodies through an unhealthy lifestyle because these all neutralize any Cannabis benefits.

It takes roughly 5 months from germination to harvest when growing Cannabis plants. cannabisaugust2

I’m in the garden everyday taking care of them and ensuring they get everything they need. They are like children growing up and about to give birth. Producing oil is costly as alcohol is very expensive in Croatia and difficult to obtain.


The oil seen in this photo was made last night from an entire male plant. Each syringe contains 6 gr. or 6 ml. of Cannabis Oil. That’s a total of 18 gr. plus 4 in the spoon. This is not enough for treating Cancer but enough for maintenance for my partner.

For only 100 gr. of Cannabis, I need 2L of pure alcohol and it’s difficult to obtain. Good thing my best friend owns a pharmacy and she’s able to get it for me. In the end, this oil will cure most diseases but patients have to do their part and contribute to being well and avoiding all thing that are detrimental to them. I made this batch last night and just because it’s a male plant doesn’t mean it didn’t produce quality oil. Look at it. It may not have high dosage of THC but only .05 mg is needed to activate the Endocannabinoid receptors, so this is good enough for my needs. In a few weeks, there will be a lot of buds that I will make into potent medicine.

The people that contacted me didn’t fit any of the criteria even if I accepted money because ethically I stand behind my product and if the Cancer patients allowed the Chemo to destroy their bodies, even the most and best Oil has little chance of working.

Had I been doing this a few years ago, I probably would have sent the Oil no questions asked and glad to be able to help but after really giving it a lot of thought, Cannabis Oil can get a bad name if patients don’t use it properly or continue to live an unhealthy lifestyle and in the end might blame me accusing me of not giving them good quality.

My Chinese Doctor and teacher/mentor Dr. Joseph Wu in Vancouver B.C., often told me that we should never give anything away because they won’t appreciate it. If we have to charge them 10 cents,  but we have to charge something. He said they would most likely misuse things because it didn’t cost them anything. He also said that we only give to the deserving ones and the non-deserving will die, it’s Karma and we can’t change their destiny; only they can.

For a long time I admired the founder of Rick Simpson Oil. His entire philosophy was based on helping people. For many years he produced the Oil himself and gave it away and then eventually taught others how to make their own oil for cheap and without using expensive equipment. I’m using his recipe and love it, it’s very potent and 100% pure Cannabis, I help others as well but only if the patients have no other way of obtaining it. In other words they don’t have a space to grow it or a means of buying the material to make the oil.

What changed last night was while I was doing some research on Cannabis Oil in Croatian, I came across a website that Rick Simpson has in Amsterdam. He was selling Cannabis products and the prices just knocked me off my feet. He was charging 100 euros for 1 gr. of Cannabis Oil. He claims that you need 60 gr. of Oil to cure cancer and if they had chemo then it would require up to 120 gr. At 60 grams, that’s  6000 Euros close to USD. For my country, it’s unobtainable. The average Joe here has to work 12 months to make that kind of money and you can’t charge it on your credit card either. This  means that his oil is only attainable to the wealthy and upper class of society.

What happened to you Rick? What happened to the down to earth guy that wanted to educate and help people? Did greed get to you? It’s a lot! Here in Croatia you can find the same Oil for 35 Euros because the market can’t handle more.

So, behind every cancer lies a story, a story of what that person did or didn’t do to their body whether it’s conscious or not. How does one proceed upon being diagnosed? Exploring all options and then choosing the therapy/or therapies. While in treatment trying to find out why or what caused the healthy cells to turn against each other. Perhaps visiting someone who can help the patients balance their mindset, removing negative thoughts, changing their perception about Cancer, learning to live a more positive life, stop having negative thoughts, learning to live a more spiritual life. If we don’t try and isolate the cause, chances are it can return even after successful therapies. This is the mind that creates another reality to get sick if we don’t stop it. Treating any illness must include body, mind and spirit otherwise the chances of a permanent cure is slim.

I have learned a lot on this journey together with my partner to get him well again. He has also learned that giving our power over to doctors is a sure death sentence. He was on the brink of life/death several times and perhaps it was for reason and purpose because he realized the drugs were killing him and not curing him.

His transformation is so incredible, his illness has brought us even closer, challenged our inner truths, strengthened our belief in self-healing and gave us an understanding that even death can be a choice when on the brink of it.

I’m proud of him as he went from a very religious man who only believed in Modern Medicine to believing he IS god and self-responsibility is his only choice for being well. I’m looking forward to many more years together with him and instead of fearing losing him, I can focus more on loving him while he chooses to stay a while longer.

Each have their own story, this is mine and I’m sticking to it!