6 SHIFTS IN CONSCIOUSNESS WE ARE EXPECTING RIGHT NOW AND SOME ALREADY LIVING IT

Comment from Ines: As always, synchronicity abounds in my life. This article just happens to align with my thoughts and beliefs especially the ones I keep repeating over and over: Everything is as it should be, our thoughts create our reality and stop worrying about the small things, focus on working on you. We are all doing what we should be doing. We made the choice to come here and have this experience. Enjoy!

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by Michael Forrester,

Absolutely everything is a wave of energy and there are many new energies taking place on Earth. We’ve shifted consciousness, but we’re still using old reflections to create our reality. Abundance in all aspects of life is now much easier to achieve in the new vibration and a confidence in our abilities will soon magnify to great levels in the coming years. There will be some obstacles and challenges ahead, but know that the following shifts in our being are happening right now as all humans are born into spiritual wealth without practice.

Vibrating frequencies build a virtual construct that makes you think you are in a physical world, but you are not. You are in a holographic universe which is an illusion so well designed, that only the highest beings of light can see it for what it is. This is your destiny, but now you will continue to play this game called Earth at a level never played before. You are still playing with three dimensional rules in afifth dimensional world, but you’re quickly learning how to make the transition by shifting energy.

Think about all the areas of wellness, whether they be physical, mental, social, lifestyle, morals, the spiritual aspects of life (e.g. new age, Western religion, Eastern spirituality)…they are all enveloped and affected by energy. How you think, feel and act is all energetic.

Right or wrong, black and white, good and bad don’t really exist, but we still need the duality to continue the game in its current form. You will soon discover that everything is a shade of grey.

The most important thing you can do right now is little the what is whispering to your heart. It won’t shout to get your attention so you must listen very closely to the messages you are receiving.

6 Shifts in Consciousness We Are Experiencing Right Now

1. THE REALIZATION OF THE ETERNAL NATURE OF YOUR BEING

You are immortal in a physical vessel which you decide is mortal. Your physical vessel does not need to die, but you have come to accept that it will, so it does. There is a balance of well-being that is certain for all of us. You all have a shared pain and part of the process of integration is the understanding of why it exists. Illness is not always a sign that there is something wrong. To acclimate to new energy, many of you have chosen to push through these physical barriers first. You have been conditioned that you must all naturally contract diseases and take drugs to fix them. This is not so.You are immortal in a physical vessel which you decide is mortal. Your physical vessel does not need to die, but you have come to accept that it will, so it does. There is a balance of well-being that is certain for all of us. You all have a shared pain and part of the process of integration is the understanding of why it exists. Illness is not always a sign that there is something wrong. To acclimate to new energy, many of you have chosen to push through these physical barriers first. You have been conditioned that you must all naturally contract diseases and take drugs to fix them. This is not so.

You WILL know the eternal nature of your being and you will enjoy putting down your burdens and stop struggling to defend and guard against things you feel have gone wrong and must be made right. This is where most of your pain resides. You will learn to love knowing that you don’t have to fix your planet or anybody else and that everything is just as it should be. You will come to know that your governments are exactly where they should be as are all your diverse beliefs and desires. Things do not have to change for you to be who and what you came here to be. It is then and only then that all the “fixing” required by your egos will actually occur, but you will also know that in reality, nothing ever needed to be fixed. You will let go of any resistance and hold yourself in steady alignment. Will it not be a magnificent moment when humanity can just be without having to be something else? This is where you are headed because you are divine beings of light and you have become masters at this game you call Earth. You no longer need to allow fear and resistance to subject your life to pain. You are moving away from this and transitioning more to love.

2. SHIFT IN VITAL AND SPIRITUAL ENERGY

Vital energy makes up about 70% of total subtle energy and sustains the physical body, mind, intellect and ego. It is distributed through subtle channels which connect at special points of intensity most popularly known as chakras. This constructs the physical (voluntary and involuntary actions) and the subtle body (conscious/subconscious mind, intellect and ego). It is prevalent throughout the body and supplies energy to the cells, nerves, arteries, lymph etc. Some concepts relating to the subtle body are partially understood by scientists, but the level of understanding has always been rudimentary. That is now changing.Vital energy makes up about 70% of total subtle energy and sustains the physical body, mind, intellect and ego. It is distributed through subtle channels which connect at special points of intensity most popularly known as chakras. This constructs the physical (voluntary and involuntary actions) and the subtle body (conscious/subconscious mind, intellect and ego). It is prevalent throughout the body and supplies energy to the cells, nerves, arteries, lymph etc. Some concepts relating to the subtle body are partially understood by scientists, but the level of understanding has always been rudimentary. That is now changing.

Spiritual or Kundalini energy lies dormant in a person until activated. These concepts cannot be measured with current technology. Those who have practicedmeditation and spiritual principles at the qualitative and quantitative level have assisted in the continual grace of principles that leads these Kundalini forces on the right path. However, the shift in global frequencies and fifth dimensional concepts is allowing all of humanity to earn spiritual wealth simultaneously and without the efforts that were once necessary. In the past, people had to work hard to amass spiritual wealth. Now, it will be as if all humans are born into spiritual wealth without practice. You have received a magnificent upgrade that is allowing this energy to be activated by simply embracing the being that you are. It is leading to spiritual growth at an accelerated rate.

3. ENERGETIC HARMONY

Imagine creating a unified harmony through 800 trillion cells and vibrating them into health and well being. Humming itself produces overtones which can heal your mind, body and spirit. You will begin loving your voice and humming or singing from day to day to assist in accelerating your spiritual growth. It will come natural to you. You will begin feeling mystic silent overtones vibrating through your cells and body. This will also awaken your deepest desires to be unified with overtones of love and help breakdown stiffness and pain and facilitate your spirit body to flow.Imagine creating a unified harmony through 800 trillion cells and vibrating them into health and well being. Humming itself produces overtones which can heal yourmind, body and spirit. You will begin loving your voice and humming or singing from day to day to assist in accelerating your spiritual growth. It will come natural to you. You will begin feeling mystic silent overtones vibrating through your cells and body. This will also awaken your deepest desires to be unified with overtones of love and help breakdown stiffness and pain and facilitate your spirit body to flow.

As you begin to breakdown the veil, you will realize you have a shared pain on this planet and it is not your own. It is connected to everyone and everything. There is beauty in that shared pain and you will learn to see it for what it is throughenergetic harmony. You will move past specific body pain you thought was your own when it was actually part of the collective. Once embraced, this pain will cease to exist. You will let this pain go because you will understand its origin. Many of you will heal from pain and disease in ways you will think are miracles, but it will be simply the miracle of who you are and nothing more.

4. ENERGETIC CAUSATION

What scientific studies have failed to address on the planet is causation. They have tried through many different methods to obtain conclusive results in their scientific research through a countless number of double blind, placebo controlled and random studies which are considered the highest standards for scientific experiment. We can tell you that there has never been one published scientific study based on this standard that has identified causation beyond sub-atomic levels. Yet it is precisely those levels that cause everything to manifest in the physical body as it does.What scientific studies have failed to address on the planet is causation. They have tried through many different methods to obtain conclusive results in their scientific research through a countless number of double blind,placebo controlled and random studies which are considered the highest standards for scientific experiment. We can tell you that there has never been one published scientific study based on this standard that has identified causation beyond sub-atomic levels. Yet it is precisely those levels that cause everything to manifest in the physical body as it does.

Scientific studies can only derive correlations because they do not address energetic causation which is the underlying mechanism behind every single experience and event whether physical or non-physical. 100% of your diseases are based on energetic components within your field. There is NO other cause of disease. Diseases are primarily third dimensional experiences and will cease to exist when you learn to remain at higher dimensions, and you will.

This will be a big one for scientists as many will learn in the coming decade to factor energetic principles as causation before initiating any study. You will all begin to have a better understanding of the effect of energetic resonance and the effects on all physical things. This will revolutionize science and remove many obstacles that have hindered scientific inquiry from progressing on the planet. The physics and the metaphysics will soon combine.

5. ENERGETIC TRANSFER AND REFLECTION

You can only attract what is within your vibrational field. There are no experiences that you can obtain in physical form without attracting them from a vibrational perspective. That includes the most horrific experiences and the most beautiful ones. What you will learn to do is accept relationships and experiences for what they are. People and experiences serve as a reflection to teach you something about yourself. If somebody says something that offends you, it is because your vibrational field contained an element that needed to be addressed. You will see these people differently. You will thank them for being that reflection and the transfer of energy that was necessary for you to recognize your own vibration. You will honor these people for coming into your life and teaching you what would otherwise be quite difficult to learn without their assistance.You can only attract what is within your vibrational field. There are no experiences that you can obtain in physical form without attracting them from a vibrational perspective. That includes the most horrific experiences and the most beautiful ones. What you will learn to do is accept relationships and experiences for what they are. People and experiences serve as a reflection to teach you something about yourself. If somebody says something that offends you, it is because your vibrational field contained an element that needed to be addressed. You will see these people differently. You will thank them for being that reflection and the transfer of energy that was necessary for you to recognize your own vibration. You will honor these people for coming into your life and teaching you what would otherwise be quite difficult to learn without their assistance.

You will come to enjoy the effect that all people have on you, even those you now consider to be obnoxious, rude, insensitive, careless, ignorant, etc. These are qualities you have always judged in yourself and the reflection is only there because you attract it. So start thanking your overbearing boss, nosy neighbor or rude coworker for what they bring to your energy field, because you’ve attracted them into your life for a reason and they’re only doing their job…to be the light you want them to be, and most of the time, it was a mutual effort and request.

6. POLARITY CONSCIOUSNESS AND NEUTRALITY

Perhaps one of the biggest victories awaiting humanity is the shift from polarity or duality consciousness and the dichotomous right vs. wrong which has resulted in much of the conflict and suffering that exists between men and women, people of various races, the wealthy and poor, the strong and weak. Hierarchies have also been formed creating further degrees of separation, (good, better, best) where particular persons or events were rigorously judged within this context. This will end.Perhaps one of the biggest victories awaiting humanity is the shift from polarity or dualityconsciousness and the dichotomous right vs. wrong which has resulted in much of the conflict and suffering that exists between men and women, people of various races, the wealthy and poor, the strong and weak. Hierarchies have also been formed creating further degrees of separation, (good, better, best) where particular persons or events were rigorously judged within this context. This will end.

All of humanity will begin to understand that all experiences and perceptions are neutral in nature and it is only the ego which places an emphasis on good vs. bad, or right vs. wrong. This shift will be part of the grand awakening which is currently well on its way.

You will begin uniting and accepting each other as equals, and this will be passed to your children liberating successive generations from the shackles of duality.Humanity has already begun transcending this pattern.

Life’s experiences which are now viewed in extreme polarity and prejudice will be viewed as the natural order of one’s life. Being present in that observation by loving, allowing and accepting the world will lead to joy, happiness and enlightenment.

The hard part is over. The only thing left to do now is alter your expectations and enjoy the ride. You are a divine being of light and your true nature will soon be all you know. The pace is now accelerating and the coming changes will also be met byshifts in monetary systems, the political landscape and well as modifications in social and economical infrastructures. This will happen sooner than later, but likely before the end of this year. Many of these events will happen simultaneously and when the greater cycles begins, you will know. It will be difficult, but that is the time to be centered and focus on seeing all the good that will come in the age of empowerment. You are a truly empowered human…own your mastery.

DEAD- DYING- DIED- DEATH

All holidays dedicated to the theme of death should be abolished. All customs related to death should be stopped. In Croatia widows wear black for 7 years. If your parents die, you wear black 4 years I believe and a child, well, some women wear black for the rest of their lives. If you see a woman dressed in black you know she’s constantly being reminded on a daily basis that she lost someone she loved.

In Croatia, not a month goes by that we don’t honor/celebrate at least 1 holiday that can be Veterans Day, Independence Day, The Day of the Fallen Soldier, Holocaust Reminder Day, Remembrance Day, The Battle of whatever day, Easter time is the death of Jesus and tomorrow/this weekend, Croatians are rushing to flower shops and markets spending a fortune on flowers for the Day of the Dead. The topic in village amongst the women is what kind of flowers they bought and when they are going to clean/arrange the grave.

In Croatia, people spend a fortune building family Tombs, usually it’s parents, grandparents and children, so 3 generations. It all depends on how much money you have, your status is noted by the size of the Tomb. Death is the main topic today in my world because not one person alive doesn’t know someone who is dying or has a family member dying. I personally don’t know anyone in my surroundings that are not ill or suffering with something and if they are not, they talk about it all day long.

To be reminded of death from a mortal perspective is horrifying. Why do we need to be reminded of it everyday? What is the purpose of it? Catholics believe their loved ones will either go to heaven or hell, but will live in eternal peace. If they live in eternal peace, then they are not dead correct? They don’t really understand what they are being taught, but they believe the soul is eternal and it rests either in heaven or hell. Ok, I get it. It doesn’t matter whether you believe it or not, it doesn’t even matter what happens to someone when they die, but do you have to remind me of it everyday?

I don’t go to funerals. The exception is of course immediate family or a client I knew for a long time, but I’m living the dangerous line of being judged for not paying my respects, I am expected to respect their traditions and rituals, but they don’t respect mine when I tell them that I don’t believe in death, that we transition from this body into another. It matters not whether they believe it or not, but it does matter if they don’t respect my religion. If I don’t go, I am insensitive and don’t care about the family. If I go, I am stoic and unemotional, at times with a smile because the person dead is sending me messages: “Look at these idiots, spending all that money and wasting all those tears for me. If she knew I had a mistress for 20 years, she would not be here wailing and passing out from pain”.

I do try to hide my emotions because yes, I am sad that person is no longer here, but at the same time I know they transitioned from that body into another, depending on what their choice was after this lifetime.

“As a price for burial, the parish priest can demand nothing without incurring the suspicion of simony. Burial is a spiritual right belonging to the faithful; and the parish priest, in virtue of his office, is bound to perform this duty for his parishioners. Nevertheless, if there is a legitimate custom which allows offerings to be made, or if the bishop should have established a fixed scale of offerings, the parish priest may demand such fees provided he in no way incurs suspicion of extortion.” – Catholic Encyclopedia. Why even mention extortion? It’s used. The parish priest won’t perform the funeral ritual without being paid for it. A funeral mass is to be paid for. The last sacrament before death is paid for. The christening of your new house is paid for. Chiming bells in the village to announce a death must be paid for.

I have been told, for a mediocre funeral meaning a mediocre casket, buried in the village grave because the person was poor to build a family Tomb costs about 11,000 Kunas which translates to about $2,500 USD. This amount is the cheapest really, includes all the parish/church fees and serves right down to paying the village utility people to drop the casket with a rope, lower themselves into the tomb with already existing bones and not included music unless the family gets someone to volunteer for a band or group to sing. Keep in mind, this cheap funeral costs on the average 4 month salary in Croatia. For a medium sized funeral with all the bells and whistles with a coffin that guarantees the body won’t decompose for 50 years, it is 30,000 kunas and most people don’t have that kind of cash and have to borrow.

It’s ridiculous that I should be worried about my Tomb long before I die or just in case I die. Those that have money have their Tomb built long before they get old because “you never know”. The costs of death not to mention being reminded of it everyday is just too much to bear, and I often wonder how people stay sane in a world that is already challenged by false dogma, and a society that has lived through thousands of years of occupations and wars. As if that is not enough, they continue to live in the past and consider me to be insensitive to this.

I am. I have already made arrangements that should something happen to me before we transcend/ascend, I want them to cremate me and sprinkle the ashes over the ocean. I DO NOT want the leftovers to be reminded of me in any way shape or form because I am NOT going to be there.

I find it silly at times when I walk by the cemetery and see women sitting over the graves and talking to whoever is down there. I find it so heart wrenching to hear a mother who just lost her child utter  that God needed another angel. She will put on her black and remind herself for the rest of her life that she had a child at one time. What kind of religion insists we be reminded of death and use it as a means of being good or bad? If you are good, you get to go to heaven. But what happens in heaven and where exactly is this? They don’t know.

If you’re bad you go to hell, but what happens in hell and where exactly is it? IF a person goes to hell for being bad, then why do they even bother going to Confession, telling the priest of your sins, being told to pray a few hundred Hail Mary’s? Doesn’t make sense, but then nothing in any religion makes sense. What religion does is re shape your mind into believing you are a worthless piece of shit, born in sin and god loves you conditionally, therefore, fear the god and fear death all your life. That sucks.

We need to stop living in the past and start living for today. I have no disrespect for people who died in wars or served their country or did big things in life, but come on, do we need to remind ourselves why they died for us? Such guilt, such fatalism, such suffering and such bullshit!

I AM HERE NOW LIVING A HUMAN EXPERIENCE. YOU ARE HERE NOW LIVING YOUR HUMAN EXPERIENCE. DEATH DOES NOT EXIST, IT’S A MYTH CREATED TO INSTILL FEAR INTO YOU.

Activating Your DNA With The Source Floodlight

Comments: I’m not such an elegant writer as Michelle is, but when I read her article I thought she was perhaps my higher self or soul sister sharing the same journey. This article is too big to comment in terms of what I think but I can tell you that it can’t get any closer than this. I like Michelle’s approach, like mine, no nonsense without fear of what others might think or act should they disagree.  For many years I was unable to attract this white light we were told to use and a few years ago I started to bring in beautiful, colorful energies later accompanied with a light I can only call brilliance in shades of golden white waves. I now know that my body at the time was already protected from false lights (go back to my Jan and Feb.2014 old posts to read about the false light entities). 

actovating DNA

by Michelle Walling,
Staff writer, In5D.com

Many New Age methods are becoming transparent or simply not working at all for lightworkers, energy workers, and starseeds. Methods that use the white light to heal or to transmute energy within your body are beginning to uncover hidden problems. Because of the new energies bathing the planet, I have been drawn to share the most effective method of transmuting energies using the Golden Source Floodlight.

The true zombie apocalypse

We are now living in the real zombie apocalypse. As you look around in your reality, you may notice the glassy eyed stoic emotional human that looks like a wandering lost soul. Perhaps there isn’t even a soul in that body after all, but many of these people are simply lost in a mind controlled stupor.

There is a frequency fence that is sending out a low vibrational frequency that is designed to keep people from realizing that they are being mind controlled. There are frequencies that work with the nanobots or AI technology that have been ingested through chemtrails and GMO food. Tap water has fluoride as well as other controlling substances in order to keep people “doped up”. The small group of hidden controllers of this planet simply had an advantage over the humans through the use of advanced E.T. technology, DNA manipulation, deceit, esoteric knowledge that has been kept from humanity, and the advantage of being hidden in a different dimension.

Reiki and false light tricksters

As this third dimensional reality’s matrix overlay continues to dissolve, a person may have the realization that something is wrong. Through desperation, intention for change, and soul awakening triggers, they begin to become more immune to the frequency fence vibration. They may begin to question everything and they learn that they may be carrying low vibrational energies and “hitchhikers” within them that need to be cleared.

Many beginners turn to Reiki as a method of healing, as well as other methods which rely on the “white light” and someone else to facilitate the energetic transformation. When an attunement is not done right the receiver will take on part of the Reiki master’s energy field, thus they pick up even more energies that are not theirs. On top of that, some people who do not realize what they are doing bring in the “white light” instead of pure Source light to do the attunement.

White light may be of a higher vibration but the “source” of the energy is not always known.

There are negative beings in the fourth dimensional astral realms that have a higher vibration than us, and this is why we can’t see them. That doesn’t mean that they have our best interest in mind. Remember to be discerning with who works with your energy field and body, understand the source of their practices, and rest assured that everything you may have done in the past can be corrected with pure Source energy and higher consciousness.

Any time you agree to receive energy you are opening your body up to receiving anything that matches your request. You should be specific in the origin of the energy, because there are many beings patiently waiting for the next awakened person to generically ask for “white light”, Jesus, Archangel Michael, ascended masters, gurus, and angels to help them in this lifetime. These trickster beings are simply looking for a way to access energy and are getting more and more desperate for an energy source. These beings are not able to get what they need through a direct connection with Source/Creator.

These beings can shapeshift or manifest a body and come to you in any form that will be familiar or appealing to you such as: ( yellow reptilians posing as One and Eve–I added this) , Ascension Masters, Sananda, St. Germain, basically entities that are making YOU their official voice). Their goal is to receive a cord connection to you, like plugging in an electrical appliance to an outlet. If there is a true archangel or ascended master that is helping people, they must be really busy with the number of people praying to them. The chances of another being slipping in depends upon many variables. The best bet is to connect with an energy source that is not able to be manipulated or hijacked.

Just because these white light trickster beings share your energy field does not always mean that they will harm you right away. In fact, if you give them enough energy, they may very well be able to transmute other lower vibrational energies you may have. After all, they don’t want to have to compete with any other being for your energy! They may also be able to use their advanced technologies to help you “channel” other beings or activate your pineal gland so that you can have a career as a psychic or healer. It may even be to their advantage to help you heal so that they can receive even more energy.

The point is that some people are operating as psychic, channelers, and healers because of the shared energies they are carrying that are not their own or of their oversoul. The more beings you allow in, the more energy gets sucked, and eventually fatigue, illness, and burnout may envelope you. The highest and best “channel” you can have is one that is tied to your oversoul and/or your star family, and when the earth shifts, she will not be taking these energy vampires with her. You do not want to be caught with one of them hanging onto you when you are trying to shift with the planet.

Superwave energies

The planet has been bathed with a variety of new energies over the last several decades. The most recent waves included activation energies and information energies. Wave X energies have been helping to break the mind control frequency fence and to uncover darkness within so that it can be transmuted. An advanced “superwave” of energies from the center of the Cosmos is available right now from Source. This is the highest vibrational energy you can receive in this dimension, and the astrological alignment of the planets in this space and time is the reason it is now more abundant to you. The ultimate goal is for this energy to be expanded within the body and for the original DNA template to be re-activated.

Getting rid of unwanted energy vampires and hitchhikers

It is time to thank the “middlemen” for their assistance until we were able to wake up and establish our true connection with Source. We can now cut all energetic cords and return them to sender with love. The only reasons I can think of to allow beings to continue to share your energetic field at this time would be if you have some beneficial contractual obligations with your star family that are in your highest and best interest, as well as if you are allowing parts of your oversoul from parallel lives to join you. When parts of your oversoul or star family join you they may be here to bring you wisdom, witness the events occurring on the planet at this time, help balance your energy, or to be healed themselves. These situations require your own discernment.

The Golden Source Floodlight

Ultimately, the best way to “receive” energy is to directly connect to Source. You may have imagined the white light energy in the past to come form Source, as I have often shared with you. That’s o.k. as long as you defined where the source of the energy was that you were drawing in. But in order to teach others how to expand their internal energy column and to insure you are connecting to Source, it is a good idea to change your visualization the “Source Floodlight” which is a golden, sparkly, brilliant, alive energy. You can bring it in anyway you prefer, through your crown chakra, heart chakra, or sacral chakra, or even through the back of your neck.

The Golden Source Floodlight

The point is to allow it to eventually completely flood you inside and out. As you practice this visualization, you can gradually grow your inner “hara line” of golden energy to expand to your neighborhood, city, state, country, planet, galaxy, solar system, Universe, mulitverse, and beyond.

Implants

Hitchhikers aren’t the only energy vampires. Etheric and physical implants may have been inserted into your etheric or physical bodies to steal your energy and as a mechanism through which you can be mind controlled. There is nothing that the Golden Source Floodlight energy cannot transmute, and the area where the implant was removed from will need to be filled in with this Source energy.

Most implants are of a low vibrational frequency and will be neutralized as you raise your vibrational level above its level of vibration through connecting with Source. However, sometimes getting pulled back into third dimensional thinking can lower your vibration just enough to be affected. When you are centered and grounded in a neutral zone, the implants do not have an energy source and the hitchhikers usually leave on their own because they are really desperate right now to attach to a consistent negative energy source.

Many people are so implanted that they will have a hard time removing or neutralizing implants on their own. This is when a trusted implant removal worker or a high level energy healer will help to get a person back on the right track. Once you get your implants removed, they can certainly return if you do not keep up your clearing and high vibration. A counseling session by a spiritual & metaphysical expert, similar to what I offer as a holistic life coach, is a good way to get help in identifying where your blocks in life are as well as identifying your next steps toward the highest path and outcome.

White light is vampirism

The white light used by lightworkers are from the old school thinking. White light energy is not really “free”. It becomes vampiric light when it has to be stolen from one place and moved around through exchange inside of this creation in order for certain beings to survive. It is either being siphoned from a planet or star, or directly stolen from a human body energy battery.

Source light energy is abundant. In order to manifest matrices and physical realities, the Creator light is split into a range of rainbow of frequencies at different vibrations. The conglomerate of the refracted source light is the white light. We are moving our consciousness back toward Source, and eventually our consciousness will break the prism plane of refraction back to wholeness again through integration with our oversoul.

In my opinion, it is fine to connect with your guardian angel, trusted spirit guides, higher vibrational beings. After all, they can see more than we can. But we have to learn discernment with tricksters and freeloaders, and we have to learned to have domain over our energy field. Why not just go to the top for your connection?. If you haven’t been able to “channel” other beings, in a way it could have been a blessing for you. Like me, it may have been a way of protection from your guardian angel because you may not have had the capability of discerning when enough is enough.

The white light tunnel in between lives

The white light at the end of the tunnel has been used in the afterlife karma cycle to draw souls back intoreincarnation. We have many articles on In5d about this topic, and the main thing everyone wants to know is where do you go if you choose not to go into the white light tunnel?

Although this part of the false light matrix creation will eventually be dissolved (it could already be dissolved), if you find yourself facing the white light tunnel, look for the golden light instead. Intend to go to Source. This is why it is so important to re-establish your connection with Source while in this incarnation, because everything you have awareness of now is still there when you sever the tie to your body. Not to worry though, because many of us came here to make this transition to higher consciousness while still existing in the body. By making this transition, we remember that we are the consciousness connected to Source and not just the body. We will learn to manipulate the energy in the body to allow it to live much longer than bodies have lasted in the recent past, and some of us won’t be “dying” any time soon.

Emotions and the new consciousness

Joyful and heart based emotions, unconditional love, compassion, and empathy create more channeled golden Source Floodlight energy in the heart. The human body is capable of generating this Source energy out of nothingness, which is what makes it a very desirable commodity.

Your crown chakra and soul chakra connects you to Source and is open all of the time. Even of you are not deliberately growing your “hara line” internal energy, you still have a connection to Source energy that makes your heart beat and your lungs contract. You are always open to the creator of all, the new consciousness, and the new thought that is coming. The opportunity to shift your consciousness to a higher level of understanding and vibration is happening right now.

Connect to the Golden Source Floodlight of truth, mercy, compassion, empathy, wisdom, and understanding. You have the right to this golden light because you realize that you ARE this light. This is how we are going to exit the low vibrational matrix overlay and help restore the original template for physical creation on this planet. As your cells take in the golden Source light, the DNA that lies within them will eventually be activated and the perfected template you once carried will be restored. When the critical mass of people connected to Source is reached, the planet will shift into a new reality and the old reality will fall far away.

Source: http://www.cosmicstarseeds.com/activating-your-dna-with-the-source-floodlight/

Your vision, your voice by Jon Rappoport

October 28, 2015

(To read about Jon’s mega-collection, Exit From The Matrix, click here.)

“What will you do tomorrow with your life that is different from what you’re doing today? Suppose you’re a revolutionary in terms of your own life? What would that mean?” (Notes for Exit From The Matrix, Jon Rappoport)

In the wake of my last several articles (see here and here), I’ve received interesting correspondence from readers who are launching, or planning to launch, exciting and adventurous enterprises.

I always favor individuals and their creative and original efforts, projected with great energy.

The inspired individual has electricity in his hands. He’s a dynamo. He has a new idea. He isn’t primarily seeking balance. He’s achieving a new level of action and insight.

When you wake up in the middle of the night with a galvanizing idea ringing in your head, you’ve dissolved a pattern that was holding energy in place, keeping it in check.

The new adventure, the new enterprise that inspires—these happenings take you out on to a higher plateau, from which you see a larger vista.

Which is your vision.

And then there is the matter of expressing the vision, giving voice to it. This is projected energy, coming from you. You’re the center.

This is how it’s meant to be. How would anyone else except you be the center?

When you’re a creator, your whole action is to make your vision into fact in the world.

What voice do you give to your vision? How do you express it?

With a few “well-chosen words?” Why? The stage is open, the stage is yours. Why hold back?

There is power in a voice.

A voice can change reality.

When your voice becomes your VOICE, you connect with something oceanic that rips away false separations and false systems and false ideas.

We pretend to be small. We pretend to be whispering. We pretend to have such limited power.

We pretend.

We pretend that some overriding system or structure supersedes our own voices.

As you expand your own voice, and as you express what you truly want to express, you are cutting away layers of stagnant consciousness.

Your voice:

An open door to greater power, greater aliveness, greater empathy, greater self, greater engagement, greater connection, greater wholeness.


“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost.” —Martha Graham

“I am among those who are preached to, and who listen…But sometimes a listener speaks out, and listens to his own voice.” —Haniel Long

“No man is great enough or wise enough for any of us to surrender our destiny to. The only way in which anyone can lead us is to restore to us the belief in our own guidance.” —Henry Miller

Waiting in silence for a voice to show up will lead to more waiting. Why postpone the dawn?

As natural as it is to breathe, to walk, to look around, it is that natural to have a vision and express it. We may live in an unnatural society, but that doesn’t mean we have to succumb to it. This is not about meeting standards. It’s about crossing the line.

All children know that to make a line with chalk on the sidewalk means you’re going jump over it.

This is what the world is for.

Jon Rappoport

Source:https://jonrappoport.wordpress.com/

THE ILLUSION OF PAIN

The last few weeks have been busy for me to say the least. Whatever hit me, it’s positive, I’m feeling powerful, empowered and my healing energy has just mastered another leap. Was this because my partner has been ill, unsuccessful in his medical treatments and turned to me finally? I wrote about the time when he was first diagnosed with Pulmonary Hypertension and COPD. His initial response was that he needed the drugs and I suggested that we try my TCM methods. People that are living in a medical world can’t connect cause to symptom. Medicine deals with symptoms not the cause. The cause of his illness was a deformed thoracic spine which blocked energy CHI from getting to the heart and lungs.

He accepted the treatment and after 1/2 hour decided it was too painful and got up. End of story. It’s been 4 years since then watching him slowly deteriorate. It’s not easy watching someone you love die a slow death, but it was his choice and I respected that. Nobody said it would be easy but we make the choices.

After realizing and experiencing an almost death due to the diuretic, he turned to me and has accepted my therapies. The first week was not possible to do anything much other than rehydrate his body and allow it to rebuild itself. The blood work came back yesterday showing his blood is now healthy and can withstand the rigors of Tui Na, Gua Sha and cupping therapies.

3 days now into our healing, he’s off his inhalers, he can climb the stairs without stopping a few times and he’s sleeping much better.

Experience in our work and confidence is what makes us good healers. The moment you doubt yourself, you have blocked that healing energy. This time around I didn’t ask, I simply knew where the blockages were and highlighted them with Gua Sha and then placed 1L glass jars over that area. With inflammation comes fluids around the heart, it protects the heart, but at the same time it slows down the heart from working efficiently. What his doctors were doing was to try and remove the fluids with a diuretic without paying attention to the inflammation. If you don’t remove the inflammation, the fluids just keep building up and this is the vicious circle he was caught in. The 2nd treatment withdrew moisture into the jars and that’s when I knew we were going to make it.

Yesterday, a young man called me complaining about pain shooting down his leg and extreme pain in his lumbar region. This young man had just completed chemotherapy for testicular cancer so I thought perhaps it could have been side effects from the toxins but upon examining him, it was pretty obvious he had a nerve caught into an osteophyte and it had to be removed. Medicine doesn’t know how to do this. He received pain killers and 20 injections for pain and nothing worked. Of course not, nerves can’t be dulled down, they are inflamed after being pressed into a bone or vertebrae but I was dealing with a very very old fashioned, religious young man who was angry that god did this to him.

It was a day for me I knew would change the world because I had changed. My attitude had changed. I no longer insulted his god like I usually do, but rather changed his name and told him that god didn’t do anything he didn’t want done to him and that God has nothing to give, he already gave it to him. While he was laying on the Theramax being decompressed, we talked about positive things, I made him laugh to forget the pain he was going through and once done told him to get up and walk. “You’re done, the nerve got scared and ran off, you’re fine”. He slowly got up from the bed but each move he tested by moving his neck, moving his arms and once he stood on his feet, he bent forwards, bent backwards, twisted his hips, he was looking for the pain.

Then it dawned on me. We can’t let go of the pain, with pain we get attention, people feel sorry for us, we can manipulate others while in pain, what is the actual benefit of getting better? This young man (unmarried 40 years old) was maybe afraid his mother would stop caring for him and making his life easier? In any case, he kept walking around the room trying to find the pain and I kept telling him it was gone and he could not find it. This went on for another 10 minutes, with bending, stretching and lifting legs up to his navel and the confused look on his face made me very sad that this man came asking for help and when he got it, he didn’t believe it.

What causes us to be this way? The doctrine of reactive medicine. Pain causes a reaction, they don’t trace the pain to it’s origins in this man’s case, they simply give him drugs and injections. You would think that after 5 or even 10 injections they might realize it’s not going to work? His whole lumbar region and upper glutes were bruised from broken capillaries from needless injections that caused hematoma stasis, meaning, the blood in the broken vessels remained in that area and hardened. I had to use a few cupping methods to break it down so that the lymphatic system could drain it but then after being treated for testicular cancer, the chemo probably damaged that function so it’s good that I did something.

The power of healing happens even when you don’t believe in it because the healer is the one that transcends that healing energy. I feel my own energy entering into the client, making a full circle and returning back to me. I guess you can say I am the cleaner of energy. In my first years I would be in horrible pain for days because I didn’t know what was going on. I didn’t know how to ground myself and I didn’t understand what kind of a healer I was. The moment I touch someone I see colors and these colors start moving into me and changing shapes and shades, then return back to the client. I also understand now what an empath is, it took me years to protect myself from their pains.

The power I’m feeling now is exponential, the wave of energies that came through the last few weeks were not noticeable to me until I started to do the healing work again, and now I see where the energy waves created a higher frequency level of healing in me. What I normally need 10 minutes to heal, it’s now 1 minute, so my partner and this young man helped me see the changes.

We are so powerful. My thoughts this morning when I first opened my eyes. I am tired. No, you’re not tired. Don’t think tired, you will be tired. You are energized, wonderful, awesome and get your ass out of bed. Imagine the thoughts we start with every morning? Each thought becomes your reality, so if your first thoughts are”I’m tired and don’t want to get out of bed, you will be faced with a struggle all day long because your body doesn’t want to get up. The power is in our thoughts, but that thought has to believe that thought. I am so powerful it scares the shit out of me to know that I create my reality with every thought. How powerful is that?

Saviorism or Escapism Choose Your Disease

A poor society usually has problems such as gambling, alcoholism and drug addiction. I don’t want to categorize this into crimes, rather societal obstacles that force people for whatever reason to seek the activities above. It is within our human nature to want better and more, we desire goodness, a quality of life and if we are put or caught in a situation where we can’t see the end of the road we turn to things such as gambling, drugs and alcohol as a means of escaping. We often judge people that are in a poorer class because they spend what little they have on these things, without considering why they do it and or what causes them to seek this ‘pleasure’.

I shall save you from all pests and parasites on this planet.
                  I shall save you from all pests and parasites on this planet.

It’s not pleasure, it’s a survival mechanism, an escapism if you will. When we are gambling we think that winning money will save us from our problems or that it is the only means of acquiring badly needed money. Money is god, money is religion, without money we can’t survive.
Taking drugs or alcohol we escape from our reality however bad it is, we think we are escaping and while drugged or drunk we don’t think about our problems and if we do, they don’t seem to be so bad. One can argue that we don’t all forget, of course, but I’m not here to solve psychological reasons as to why we do things. I’m speaking from a survivalist view. Some drunks are aggressive and will harm others, but that’s another issue altogether. Their aggressiveness is due to holding deep and unresolved issues. When we are drugged or drunk those deep issues tend to come to surface, but each to his own. Personally, if I have a glass of wine too much, I go to sleep.

Today, 99% of humanity is in a state of escapism or saviorism. Most of us are fighting for our survival of the species. We know what is being done to us, we know the chemtrails are not for our benefit, we know vaccines are not for health issues, we know our food and water is poisoned.  Many people have reached their limits of understanding and compassion. They simply can’t cope with the life they are living for whatever reasons, so they turn to god, to drugs, to alcohol, to gurus promising them a new heaven on earth etc. It’s a human condition, we can even say that it’s normal for us to do so.

So far, in the last 20 years alone, we have discovered more information and history about humans than we have at any other period before that. In 20 years we have discovered that the Pyramids were not built by human slaves pulling huge megaliths on some bamboo woven ropes. We have discovered and have proof/evidence that aliens have visited this planet. We know they were here and were visited in many cultures from Hindu to Mayan cultures and their respective continents. But what we have not yet figured out is what our original design was. In other words, when God/creator/Sophia/source created the first specimen of a human body, what was it?

But let’s return to the present. I have always been a curious person. From the time I was a young girl the heavens fascinated me, at the time I had no idea why I was connected to the Orion part of the galaxy, but I longed for return and often sadly questioned why I was left here in this madness. I don’t question it anymore, but I question myself what in the hell was I thinking when I chose to come here. I have been following many blogs and websites, reading different perspectives and I have chosen two to return to. These will be followed up in different posts, but one of them deals with Escapism such as YRFT and Saviorism such as Kathryn E. May and her galactics and Sananda. In fact, I never removed myself from her mailing list because I like to keep up with progress and for a long time have been silent on her newsletters but this last one left me taking a deep breath thinking “Do people actually still believe this shit?”.

Rose has done her job, she’s united and separated the wheat from the chaff. We have learned from her how to discern better, how to define logic, how to understand what is real and what is not real. Because our world is an illusion we created through a thought process, how do we know we didn’t create Rose and her cult like story of Eve and One our saviors/parents coming to the rescue? It’s time to stop pointing fingers and blame, it’s time to pat ourselves on the back because we have learned another lesson.

Those that follow this blog know that I have not wavered from some principal truths and that is: We are our own savior, we created this reality in which we now don’t like, we are responsible for our human condition, and we have the power to change this. There is also a universal power/law that is assisting us to move forward. Our enemies are too powerful for us with sticks and stones to fight off, but we have to make a concerted effort first and we are not doing that yet. Fuck the saviors and gurus who sell you kool aid laced with hopes and promises of a better earth or new earth. Fuck the channelers that claim to be the only voice of mother/father god. How dare they speak of exclusivity in a unified world of ALL that is, we are all parts of god equally.

Fuck this imbecilic society where if you attack the messenger you are now an enemy just because their dreams were shattered and they can’t accept their own reality of being totally DUPED into some false promise of being saved from this wretched planet. Hey guys, don’t blame us, we warned you in a nice way. We asked questions, we looked for logic, we looked for proof, we didn’t see a second hand going up and supporting your fairy tale stories and last but not least we got fucking tired of hearing it will be SOON.

So, the next 2 posts are going to deal with Saviorism and Escapism syndrome, you know, the one where you run to your savior cause your life is so fucked up here that you need to run away from it or why work towards my own enlightenment when GOD is going to save me from this wickedness that I helped CREATE.

Stay posted, should be interesting.

May love and joy fill your day!

Predictions – The Council

Great information, it matters not where it comes from, what matters is that it supports everything I have been writing about. We are the ones that will make the change. If you believe you’re going to another planet, that’s where you will go. Create what you want but don’t blame god for giving it to you. I once heard a woman say: “I asked god for help for years and gave up, he doesn’t hear me”. My answer: “God didn’t hear you because you didn’t specify what it is you wanted and how you were going to get it”.

God isn’t a bank nor does he do, he/it simply guides to where we want to go. If you ask he will only tell you that he already gave it to you. Ask and you shall receive is a misguided phrase. “Ask and define exactly what it is you need, tell me how you want to go about doing it and we can make it happen”.

Source: Predictions – The Council

LIFE ON THE EDGE

I wrote yesterday “Death on the edge”, because that is where my partner was  no thanks to his doctors. I can’t blame them, they are doing what they are told to do and it’s our responsibility to be informed and ask questions. I was right about the diuretic usage. It  has caused much more damage than I even realized.

The Discharge Letter arrived today. In the discharge letter the doctor treating Toni writes why he was admitted and what he was suffering from. Normally, he is given the letter before leaving, for some reason it took five days to have it done this time. I understand now why.
For starters, his condition turned out to be “deteriorating general health”. All the tests they did while in hospital didn’t show any progression of his COPD or Pulmonary Hypertension. What was worrisome and alarming was that his potassium, calcium and leukocyte levels were dangerously low.

So, I looked up “low leukocyte levels”, some of the main causes are: antibiotics, infection, inflammation and guess what: diuretics.

Water is life.  We can’t exist without water. Not liquids, water. When we drink liquids such as tea, coffee, juices etc., the stomach actually recognizes that as food so it digests the contents. When we drink water, there is no digestion, the intestines absorb and distribute where needed. This is in simple form, please don’t take this word for word, do your own research.

Toni suffered many changes during his time taking diuretics which is about 2 years. For starters, we noticed that he was losing taste, smell and was always cold. But when subtle changes happen, you don’t know where they come from, he also took 8 different drugs at the time so you have no way of knowing if it’s even the side effects or the disease progressing.
His body is basically ravaged by dehydration in such a way that in the last few days while rehydrating with Alkaline Water, he’s going through what seems to be a drug withdrawal or healing crisis. Most frequent is hot cold spells, fever and sweating. This could be withdrawal from the drug, but I would say it’s actually his body rehydrating and his systems waking up and starting their engines. It’s obvious that his immune system is under great stress because he fevers a lot, a few hours of fever, sweating and then he’s feeling good.
I can’t imagine what else is going on inside while he was do dehydrated, every cell in the body requires water. The brain takes the most and first portion of water. The brain needs 40% of the water we intake, of course it makes sense because the brain is our computer and without it functioning well, nothing else will work either.

Another side effect of the diuretic is swollen, inflamed joints. In a week Toni suffered from intense shoulder pain, right wrist pain and foot pain, all very swollen and painful to touch. In fact, he spent 2 days in bed because his foot hurt so bad he could not even put on slippers. During this time I tried every single therapy I could think of and nothing helped which indicates that it’s due to acid in the blood and now with hydrating going on, it’s cleaning up all the chronic issues he had in the past. In fact, his allergies got really bad yesterday but it only lasted for a few hours and all symptoms disappeared.

There is no answer to: How much water do we need to intake daily? Ask 100 experts and you will get 100 answers, but I have my own formula. I would suggest that you drink 1L of water for every 100 lbs. It’s logical the more you carry the more water is needed because there are more fat cells. There is no such thing as drinking too much water unless you have some kind of condition where it retains the water, then it’s possible you can drink too much, so you should be eliminating the same amount you intake but only if you are taking in the correct amount. Our body doesn’t absorb the water, it simply uses it to clean, eliminate, create blood etc., and it will get rid of it if you are taking in proper amounts.

You know for years even as a young woman, my ankles would really swell up at the end of the day. I always thought it was just hereditary because my mother had the same problem, but it was only 5 years ago when I started to drink water that I realized it was my body actually holding on to the water or liquids I drank because it never got enough. I was not a water drinker, I was coffee drinker and smoker, so it makes sense because now that I drink enough, I don’t swell up anymore.

Water is life but most important a diuretic is death. It has no value in medicine because it acts like an antibiotic, it doesn’t zone into a specific area to eliminate water, it removes ALL water from the body. Toni was told he had some fluids around his heart, although there is no image showing that but even at that time, it didn’t make sense to me because these diuretics basically force the kidneys to eliminate and not distribute water, thus, your whole body is suffering as a result. I can’t prove the diuretic doesn’t work but doctors can’t prove it does work either.

There is a lot of medical research done on diuretics and they don’t bode well, in fact, I think they should remove it from the market because for one issue, Toni now has 10 issues and who knows, maybe even more that have not manifested outwardly yet.

So, the discharge letter made a list of all the medications for him to take except the diuretic. You can’t tell me his specialist didn’t know it could possiblly be the cause of his general health breakdown? It’s in the packaging, it clearly states that one of the side effects of this drug is blot clotting and 100 more side effects. He knew this and this  is why he had it removed from Toni’s drug list, but he could have talked to his patient to find out if he was still taking it. You see, the doctor didn’t know he had stopped taking prior to being admitted into the hospital, so he quietly just removed it from his list and never mentioned anything about it.

This was part of the reason why he ended up in hospital this time. He was so dehydrated that his body functions were starting to break down, he was passing out, weakness, trembling, fevers started because of withdrawal and intake of alkaline water. This water is a miracle, I suggest you all drink it as I have started too.

Alkaline water recipe: For 1 gallon of water. Add filtered water, 1 tsp of baking soda, 1 tsp of himalayan salt and I used 4 frozen cubes of lemon already squeezed and frozen, that would be about 2 lemons squeezed. Mix it up each time  you drink it, it will go rancid after 3 days so make enough to drink for each day.
Life on the edge is interesting, but it’s no longer death on the edge, at least not for now. Thanks again for all your wonderful “get well” emails and love energy!

May you be filled with love and joy today.

Steward Swerdlow – The Kuiper Belt and the Sun Myth

Stewart does a great job of summing up everything I believe to be true, which doesn’t mean it is so, but it sounds and resonates with me. If you haven’t watched any of his lectures, I would suggest that you do because he has a simple way of explaining things so that even the newbie just entering this realm can understand. He explains the Kuiper belt, and interestingly, he claims the sun is not hot. Hmm…never thought about that before, I just assumed it was.  Enjoy!

DEATH ON THE EDGE

Normally I would be pleased to say that my partner is home from hospital. It’s been 3 days now and he’s resting in bed. I have had to deal with relatives and friends that don’t believe in Alternative Medicine and it got so ugly that I am actually being accused of destroying his health because of IT. Far from the truth, my struggle has been watching Toni take the drugs day in out and watching him die slowly. Simple logic tells you that if you are taking any drugs for a specified amount of time and there is no improvement, that drug is not doing it’s job and should be removed.

Sadly, I had to walk the fine line because family and friends are watching me intensively because of their false beliefs. I believe it’s because they know medicine is not going to help him and so it will be easy to just blame me for his death.

Well, it’s exactly what I did. I figure since they are blaming and accusing anyways, I would take matters into my own hands. The first thing I did was bring my tablet into our bedroom and with Toni read some basic concepts of diuretics, as you know, it has been my observation that it was the long term use of diuretics that is causing his blood to clot amongst a list of other complications such as painful joints, weakness, loss of appetite etc. Look it up, you will see for yourself.

I started to Toni on alkaline water, no diuretic and some gentle Tui Na, gua sha and cupping therapy. The next day he was feverish, hot and cold and very weak. This is called a healing crisis. This is where most people tell me to fuck off and leave them alone because they feel worse and often they just give up not understanding that the body needs to do the work rather than getting instant gratification from a pill.

I told Toni during the therapy that he can expect that, although, he’s heard me over the years talk about my clients and so he was not very happy, but he wasn’t shocked either. The last few days have been difficult for him and for me, afraid that he might just give up and refuse more therapy as his joints are now inflamed and very sore, this is why he is in bed, he can’t even walk.

I tested all his drugs with the pendulum and so far, he’s able to take a few life saving ones, we were able to remove the diuretic and high blood pressure med as he doesn’t have a big problem and it too is causing blood clotting issues.

I’m taking a huge risk because my surrounding is primitive, ignorant, religious and authority obsessive, the doctor is god and god is the doctor, so if something goes wrong, all fingers will be pointed at me, but the way I see it, Toni doesn’t have many options left.

The last 2 years he’s been up and down, but more down than up, he’s lost his ability to function as a normal human, this is very difficult for a man that is always working and creating things from wood. He’s very needed on the island as the only real expert in woodworking so people wait months to get things done, and it’s been psychologically difficult for him, traditional men feel worthless when they can’t provide for the family.
The drugs, all 8 of them have not made one small improvement in his overall health, meanwhile he’s lost weight, he’s lost his sense of taste, smell and thirst for water, he struggles in the bathroom because of a hard stool due to dehydration, he’s always in pain in some areas of his body, I could write a book about what all has happened since he was diagnosed with Pulmonary Hypertension and COPD. There is no drug in medicine for these diseases, they are in essence self inflicted due to lifestyle mainly, Toni smoked 4 packs of cigarettes 20 years ago and since then has had asthma and other breathing issues. So, the doctors just write out prescriptions because it’s all they know what to do.

After two years of watching him slowly die, I too realized that I don’t have many options left. The two options were: 1. Watch him die a slow death and be there for him. 2. Take matters into my own hands and fuck what everyone else thinks.

I am also consulting with his doctor here, therefore, everything that I AM doing is being recorded. The family doctor is very supportive of any additional therapies, it’s the specialists that get arrogant. All she can do is send him to the mainland, her hands are tied, but she does support my work and removing drugs from his regiment is important to let her know, simply because we have laws in Croatia that are not honored by our doctors, a very simple law:

  1. The patient has the right to co-operate in all his therapies and has the right to refuse any.
  2. The doctor is obligated to inform, educate, and explain ALL potential drugs and therapies before making the decision.

Doctors here don’t talk or ask. They simply write the prescription and this is where Toni has faltered, he’s also stayed silent afraid to ask questions. This last stay in the hospital scared the crap out of him and he started asking questions, he then realized how little his doctor cared about him and it’s probably why he agreed to try Chinese Medicine.

The responsibility is huge, simply because we are persecuted here and everywhere for that matter, our work is not recognized, it’s demonized. If I go wrong, I can go to jail, yet if a doctor writes a prescription and this caused death, nobody is held responsible. So, it has to be done with great care and backup and I’m grateful that we have a doctor here that supports us in this venture otherwise, it might be almost impossible.

I have to say that Toni, despite the hardships right now is looking more alive, I see life in his eyes, I can actually see his love for me now, before his eyes are glossed and gray, dried out and dimmed. His fever/immune system is now working overtime, imagine being without water for 2 years and all of a sudden Niagara Falls manifests? His body is now in a state of repair, elimination, rebuilding and it’s weak from years of drug damage so the highlight of this is that he IS responding and though it may not be positive, he is responding and I am sure that within the week he will start returning back to the Toni I used to know.

We only have two choices on this fucked up planet, death or life. You choose to die or choose to live, both require a lot of work because it’s not easy to end your life either. Both require persistence and strong motives to accomplish the act. I’m choosing life and it’s actually much harder to stay alive than it is to die. I want to spend more years with Toni, I wasn’t ready for this illness, everything has stood still, including my garden because I want so much for him to live and for him to choose LIFE.

It is only when we get sick or get cancer that we realize how little we valued our selves. Material things, money all dictate our lives, we are driven in a corner where we have to search for money because it now costs to breathe our air. Money is god in this system right now, and sadly, it takes first seat even before our well being. That’s Toni’s only mistake, making the wrong choice thinking that money would make me happy, but if he would have asked me, I would have told him that no amount of money can buy the love we share together. Sometimes, it takes a situation like this for us to learn things and Toni has learned now that all that money he could have made, actually almost killed him.

May you be filled with love and joy today!~