ANONYMOUS PERSON SHARING HER NDE AND AFTER THOUGHTS – A MUST READ

by Michelle Walling, CHLC
Staff writer, In5D.com

Comment from Ines: I found this article to be fascinating to say the least as I have also written about the transformation being a beautiful flash of light and our bodies changing during that time. Although I don’t resonate with all of it, it doesn’t mean there is no truth in it. It is for you to feel and for me to share. We are in difficult times, challenging to say the least, even I struggled lately to “remember” why I came here. As a human I question my purpose, as a Soul I know I am reaching the crossroads literally where we all have to choose whatever it is we came here to do. 

What would it be like to wake up in another dimension? This is the reality that many people have seen in their meditations, giving some credence to the idea that ascension could happen in an instant. One woman, who prefers to remain anonymous, shared her vision of what the ascension would be like along with a warning of a “fake ascension” that may be planned by the dark beings.

The insider’s story (we will call her Pam for now) begins with her near death experience (NDE) as age 8. On the “other side”, she met a sixth dimensional being that she began calling “father”, who has since spoken to her since her return into her body. Father speaks to Pam in a very loving, teaching way.

One of the most profound statements that Father made to Pam was during 9/11 as the second plane was hitting the twin towers. He said, “Your country has just betrayed you.” He then told Pam to “watch and learn”. Pam was devastated by his words at the time. It totally changed Pam’s perception of what was happening from that point until now.

In November of 2012, Pam was given a vision of what she believes is the true ascension of the Earth and her return to the 5th dimension. Pam was showed the transformation of the Earth and our bodies to a higher dimension in slow motion. Pam, like many others, was expecting this to happen the next month of December of 2012.

Pam was later shown that the Earth had been put into a time loop distortion. Furthermore, she has just recently broken free and is moving towards the stargate back to the time dimension she came from. After thefall of Atlantis, Pam says Earth was captured and forced to go through the portal that brought her into a 3rd dimensional prison. Coming from the 5th dimension into the 3rd dimension also caused all of those earth changes from the last upheaval.

Pam says that as the Earth gets closer to the portal of Earth’s return, she will be experiencing the waves of the higher dimension coming from this portal and this will cause Earth changes. The dark beings do not want to let her out of the 3rd dimension but they can not stop her from birthing herself back to her home.

In November of 2012, Pam was also shown the “birthing process”. She was shown this vision from two different angles so that she could see the details, however she says that when it happens it will be very fast….like one BIG “woosh” or “Flash Wave”. It reminded her of a baby being birthed.

Pam’s first view point was from space. “I saw the Earth as she was moving through space. I had the impression that Earth was being towed or being pulled on course by some sort of energy beam. She was not moving on her own. It was like she was locked into some sort of tractor beam making her unstoppable. As I watched the Earth, she began to approach an enormous cobalt blue and silver plasma opening which appeared to be a star gate~ the blue plasma in the center of the ring looked like exquisite blue fire. It was as mesmerizing as it was beautiful. When the earth was at the entrance of the stargate she paused for a moment and then began her ascension through the gate called the EYE.”

If any of you have been reading Yellow Rose for Texas’ blogs, she talks about the earth being pulled off of her mast and turned in preparation for going through the “EYE”. Pam tried to convey her information to the YRFT group but was not greeted with much approval. Rose has made it very clear that the group has a mind of its own and she has no “official” group although she does appreciate the supporters. I have asked Rose to come forth on In5d’s “Cosmic Awakening Show“, and her reply at the time was that her health would not permit her to so. I find it fascinating to hear an independent vision that somewhat correlates with Rose’s interpretation of Earth being positioned to go through the EYE.

When I found Rose’s material, I immediately was reminded of writing an article last year and I was wondering exactly how we would be returning to our higher vibration. I clearly heard a thought packet unfolding in my head that said “We will go back through where we came from.” Pam had been shown that the earth used to reside on the other side of the EYE in a higher dimension before she was captured and forced into a lower dimension about 13,000 years ago.

Pam continues, “Now, all of a sudden, the scene changed to view point of me standing on the surface of the planet. I found myself in my living room with my husband. We instantly became aware that something out of the normal was about to happen. The air was full of electricity, and you could feel it tingling all over your skin. We felt drawn to go outside on our back deck. As we were holding hands and looking across the field and up into the sky, we could see what appeared to be a enormous cobalt blue and silver tipped wave coming toward us. It appeared similar to a tidal wave but gave off the appearance of brilliant blue fire instead of water. It had an intense and powerful energy with it. We should have been absolutely terrified as it came toward my husband and I but the energy that touched us was of peace and love. As it moved, it saturated everything it touched with pure BLISS. As we watched the wave moved across the field, we saw that everything it touched was being immediately changed and enhanced to a crystalline texture. There were more colors than what we currently experience. The wave appeared to be moving and changing everything back to a higher vibration. The colors became exquisite and brighter. Everything was more beautiful and alive, absolutely vibrant.”

 

Next, Pam described how she sees our bodies make the change: “As the wave finally engulfed us, our soulessence was transferred and detached from our physical body and reattached to our astral body. Then in a flash our astral bodies started to absorb and transmute the essence of our physical bodies through some kind of umbilical cord that was connected through our solar plexus. There was a sucking feeling, like when you are drinking a thick milkshake through a straw. As the transfer took place, the physical body diminished and the astral body became filled with strength. There was no pain involved. In fact, what you felt was a complete healing and transformation that was filled with LOVE and peace. It left us feeling radiant and strong, instantly healthy and complete, with a true sense of well being and wholeness. I could feel the strength of my new body and knew that I was at least 7 feet tall. As the process finished, my astral body started to crystallize and then become solid. The only thing left of my physical body was a residue of dusty powder which I noticed all over my arms. I immediately brushed it off”.

Pam says that was reminded later of the dust that was left in the sarcophagus at the Kings tomb in Egypt, when the adepts ascended.

Pam continues with the appearance of Earth: “I gazed at all of the incredible beauty surrounding us. I knew that we were HOME, as for our precious Earth- she was forever changed and totally restored to her original beauty. At that moment, it felt like my husband and I were a new Adam and Eve on a brand new planet. Then the vision ended.”

Just this past week, the being Pam calls Father shared some more information on what is about to happen in our 3rd dimension. He started by asking Pam questions on the chemtrails that have been marking our skies. He asked if Pam knew the purpose of what they were doing to us, especially why they we spraying the Earth with smart dust nanoparticles since the late 1990’s. “Father” said that these particles are in our soil, our bodies, our animals, and all of the vegetation on the planet. He then added CERN and Wave X to the mix to see if Pam could see any connections. As Pam was pondering what the heck was the plan of all of these things, he started connecting the dots for me by stating that “they” were planning a FAKE Ascension, and that this was the Great Deception that has been planned along.

Pam states, “As the reality and the ramification of his words sunk into my consciousness, I felt sick in my soul. Humankind will be deceived just like 9/11 but on a much bigger scale. This is not something that I want to share, but with all good conscious what kind of a person would be if I keep this to my self. So please take what you want from this and discard the rest. The best thing that we can do to protect ourselves is stay in our Heart because the nanoparticles can not deceive the brain of our heart bust it can deceive the brains in our heads.”

Some people may have had the same kind of vision that Pam did. Some people will say that this is a part of the true deception, the plan to create a fifth dimensional astral realm place for humans who choose it to ascend to, and the trick here is that it is still in the false light matrix. The thing to remember is that many people have different roles to play here and these people will experience this time in many ways.

With so many different ideas of what is happening, does anyone really know how this will unfold? One thing is for sure, the many scenarios could include the truth for some, but were all shared as a distraction and a way to keep us confused and off center.

How do we discern the truth? In my opinion, what happens depends on our own thoughts and individual soul essence and experience. The astral beings know that we are powerful creators, and have been trying to manipulate our thoughts in order to create more manipulation scenarios. When trying to figure out if Pam’s vision or anyone else’s vision is a part of the truth of Earth’s ascension, you will have to go within and see how it makes you feel.

It takes many roads for the seeker to arrive at enough information where the fear behind moving forward into a reality of freedom simply disappears. When you get to the place of knowing who you are and what ascension means for you- honor it. Don’t worry what other people think, but feel free to share your thoughts and feelings with other people as there maybe some people having the same thoughts as you, and they could use some confirmation.

Source: http://www.cosmicstarseeds.com/anonymous-insider-shares-vision-of-ascension-after-near-death-experience/

TO CONTROL OR NOT CONTROL – DOES LOVE HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT?

We have company in our home for the last week, my partner’s family. The race, color or age of this couple isn’t important neither is the length of their relationship because adults should know better but I have doubts that this relationship will last too long unless one of them realizes what is going on. At this point in time, I don’t think either recognize there is a problem though after my comments, I’m hoping it might get them to start thinking about it.

It took me a few days to figure out the dynamics of this couple and it was very difficult for me to stay silent despite the fact that it was none of my business, but last night it was the straw that broke the camel’s back as she insisted to dry my dishes even though I told her to leave them alone: “because that is how I like to do it”.  She responded: “I dry them at home  and can’t stand dishes sitting in the tray when you have a cat in the house”.

Let me first start by saying that our cat Leo has been totally traumatized by her shooing, yelling and chasing him with a water spray bottle. This woman doesn’t like cats but Leo doesn’t like being yelled at and has done things he normally never does or ever did. This is my home, therefore, should it not be respected?

Have I left some clues about her yet? Well, for starters disrespecting my home is obvious and I’m not offended by that, I can only feel sadness for people like that. After the dishes were done, her partner started to spoon spaghetti on his plate and she would say: “That’s too much, you had a big lunch”. He: “I worked it off swimming this afternoon, I love spaghetti”. She: “That’s too much cheese, you know you are lactose intolerant!”.

Last night I didn’t want to comment on anything, I was just observing their interaction, but I consider what she was doing as harassment among many other things. It can be control issues, no trust or simply not loving in a healthy way.
I waited for breakfast because I knew I would hear the same comments and I was right: “3 eggs is too much, that’s too much butter”. He: “I love eggs and I need protein because we are going snorkeling today”.

And that’s how the next morning started. After he justified why he loved eggs and butter, I turned to him and said: “I don’t see why you need to constantly justify anything you eat to anyone”.

I knew it would get a response from her, I also know that she would wait when we would be alone and I also knew what she would say because I heard it for many years from women who’s husbands wanted a divorce because of nagging and control issues. They would come and ask for help before they split up just in case they could save the marriage.

She said to me” I only do that because I love him and don’t want him to get sick”. Me: “You do that because you’re so hung up about your body, have no self-esteem and trying to convince yourself you do it out of love. If you truly loved him you would not do that, in fact, if you loved and accepted yourself, you would not humiliate him. By humiliating him, you fooled yourself into feeling better for a brief moment”.

This wasn’t an easy thing for me to say because it’s none of my business how she treats her partner but she showed me such disrespect and my rules, sometimes truth hurts and I wanted to hurt her.

After she heard what I said, she tried to justify herself again by saying: “If he gets sick then I have to take care of him”.  Me: “No you don’t. If you allow him to make his own choices and he gets sick, you’re not responsible or obligated to take care of him. You can take care of him out of the goodness of your heart but not because you have to because he did it to himself”.  I didn’t want to go further into discussions so I lied: “My client is coming soon, gotta go.”

I have enough knowledge and experience to know the issue cannot get resolved with a conversation. I didn’t offer to help because I learned that helping people when they are not ready for it leads nowhere. If she asked for help I would have considered it but under the condition they both sit and talk with me so that he could understand what she was doing was not good behavior. I doubt that he has recognized it because his mother did the same to his father, whom I live with now.

Sadly, this is not an uncommon situation in our society. I can’t say it’s a global problem, but it’s very dominant here in Croatia and people raised by Croatian parents.

In some part of India, families still follow the tradition of preparing the daughter for marriage from the age of 7 forwards. Daughters are taught how to be good wives right down to lovemaking. Whether the family chooses the husband for her isn’t dependent on this tradition as they are both different and separate, but my point is that if the girl does marry into the same family of traditions, she may never know differently and she will dedicate her life to her husband and children without realizing there are different ways.

In Croatia, the issue is not so much about women controlling or criticizing their husbands as much as they control and interfere with their children. I have spent the last 5 years actively researching where this comes from, but speaking to the mothers didn’t help me understand it any better. They consider that a way of life, normal, and can’t think of any other way to live. While living in Canada, I noticed the Croatian mothers doing the same thing. I get varied answers as to why they interfere with their adult children lives:
1. I didn’t have much growing up so I want them to have more.
My parents didn’t have much either, but they taught me how to work for it. 
2. I don’t want them to suffer like I did.
My parents suffered and wanted me to as well, they said we get strong in hardship. 
3. It’s difficult life and since I cook for 2 adults, cooking for more is no big deal, why not?
No it’s not the same, it costs more. 
4. They don’t know how to handle hardships so I have to help them.
I knew how to handle hardships because I left home at 16 and did just fine. 
5. The economy is bad and if we can help why not?
The economy can be bad in any country at any given time but not all parents use that as an excuse. Most kids if returning back home pay room and board, nothing is for free. 

The mothers that interfere and control their children’s lives all believe they are doing it to help. Not all mothers do this. But instead of helping, they actually create invalids because these kids when becoming adults don’t know how to handle difficult situations so the mother is right in a sense, but she caused the problem in the first place by doing everything for them. I have several friends that have retired and are now raising their grandchildren to make their daughter’s life easier. She comes home from work, her meal is on the table, her apartment clean, child bathed, clothes washed and dried/folded. Wow, how privileged they are. I raised 2 children as a single mother and was fortunate if my parents had a spare weekend to be with them let alone cook and clean for me.

What I noticed about my friends is that they have no hobbies, no interests, no time for themselves yet complain about the sacrifices they make. They are in contact with their kids all day long, texting and calling to find out where they are, what they are doing and when they are coming home.

Is it possible like my guest they have no  control over their lives so they must control externally around them? Hard to say. Both of them have choices to not control. Do they not have hobbies or time because they live for their children or do they not know how to live for themselves?

My guest is a control freak and has issues with her body. She is “model” slim and eats like a parrot, always watching what she eats. It’s one thing to watch your weight, but another to disappear into the bathroom after eating so I believe that she is projecting on him. If she can’t control her food intake, he can’t either.

It’s hard to see a 40 year old man justify every thing he puts in his mouth and could it be the reason why he eats and drinks too much? Maybe.

The dynamics with this couple is unbalanced and for whatever reason she feels the need to control him the simple justification is evidence that he will not tolerate it forever. She will either have to stop or he will leave. A confident woman doesn’t need to control and a confident man doesn’t need to justify his behavior.

Anyone, including mothers that interfere and control their children’s lives who justify or excuse their behavior is evidence that they feel it’s not acceptable or normal. I never make excuses for my behavior.

As an ex-smoker, my partner would constantly nag me about it. This is a man who smoked 4 packages of cigarettes per day over 30 years ago and is now paying the price of suffering from Pulmonary Hypertension and COPD with other breathing problems and his heart.
I never responded to his nagging, it never felt I needed to justify my choice to smoke and when he would ask me when I was going to quit, I would always answer the same: “When I am ready for it”.  You see, he too thought he was doing a good thing, but he wasn’t. He wasn’t doing it out of love because when I did eventually quit smoking he never congratulated or commended my success to this day. If he was really helping, then he would have supported me but didn’t.

When my guest decided against dessert today at lunch with family, instead of commending him, she said: “Oh, you’re just making room so you can eat more tonight”. You get my drift? Does this sound like a woman who is nagging because she cares about him?

We control for many reason. Unlike love, control is a learned behavior or a consequence or lack we feel. Love is illusive. We can’t choose or decide to love but we can choose to control or not by learning what causes us to do it and most often we are projecting our own insecurities on to others.

Control freaks rarely know that they are one. They believe that they are helping people with their “constructive criticism” or taking over a project because “no one else will do it right.”

They don’t see their controlling behaviors as symptoms of what’s really going on–their own anxiety has run amuck.

Controlling your kids or their lives usually stems from poverty where survival is all we know. As parents we may even become obsessed with not wanting our kids to live in poverty too so we give and sacrifice everything to them and never learn how to give to ourselves or take time out for ourselves. It’s much more complex but this is a brief explanation. Problem with poverty is that you can’t do much without money although going for a walk doesn’t require it, only time. It gets passed on from generation to generation, so that my friends don’t see it as something negative or unhealthy. Its a way of life for them, they have accepted and I had to give up asking for their time.

I can’t imagine living only for my children, even when there were little, as a single mom it wasn’t easy but I always managed to get a babysitter and do things for myself otherwise I could have gone crazy.

Women that control their partners have learned it from their parents most likely or they simply view their partner as too stupid to make the right decisions. It’s not the behavior I have an issue with, that can easily be resolved if they choose to get help. It’s the excuses they make to cover up the real issues. She saw him feel embarrassed, I saw him become embarrassed as he was justifying why he was eating, yet she continued with her humiliation. If we truly love someone we’re not going to do that and so seek help when we realize what we are doing.

During the first year of building our institution (relationship), we talked about things we accepted or not. Marriage is an institution, love is an emotion. One has nothing to do with the other. My first subject was control. I told my partner that I did not like or appreciate being told what to do or how to do it unless I asked for help. I went on to explain the issues I had with authority so that he could understand why. I wanted him to accept me for who I was and  not want to change me. Although he has respected our contract, and I really appreciate that, of course we both slip once in a while and we catch on fast.

In return, I do the same though the last 2 years have been very challenging because the downside of this is that despit the fact he chose to go the pharmaceutical way, medical quackery which is only making him sicker each day, I can’t tell him what to do.

We have become alienated as a result because I feel helpless and would love nothing more than to grab all those bottles of drugs/poison and flush them down the toilet, but I can’t. When you love someone, you love them even when you don’t like what they do.

I have no right to control him and I hate being controlled. If you have control issues, you need to trace that behavior back into time and find out why you do that. It’s not bad if you live alone, but if you share your life with another person or people, you may have problems in the future. Sometimes, we don’t say anything or pretend that everything is ok, but inside it builds up and then we wonder why our partner just exploded. Well, it’s more than likely they have been holding it inside and something happens that breaks the camel’s back and the explosion.

Regardless of your culture, race, age or marital status, having the need to control usually signifies something in your life that you feel you can’t control  or your life is out of control so you feel better by controlling everything externally.

I am in total control of my life therefore no need to control or manipulate or interfere in the lives of my children or family or partner which doesn’t mean I don’t want to or would not like to. Whenever I feel that need, I instantly go back into my childhood and remember what it was like to feel controlled and helpless. And yes, I too at times want to do it out of love but I’m intelligent enough to understand that it may seem logical to me, but it will not seem logical to him.

I can’t stand women that get satisfaction in controlling men though and like my guest, had to voice my dissatisfaction, sometimes it’s enough to get them to think about it. If I sparked a thought than I have done something good today.

LOVE, TRUTH AND LIES

What does it mean “All we need is love”? I have been reading statements like this for years now and it occured to me that all those making such statements just assumed we all understood and didn’t bother to explain further.

Many write about love, to be more loving, to love everyone and to do things with love. To say “all we need is love”implies that nothing matters except love or that love is enough.

What exactly does that mean?

I think this is a new age movement catch phrase. Come on folks, we are talking as if we don’t have any love. Nothing has changed. We still love our families, we still love our children, we still love our friends, we even love our employers. We love to cook, we love to grow food, we love going on vacation, we love family gatherings.

Tell me, where is the love lacking? Why are these people that constantly write that all we have to do is love telling us something we already do? You can’t love someone that is bad, you can’t force your love on a stranger. The heart doesn’t naturally love, where is this nonsense coming from?

Some messages about love contain phrase such as: “just love them or spread the love or return love for getting hurt as if we are automatic pilot lights with the switch on LOVE.

Love is something we do when we don’t feel threatened, when we have got to know someone, we naturally love our children but not all parents do. I can’t love someone that just broke into my house

“All we need is love”can also imply that all we have to do to change our world is to just Love. Love what? Love who? Why?

All we need is love can imply that love will fix everything. No it won’t. You can love your partner and they can still cheat on you. You can love your child and it can still murder someone. How does love solve our problems?

Who says that we “choose” or “decide”to love?

All we need is love can also imply that we need not do anything other than love. Love what? Love who?

If someone attacked me, went to jail and I went to visit them and tell them I love them, will that make them a better person or make them stop doing it again?

The channelers, self-proclaimed gurus, communicators with Jesus, Saul, Sananda, mother god, father god, St. germain et al., who proclaim that all we need is love need to define this.

Love is not something we turn on or choose to do. In fact if you think about it, we have no control over that emotion. Have you ever thought about this?

The statement “love conquers all”, has some validity to it but in what situation? If two people love each other, chances are they will resolve or overcome issues better than two people that don’t love each other.

We naturally love our children and I believe that is it. Many people love their parents, but if their parents harmed them or abandoned them perhaps they may not. It all depends on the severity. It’s true that when we love we are more forgiving, but I don’t and never did feel love for my parents. At my age now (almost 60), I struggle with that. I respect my parents because I now understand better why they abused me, but by understanding them I didn’t start loving them.

Love chooses us. We don’t choose love, it’s an emotion that connects us to the person we love, perhaps it’s a frequency or vibration or it’s a soul knowing the other soul for thousands of lifetimes, but the point is we don’t choose or decide to love someone.

I can look at a photo of a chef’s salad and think: “that looks tasty”. I will eat that salad and if it tastes good for me I will think “yummy”, it tastes great. Later on, I may be discussing food with a friend and tell her that I “love” chef salads. But that would be an expression, because we can’t just decide to love because we like it’s taste or color.

I love my partner, how do I know? Because I love being with him and I cant imagine not being with him. I love my cat and dog and I can’t imagine being without them. I am happy when I am with all of them, I love to make them feel special, I love to spoil them. I hurt when they hurt. But if my partner told me on his deathbed that I must go on and find someone to love, I know that it doesn’t work that way. Love may come or may not, but I won’t find it and I won’t go out seeking to find a man to love. It just happens.

So, if love is something that ALL is needed, if love conquers all, isn’t that a silly statement given that we don’t choose, mandate, decide who or what to love?

How does love raise the vibration of the planet if we can’t control it? Love is no different today than it was 50 years ago or 1000 years ago. We never “chose” Love, it always just happened so to say that we can change the world if we love more is completely idiotic and meaningless.

But we just nod our heads when we read about love yet nobody creates it, hell, many people have never even experienced it in their lifetime.

How does love happen is the million dollar question.

According to Susan Kuchinkas, author of the book titled: “The Chemistry of Love”. Our ability to love or feel loved is primarily based on oxytocin, a chemical produced in the brain in response to positive social interactions. Our brains develop the oxytocin response after we are born, in response to the kind of mother we get. If your mother is depressed, angry or ill, you may not grow up with the ability to bond in healthy relationships. The oxytocin response is learned. When we are born our brain is not fully developed. In a sense really, you know, we’re not born knowing how to love”. 

My further understanding of this is that the baby when born hopefully is loved, nurtured, fed, etc; by it’s mother or caregiver and through this ‘good’ feeling, it produces the oxytocin.

None of the above excerpt from the book gives us a better understanding how we become to love. It explains our ability to love if the oxytocin is produced, but in my research today I could not find an explanation how we start feeling love and what triggers the love emotion.

So, in conclusion to the beginning statement of “All we need is love” and in response to all the gurus, prophets, sages, and ascension fanatics out there, love if we are lucky to love or be loved ‘could’ possibly help us in adversarial times but not very likely in being the factor in changing our current situation because we can’t make love happen at will.

The song “All we need is love” simply means that being in love is great and when two people love each other, it’s enough.

Love is not something we can control or make happen. Even bad people can love, we love bad people. Take for example a partner that may have an addiction problem or displays aggressive behavior. We don’t just stop loving that person because we don’t like their behavior, we can’t choose to stop loving that person. Maybe in time if that person with issues continues, it might wear off the love we feel if it’s not being returned, but our chances of stopping loving someone are as low as falling in love again with someone else. It just happens.

If you’re a parent you know all too well what I am talking about. Our children may do things that we don’t like but our love doesn’t stop. It may change, we may try to hold back or now show it, but the heart loves just as strong.

So, nothing has changed from the beginning of mankind when it comes to love. We have never been able to create it at will or control it. All we can do  with love is withhold it or not show it, but we cannot stop the heart from loving at will.

At what point does it stop if it does at all, is another post but to say that if we love the darkness or love all dark entities or send love to those trying to harm us, love everything that we will create a better world is utter stupidity and bullshit and anyone selling that bullshit either needs to explain their statement or I think are just another disinfo agent selling wrapping paper without the good inside.

Books have been written about love. Men and women have killed over love. I’m not disputing the emotion or feeling called LOVE, I am disputing and questioning that we can’t just love at will to change the world, therefore, LOVE is not what it will take.

To say that all we have to do is love is like saying “don’t worry, relax, wait for something cause all you need to be doing is loving”. Loving what? Loving who?

I don’t think so. I love my partner and lately I wish I didn’t love him. I wish I could stop loving him, I can’t shut it off, I can’t run away from it, I can’t even pretend it doesn’t exist.

Why do I not want to love my partner? Because he will not be around one day soon and I don’t want to feel the pain of losing him.

So you see, love isn’t something we can control. It chooses us and if Creator/Source designed it to work that way, then I’m sure there is a good reason for it and that’s another story.

So when I would say “I love you at all” at the end of a post, I was lying. I can’t love someone I don’t know and never met and I don’t feel the love for my readers. I feel respect and gratitude but not not love. Perhaps it could happen if we met but not here like this invisible and untouchable.

So I will re phrase “I love  you all”, by saying “May you be blessed with love”.

IT’S ALL UNRAVELLING IN FRONT OF OUR EYES CAN’T YOU SEE IT?

It’s hard not to see what’s going on. The imposed system is coming apart at the seams. I know the matrix is some metaphysical energetic thing of some sort, which doesn’t intimidate me in the least, but I’m talking about what’s front and center to our very lives.

It’s all disassembling, as plain as day. Politicians and disgusting paedopheliac oligarchs are being massively exposed for who they truly are despite mainstream media spin and cover ups; the economic paradigm is clearly being manipulated even though most folks are keeping it alive still playing on the rebound in their reactionary fear-based mindset, and the escape to safer places of all kinds continues to escalate on a wider and wider scale.

Read More: http://www.zengardner.com/the-unravelling/

Shock Value and the Bullshit Burners

If you are not surprised by any of the revelations that have come your way, it would be a safe assumption that you have been on the bumpy road of exploration for a while. Long enough to develop shock absorbers, long enough to be resilient, vigilant, stalwart in conviction, and innovative enough to begin forging plans for an alternative future. If this is you, then the fuel you have put on that little pilot light is growing into a forever furnace. You have become bullshit free, immersed in a welcoming hunger, prepared for the shock of what the light from your flame will reveal. The hoax of Sandy Hook is now entering the public awareness arena. Thanks to You.

Read More: http://www.zengardner.com/shock-value-bullshit-burners/

The Gnostic Theory of Alien Intrusion – John Lamb Lash

Since the explosion of the ET/UFO phenomena in 1947, speculation about alien intrusion on planet Earth has been rampant. Half a dozen theories dominate the debate, but there is one theory that has yet to be examined. It did not emerge after 1947, but approximately 1600 years earlier. To be precise, the evidence of this theory came to light through a discovery in Egypt in December, 1945, although the significance of the find was not realized until — guess when? 1947.
In that year, French scholar Jean Doresse identified the Egyptian find at Nag Hammadi as a cache of rare Gnostic texts. “Gnosticism” is the label scholars use for a body of teachings derived from the Mystery Schools of pre-Christian antiquity. Gnostics who protested against Christian doctrines such as divine retribution and Christ’s resurrection found themselves targeted as heretics and were brutally suppressed by early converts to the One True Faith. This is the untold story of how the Mysteries ended. Since that signal year, 1947, some of the lost Mystery School knowledge has been recovered.
Gnosis (“inner knowing”) was a path of experimental mysticism in which the initiates of the Mystery Schools explored the psyche and the cosmos at large. Using psychoactive plants, yoga, and sex magic, these ancient seers experienced altered states and developed siddhis, occult skills such as clairaudience and remote viewing. Gnosis was a kind of yogic noetic science melded with parapsychology. In heightened perception, Gnostics developed a vast cosmological vision centered in a female deity, the Divine Sophia. The Gnostic creation myth is unique in that it includes a full-blown explanation of how inorganic alien beings came to be present in our solar system.
The Nag Hammadi material contains reports of visionary experiences of the initiates, including first-hand encounters with inorganic beings called Archons. Gnostic teaching explains that these entities arose in the early stage of formation of the solar system, before the Earth was formed. Archons inhabit the solar system, the extraterrestrial realm as such, but they can intrude on Earth. Interestingly, this Gnostic insight accords closely with the view of Jacques Vallee, who maintains that ET/cyborgs probably belong to the local planetary realm. Vallee also proposes that the ET/UFO enigma is a “spiritual control system,” a phenomenon that “behaves like a conditioning process.” (Messengers of Deception). This is exactly what Gnostics said about the Archons: they can affect our minds by subliminal conditioning techniques. Their main tactics are mental error (intellectual virus, or false ideology, especially religious doctrines) and simulation. Archons are predatory, unlike a wide range of non-human and other-dimensional beings also know to the Gnostics, beings who are benevolent or neutral toward humanity.
Physical descriptions of Archons occur in several Gnostic codices. Two types are clearly identified: a neonate or embryonic type, and a draconic or reptilian type. Obviously, these descriptions fit the Greys and Reptilians of contemporary reports to a T. Or I should say, to an ET.
Delving into the Gnostic materials, it is quite a shock to discover that ancient seers detected and investigated the problem of alien intrusion during the first century CE, and certainly well before. (The Mysteries date from many centuries before the Christian Era.) What is amazing about the Gnostic theory of the Archons is not only the cosmological background (explaining the origin of these entities and the reason for their enmeshment with humanity), but the specificity of information on the alien m.o., describing how they operate and what they want from us. For one thing, Gnostics taught that these entities envy us and feed on our fear. Above all, they attempt to keep us from claiming and evolving our “inner light,” the gift of divine intelligence within. While I would not claim that Gnostic teachings on the Archons, or what remains of such teachings, have all the answers to the ET/UFO enigma, one thing is clear: they present a coherent and comprehensive analysis of alien intrusion, as well as specific practices for resisting it. They are far more complete and sophisticated than any theory in discussion today.
In short, the ancient seers of the Mysteries in Europe and the Levant seem to have accomplished 2000 years ago what many of us have been attempting to do since 1947: figure out who the ETs are, where they originate, how they relate to us, and most important of all, how we ought to relate to them.
As far as I know, apart from myself only one writer on the ET/UFO issue has directly identified the Gnostic Archons with contemporary ETs. This is Nigel Kerner, whose book, The Song of the Greys, is a strange, singular and little-known contribution to the debate. Kerner cites the Nag Hammadi texts just in passing, and does not elaborate on Gnostic teachings about the Archons. He makes a strong case for alien interference with the human genome, but this claim does not stand up against Gnostic analysis. Gnostic texts use mythological language to describe actual events in prehistory as well as long-term developments in the human psyche. According to the ancient seers, Archons cannot access our genetic makeup but they can fake an intervention. Considering the confusion of humanity in modern times, a faked intervention would be as good as real. This typifies the Archon tactic of getting us to imagine and believe things that are not true, and to accept simulation for reality. In this way, Gnostics taught, these alien cousins can deviate the human species from its true and proper course of evolution.
The unique emphasis on the Goddess Sophia is the high inspirational message of Gnosis. The ancient seers taught that, through a special link to the Goddess, our species can overcome the Archons and secure a human, and humane, future for the Earth.

Use ET/Archon Navigator to explore further material on this subject in Metahistory.org.

3 Things Sheeple Do That You Don’t Have To

Do you ever get that feeling like you’re surrounded by automatons, people who merely mimic life, without really living it?

Sheeple, as they may be called, are otherwise ordinary folks who’ve adapted particularly well to the workforce/consumer/obedience training agenda. They’ve been taught to be docile, foolish and easily led. They’re particularly keen at following mainstream narratives and adapting to group-think and group-behaviors. Almost criminally uninformed at times, they are predictable, obedient, gullible, and uninquisitive, always doing their part to sustain the cultural power dynamic by policing and enslaving themselves and staying focused on whatever tasks have been given them. The primary rewards for their acquiescence being comfort and the illusion of security.

Sheeple are everywhere, to be sure, but a tremendous counter movement is rising in opposition to this engineered madness. The amount of people waking up is truly inspiring, and a big part of this transformation is a growing awareness of just how much of what we do and what we think is not actually born of original thought, but rather instructed by cultural programs scripted by industry, government and the psychopaths at the helm of spaceship earth. Waking up from this is a certainty, once awareness of it kicks in.

Here are 3 things that sheeple do that you don’t have to…

1. Self-Sabotage

Like a vampire who must be invited to gain entrance into the home of his victim, much of the matrixis an invitation to indulge in self-destruction. It’s voluntary in many ways. Its traps are devised of appeals to ego, to taste buds, to pleasure, and to our want of convenience and instant gratification… nothing we can’t live without. It sells things that taste sweet, at first, but ultimately prove impossible to quit and even more impossible to pay for.

Sheeple can’t say no, even when they know they are doing harm to themselves. They will consume whatever is presented to them, whatever is waved in their face the most frequently and the most fervently, consequences be damned. Sabotaging their own physical and mental health for the thrill of convenience and addiction to over-stimulation, sheeple will fall for just about anything. They’ll happily follow their taste buds all the way to the doctor’s office, and gleefully sign credit card receipts until they’re totally sunken in debt.

But you don’t have to do any of this. You don’t have to work jobs you hate, you don’t have to watch television every night in a drooling daze. You simply don’t have to treat your body and mind with as much contempt as the controllers do. Your life is precious and worth protecting in every way possible.

“People are sheep. TV is the shepherd.” – Jess C. Scott

2. Buy Into the Script, Wear the Mask, Play the Part

It’s difficult to know sometimes if art is imitating life or if life is imitating art, but this is the2nd century of the self, and mass media has brought about some uncanny opportunities to make a big deal out of yourself and take yourself way too seriously. As many people do.

Who are those people who camp out at retail stores for Black-Friday deals, then beat and trample each other when the doors open? Who are these people who get so enraged by sports wins and losses that they burn their own communities to the ground? Who are these innumerable people in neckties committing their lives to filling the corporate mold? The list goes on and on.

Self-image is used against us to confuse us and misdirect us. We’re fed the illusion that we need to have things or be a part of things in order to feel complete, in order to feel secure, in order to be happy and worry-free. We’re taught from early on that there is safety and security in assimilation, comfort in sticking to you place in the group. Discomfort in rocking the boat.

Sheeple chase illusions and conform to scripts, choosing masks and fully devoting themselves to playing their part. Even if it means scuttling their humanity along the way.

None of this actually matters, of course, because we are all multi-dimensional beings, locked into into a dense material body for some short period of time on this suffering but breathtakingly beautiful planet. When we re-awaken to who we truly are, the masks disappear and there is no longer a need to conform in this way. We are free to be whatever we want and whatever we need to be in order to survive and thrive in the matrix.

“We are not supposed to all be the same, feel the same, think the same, and believe the same. The key to continued expansion of our Universe lies in diversity, not in conformity and coercion. Conventionality is the death of creation.” ? Anthon St. Maarten, Divine Living: The Essential Guide To Your True Destiny

3. Forfeit Sovereignty and Defer to Phony Authority

Helplessness and deference to authority are encouraged by our education system, our government, and our corporate overlords, and we are increasingly told to give up our personal power and dignity to the policy makers and phony authority figures who govern us. Sheeple relinquish their sovereignty without objection, happily deferring to authority if it means less responsibility for them. They support causes they don’t understand and they’ll participate in riots they have no business being involved in. They know nothing of their legal or natural rights, and even less of the courage it takes to exercise them. Along for the ride, and as useful as idiots, sheeple prefer the dynamic of being told what to do.

The disempowerment game is about creating dependency on government, on corporations, and on peers for acceptance and approval, while creating supporting actors for the players who are influencing our world. It’s also about warping people’s sense of responsibility so that the crimes of government and corporations can more easily go unpunished. Take the the Milgram experiment of the 1960’s, as an example, which demonstrated how people are naturally inclined to permit the torture of other human beings, so long as a so-called authority figure is in charge and is accepting responsibility. The sheeple are those who would watch others being assaulted, and instead of helping them, they only record them with their smartphones.

A costume and a paycheck do not give one human being special rights over another, except in the matrix, where sheeple have been trained to submit to and obey anyone in a color-coordinated uniform with a badge and a walkie-talkie. Sheeple are happy to participate in these disempowerment games and defer their responsibility to others, but all it takes is a simple, confident, ‘no’ to change the dynamic in any relationship, and we truly do not have to forfeit our personal sovereignty and defer to phony authority.

Conclusion

“It’s a sad and stupid thing to have to proclaim yourself a revolutionary just to be a decent man.” – David Harris

The human spirit is far more powerful and determined than any social engineering or brainwashing program. It is simply unconfineable to these spiritually debilitating prisons.

Merely being aware of this is enough to break the habit of mental slavery and reveal a more truthful perspective on life and the ways in which the dehumanized systems in our world are organized against us. It takes one to know one, and after waking up from contemporary consciousness, our world looks much differently than it ever had before, and it’s easy to see sheeple for what they are. And it’s easier to be yourself and not just another member of the herd.

About the Author

Sigmund Fraud is a survivor of modern psychiatry and a dedicated mental activist. He is a staff writer for WakingTimes.com where he indulges in the possibility of a massive shift towards a more psychologically aware future for humankind.

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Deaf Ears, Foot Dragging and Moving to the Next Level by Zen Gardner

by Zen Gardner

It’s reality check time. When you realize the person or persons you’re delivering an important message to doesn’t want to hear it nor do anything about it, and in fact vehemently rejects it and humiliates and even punishes you for bringing it up, it’s time to take the hint.

The so-called rulers have no interest in our petitions, protests and even demonstrations of disapproval. While supposedly being elected to represent our interests, those concerns we have are clearly the last thing they have in mind. It couldn’t possibly be any clearer than it is today.

Oh they’ll do a little sidestep or pretend to make some slight adjustment to calm the masses down and allay a few fears or grievances, but their overall program generally goes on. At least in this current paradigm of control.

Delayed and partial reactions are fundamentally non-reactions.

The real point or core of the issue is very rarely being addressed. Because they aren’t serving us. In their minds we are serving them and do it best when we think we’re free. So this kind of foot dragging lip service is just part of keeping the illusion of freedom up.

The Turning Point

What’s unique about this particular turning point is that it’s now gotten to where they’re not even concerned about keeping up the smokescreen of giving a damn and or even trying to relate to our ability to participate according to their rules. They’re rapidly outright removing these freedoms they’ve so graciously “granted” us, and they’re doing it with abject impunity.

Peaceful demonstrations are met with brutality. Even freedom of assembly is slowly being prohibited. Journalists, political dissidents and even active students are being conveniently clustered as “threats” by the new buzzword “radicalized” to imply potential ISIS or otherwise terrorist associations which are being liberally applied to anyone they deem unsavory to the status quo.

This is a serious situation.

Act Fast, Act Now

Despite the unresponsive nature of the powers that shouldn’t be, redress still matters. Raising our voices should never cease but we need to think beyond the box of action-reaction they’ve herded humanity into.

The key is hitting it hardest on a local scale. The instruments of mass information are under their tight control so whatever inroads we do make won’t even be reported, or just minimally. Seeing a sway in public opinion will be marginalized, twisted, ridiculed or in most cases completely sidestepped and ignored as if it isn’t even happening.

Insist on complete change – firstly in your own life. Disengage from participating. Boycott banks and matrix enforcing commercial outlets. Turn off your mind control idiot box tele-visor people still think is their innocuous friend and open news and entertainment source. Free your mind and heart and fill your life with love and empowering information and interactions. It starts there.

Then apply it at your local level. Move from the nearest influences that are working against humanity right up through your local administrators. When enough communities do this, even winning over their judicial and law enforcement officials who are from their own communities, independent hubs of full on resistance spread far and wide will be impossible for them to stop. With enough impetus this kind of grassroots community based action will eventually supplant their influence altogether.

This is why they move law enforcement personnel from neighboring areas into “trouble spots” and why the US is importing foreign and UN troops to do their dirty work on American soil. It’s to break these heartfelt ties where common sense and compassion bind hearts and create conscious, empathic responses. Divide and conquer is their credo.

Therefore, it’s clear their fear is that we will unite and stand together.

The Importance of Banding Together

The beauty of our grassroots revolt and affirmation of our humanity is our connectivity. We realize we’re not in the least bit alone in our perception, frustration and even desperation to stop today’s insanities. We have a common purpose and goal which is extremely simple: the betterment of humanity’s condition through the simple allowance to get on with our lives without interference. Anyone half awake can see that is completely contrary to the role of government and globalist mandates, all working toward indifferent, mechanized one world central control.

It’s extremely Orwellian in nature which has been pointed out countless times, yet we keep petitioning these psychopaths as if these megalomaniacs can possibly be “addressed” with our grievances and needs.

Let’s wake up. It’s time for Plan B.

A Full on Frontal Assault

There’s a degree of hope for addressing local officials. There’s also a degree of hope for further exposure of their wickedness and abject depravity, never mind their neglect of duty to the populations they claim to serve. At the higher levels I’m not holding my breath for change, but true information is empowering constituents with more fuel for indignation and a desire to take action, most of all locally.

We can take a stand and turn the tide, if we want to.

Conscious awareness based in love must be our foundation. But don’t think your righteous indignation isn’t part of that. The point is to turn the power on, and up. If you’re into intending the vibrational change then do so – but turn it up. If you’re into community activism on any level, from seeding crystals to meditation to community gardening to approaching officials, turn it up. If you’re into information dissemination using exposure and empowerment, turn it up.

Do it all with increased intentionally aware acumen. We have an opportunity to turn the tide but the hour is crucial. The vibrations are high and rising on the side of love and truth but the oppressors are busy making their last moves to put their building blocks in place. It’s a formidable foe of destructive entropic energy but charge their bastions of lies we must.

Take Heart, and Take Action

It’s hard to say what is the full on solution in this soup-like milieu of confusion we’re living in. All I can say it that it’s time to take your personal calling seriously and act on it. I don’t care what it is, Universe is wondrous and we are all so different, but the cry of the heart is the same in each of us.

Promote love and harmony, protect the vulnerable, and expose the perpetrators of abuse, manipulative control and exploitation. Now.

It’s not that complicated. But people need to wake up out of their induced (and too often readily accepted I might add) stupor to respond accordingly.

If you care, act out. Change your life into a statement. Be responsible and respond as if you mean it. Every man and woman counts.

If that isn’t clear to you yet I don’t know what else to say.

Just respond. Consciously and with determination.

Love always, Zen

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ARE YOU LIVING YOUR AUTHENTIC LIFE?

What does it mean to be authentic? Are you authentic? Can you even be authentic?

Dictionary.com
Authentic: 1. not false or copied; genuine; real 2. having the origin supported by unquestionable evidence; authenticated; verified

So there you have it, you’re not false or a copy of someone else. Is it possible to be authentic? Isn’t authentic similar to honesty? To be your authentic self is to act, do and say as you are, be yourself.

This thought came to me yesterday, in fact, it was on my mind all day as my partner struggled to breathe. I can see that he is greatly suffering, I can see that he is holding back from telling me how bad he is feeling. He never complains, unless I ask he will never tell me he’s not feeling good. But he’s not the problem. My partner has never opened up to me and shared his deepest pains and dissapointments or even joys in life.

How do I know this: His school friends, current friends and family tell me that his past, as a child was filled with tragedy, sadness. His 5 brothers and sisters lost their parents while they were still teens. An older sister raised them in extreme poverty.

But let’s leave this story aside for now. It does lead somewhere.

What does genuine and real mean to our humanity? We are not our original selves, we are not in an authentic body, the body that was originally created for us has been genetically changed and dumbed down.

The Wingmaker material talks about 3 bodysuits being made for us. There is a lot research currently available about our origins and how we were created but this is not the topic either because it’s not my area of expertise and in order to present this information requires a lot of research and compiling information. The point is, the bodies we are in today are not the original form.

When I think authentic, I think real and honest. If you’re not a copy of another person than you are genuine are you not? I’m talking about our expressions, communications, thoughts about ourselves, how we present ourselves to others.

We live in a society where all behavior is defined by laws. We can’t speak out about the Holocast because it’s illegal now and you can go to prison for hate crimes. You can’t speak out against or about a race of people because you will go to jail for racism. If you try and discipline your child or a pet for that matter, you will be arrested for abuse. If you become a Whistleblower and expose the government for it’s crimes against humanity, you can be charged with treason.

So, as a society, in order to survive in this reality without going to prison or being accused of something, we are forced to change, pretend or wear a mask or outright lie in order to protect and defend our sovereignty.

I could even say that the day I was born was my true authentic self. I knew no anger or frustration, I feared nothing and all I felt was love and the smell of my mother. My authentic self came into this world and the moment my umbilical cord was cut, I was no longer authentic.

How do we define a human as being authentic and from what point do we start?

My authentic self right now is pretending that my partner is not dying. I am angry at him but not showing my anger. He would ask me why I am angry and I would have to lie to him because I can’t tell him I’m angry because he’s not doing enough to stay alive. I’m angry because he refuses to go back into the pain and suffering so that we can talk about it. I’m angry because he’s choosing death over life. I’m angry because I have not been able to get him to open up in the last 10 years yet strangers come to me for help and are relieved in a matter of hours.

Why have 10 years gone by and I was not successful? Because for 9 years I respected his authentic self, I loved and accepted him for what he was, his journey, his reason for being here so I didn’t push him to talk about it. He’s not happy being ill, he says he wants to get better yet I also know that his illness was manifested from all the pain and suffering he is holding on to.

He can’t even tell me why he’s holding on to it. The answer is always:”I don’t want to talk about it”, so in essence he doesn’t want to get better.

The authentic self has long left his body and memory. A child that is born, regardless of what happens around it, whether it’s born in poverty or not, feels mother and love. If it’s not mother, most likely it is someone that loves that child.

Newborns are born Lumine, in Luminescence. They don’t need to hear or see Love. They emanate love and are happy feeling a loving touch, it’s all they know.

Could that be our authentic self? Being created out of love, conceived and born into love? Let’s just assume that our authenticity is measured at the moment of coming into this world but not by our body weight, size, imperfections or disabilities but by our love and instinct to survive.

Until we grow into adults we need love, food, shelter and stability. That’s it. In order for the human to survive he needs food, water, shelter and safety from danger. That is our authentic self, our genuine self. It is how I see the authentic self in this reality because until we are absolutely sure on how we were created, it’s all we know in the now.

We can say that our 3D world and body is not authentic, but again, we don’t yet all agree on what an authentic self really is, our origin is still being debated.

Are you living a life that is more in tune with your ‘authentic’ self (who you created to be) or your ‘fictional’ self (who you want others to see).

The authentic self is the one you feel in tune with or the one you strive to be. Dr. Phil defines the authentic self as: “Being the real, true, genuine substance of who you are, the authentic self is the you that can be found at your absolute core”.

I must ask Dr. Phil what exactly our absolute core is and how do we get to that? He claims that: The authentic self is all of the things that are uniquely yours and need expression, rather than what you believe you are supposed to be.

How do we express our unique self if say for instance we were abused or abandoned as small children? In a perfect world we may grow within our uniqueness or authentic self, but let’s face it, we live in a world of duality, control and a myriad of laws that prohibit us from being authentic so Dr. Phil or Philip McGraw is living in a fantasy world because he doesn’t see any obstacles in being authentic. According to him you’re either authentic or fictional.

He’s offering a Authenticity Litmus Test to find out how authentic or fictional you are. The catch is that he has not gone into detail about what authentic self really is or another very important aspect is that because of traumas and some form of dysfunctional living, we don’t know or even remember what it means to be authentic so Dr. Phil wants to test you based on his version of authenticity.

My comments below are in bold and answers to each question he proposes for you to answer.

1. Enter a thought, belief or attitude that you hold about yourself. I am fat and unmotivated. This is true about me. I am overweight according to today’s standards and I don’t like housework. I don’t see myself in a negative light, I’m simply the observer stating facts. 
2. Is it a true fact? Is what you are thinking or feeling verifiably true? Yes, absolutely. 
3. Does holding on to the thoughts or attitude serve your bests interests? Does it make you happy, calm, peaceful and fulfilled? Yes on every question Who says people can’t be happy being fat? 
4. Are your thoughts and attitudes advancing and protecting your health? Do your thoughts about yourself push you into situations that put your well-being at risk? Hmmmm…What does my health have to do with authenticity? Why would my situation whether it be good or bad push me into a situation that will put me at risk? This is more of a “are you depressed” litmus test and not one that will bring out your authentic self. 
5. Does the attitude or belief get you more of what you want, need and deserve? Or is it leading you toward or keeping you in circumstances that you don’t want? I won’t answer this question because again, it’s more of misleading you into finding out if you are depressed or if you like yourself. You see, I am overweight, that is a fact but it’s how I see the weight that matters. I love who I am and being overweight changes nothing nor does it prevent me from being my authentic self unless of course I try to cover the fat, deny my weight gain and pretend there is nothing wrong. This is where society and so-called Psychologists such as Dr. Phil more often that not have a tendency to subdue our authentic selves to fit into and by doing that we also suppress our creativity. These psychologists or mainstream shrinks use a set of defined behaviors to categorize you into them, they don’t give you free choice to be who you want to be so he is the last one to test you for your authentic self. 

We present ourselves according to the situation we are in and we may act one way in front of family, another way in work or business situations etc., and we consider those ‘fictional’ selves as normal because we all do it living in a society full of rules and correct behaviors, regulations and how to’s.

Being your authentic self is not about expressing your opinions, it’s about confidentially knowing what your opinions are. Furthermore, being your authentic self is your private relationship with yourself because when you are living your true and authentic self, you are then living in harmony with everything.

Philosophers like Camus, Sarte, Rousseau, Krishnamurti and many others have struggled to define the authentic self, but the one I like the most is from Philosophy Now.org : “Becoming authentic is an individual mission, and since each person has their own way of being human, and consequently what is authentic will be different for each individual. Furthermore, personal authenticity is highly contextual, and depends on various social, political, religious and cultural characteristics. But the unique nature of each individual is best seen not in who he is, but in who he becomes and becoming authentic is a continuous process, not an event. It involves not just knowing oneself, but also recognizing others and the mutual influence between individuals.”

So philosophers define what authenticity is but don’t offer to understand how we can recognize our authentic self.

Let me give you an example. If I grew up with an abusive father, more than likely because I am not being my authentic self, I will and I did marry a man that was just like my father. I didn’t know any better, I thought my father was the role model for children so I married that kind to be the father of my children. At that time, I was 21 years old, I had no way of remembering what my authentic self was. Surely I was not born with low self esteem either.

How can you be honest if you had to lie most of your life? The lie becomes my authentic self until I learn through more life experiences that I didn’t need to lie to impress my parents or anyone else for that matter. All I had to do was to learn to love myself which is part of the authentic self or it’s core value which is LOVE.

So, the bottom line and perhaps the question you would ask is: How do I know what my authentic self is?

My answer to that would be to be yourself, to speak what you feel and not what you should say. At first, you may not really ‘feel’ that is your authentic self because you’re not used to being that and so many layers of programming telling us how to behave and think must be removed, but it’s practice of being authentic that is important and you will slowly evolve into being “true” to yourself. After all, that is what this is all about, being honest with yourself.

I do not approve of gays or lesbians. I do not feel they should be parading to get our attention. I have my reasons, well researched and documented as to why I do not support their choices. I respect their individuality, but by being authentic, I am saying what I feel without worrying whether it’s politically correct or socially acceptable.

I do not debate this issue, I simply express my opinion and views regardless who is hearing me. This is what I call being my authentic self and if I am sitting in front of someone that is interviewing me for a job, my answer would be the same. My view on that is that if an employer values me, he/she will value my honest not what I think about it.

This is another core cause of societal breakdown because we are not encouraged to speak out our truth rather, we are being governed and controlled to fit into a global mindset which is impossible if we want to be our authentic selves.

It’s almost impossible to be yourself because you are constantly judged, measured, tested and chosen by your views and beliefs.

In today’s world, it takes courage to live as your authentic self if you even manage to find it, but you can never be truly happy if you are constantly appeasing to someone or something.

The control system promotes individualism yet they define what it is to fit their agenda. I have seen friends change just by taking off their makeup uncomfortable in that facial nakedness. We are so fucking messed up that we can’t literally show our true face. We’re living a big lie, surviving in an illusory world and losing if not lost already our core and true identity as a human species.

You can say that we are human robots and soon will even forget that we were born from our mother’s womb.

Our world is about to collapse in itself because we never agreed to go this far, we never agreed to lose our true identity. We came here to figure out who we are and instead of moving close to Source, we are actually dumber than cavemen and primitive monkeys.

Perhaps it’s necessary to manifest the ‘fall of mankind’ in order for us to truly wake up to our core authentic self. I like to believe that is the case otherwise there is nothing left to hope for and look forward to. I am comforted by knowledge of who I am, and that as an eternal soul, if I don’t succeed here, I will just keep going to another life or experience.

Wake up, damn it!

HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE

What is happiness? Don’t you want to be happy? We’re all searching for it are we not? That illusive happy state is always around the corner, just another $500 purse, another $1000 leather jacket, another set of new shoes and I will be happy.

When I was searching for it years ago, I could afford to buy all those things and more. In fact, I would walk into a shopping mall not needing anything, but the big wad of bills in my wallet just didn’t want to stay there, so I bought more stuff because I could and on the way home I was happy, unpacking the boxes I was happy, putting the stuff on made me happy and then getting all dressed up and sitting in a fancy restaurant all by myself didn’t make me happy. My friends had to work all day long for less pay and could not afford the place or time to have lunch with me while I enjoyed working for myself as a highly paid consultant and could eat lunch everyday.
There was a period in my life where the kids had left home and I was finally able to dedicate my time to my career fulltime. By then I had acquired enough skills and experience to demand good money with a new car and company shares. It was the first time I could be selfish and spend money on myself and live the life I always dreamed about. I considered that financial success because I was not yet 40 years old.

Then one day, my world came crashing when my doctor told me I had a rare form of liver cancer and there was nothing they could do. I am grateful it happened to me then because it was early enough to get my shit together and start over. I realized all the material things I had acquired were through unhealthy living, chronic stress, deadline pressures and constantly travelling and eating at the wrong times. My whole existence came into question because I had just completed my work and issues with money. It started to come in as thanked Universe for all that I had and this happiness didn’t last very long but at least I could afford to be treated at a private hospital in Mexico for 5 weeks using natural therapies.

Of course the story ends happily otherwise I would not be writing about it, but I wanted to share my experiences about how I too thought happiness was out there just waiting for me to find it and that I could buy it with money.

During those time of healing, I learned that I caused my illness, holding rage inside for years manifested in the liver and I would spend the following 4 years deeply involved in spirituality and seeking the path to true happiness. This is where I discovered Nichiren Daishonen buddhism, joined the organization and made truly wonderful friends. There was no god or authority to bow to, no rules or regulations, it was about finding happiness and clearing our karma by chanting NAM MYOHO RENGE KYO.

Our group studies were all focused on our personal growth, community work and removing the blocks we place to keep us in a state of suffering. There was no god to worship, no authority to bow down to, only our own enlightenment and it worked, I was cured of cancer in 9 months. I can’t say it was the natural treatments, the acupuncture or the chanting, but I was free of all pain, illness and suffering.

What is happiness? It means different things for different people. Right now,  a hungry child might consider a bowl of rice happiness, or a family running from bombs into shelter. Happiness can mean sitting with your loved one and watching a movie together but these are all fledging moments, none of them are permanent. Without looking up the meaning in the various dictionaries, let me define happiness.

Happiness is a state of being when despite chaos around us, despite problems and all the negativity in our current reality we can look at it with joy and just see it for what it is. Happiness is the Inner State of peace, love, joy that does not stop just because external sources are difficult. It’s how we respond to life. I doubt that anyone lives a problem free life, but it’s how we view our situation. This is what I define as happiness. When it rains you’re happy. When it’s thundering you’re happy. When the whole world is falling apart, your inner state is happy.

Can we truly be happy despite the chaos happening on this planet? I believe we can thought no one said it would be easy. Before we can even venture into being in a state of happiness, we have to remove the blinds from our eyes, we have to remove ourselves as participants of this world and become observers. The systems are put into place to keep us unhappy, therefore, we have to remove ourselves from those systems of religion, education, mass media and measuring time.

We have to overcome our Ego. The ego is young, it wasn’t introduced into humans until much later than the original human body. It’s design was to keep us fighting with the Ego. It only knows that it exists by relativity to other egos. The ego knows it exists in company of other egos. Only humans have Egos by the way.

We must form relationships with light, with darkness, with animals and plants. Your happiness is not about making love with your partner or having a huge family dinner. It is the force that we derive from being part of ALL that is. It is knowledge about nature and how it is so intelligently designed to keep us alive. Without trees and flora, there would be no oxygen to breath, without rain we die and all life dies dependent on water.

The false matrix sold you a pile of bullshit what true happiness is so that you can spend more money looking for it. Happiness is not being in love, it’s BEING loved. It’s about ‘feeling’ your greatness in this reality, it’s about ‘knowing’ who you truly are and what you are capable of.

I spent many years healing the wounds of my past using Psychology. Sure, it gave me a better understanding of why I did certain things or why I thought a certain way. It didn’t bring me happiness.

I discovered happiness when I discovered who I was. When I realized how powerful I am, why I am here and what my purpose is for being here then I became happy. You see, without purpose you are just walking among the rest of the zombies either drugged on anti-depressants or overworked in this slavery system. You were never designed to be a human playing the “let’s stall the death game”, you are a beautiful Soul who came here to “play the game of life”.

Once you truly “feel” and “know” this, happiness manifests on it’s own because that is your true state of being. Love is happiness, happiness is love.

Do you have a relationship with the light? With the air (winds)? How about your breath? Prana? Music? The constant changing of the sky? The water? Are the elements your best friend? Do you have a personal relationship with the ocean? Have you hugged a tree and talked to it? Have you felt it’s energy when you hugged it?

Magic is that thing that happens when you open your eyes in the morning. It’s not something you attain or find in some secret society in order to be. It’s the initiation of opening your eyes in the morning. As soon as you open them in the morning before the whole Ego system starts to work, the actual act of being in the world is magic. Sorcery is what tries to hide that from you. It’s about hiding the source of all good things and preventing you from finding it and being happy.

Thinking should be an act of gratitude. Our mantra should be: Thank you, thank you for all that I am, thank you for my experience and existence, thank you for allowing me to play this game of life, thank you for creating me.

When the light hits the pupil of the eye, that’s called a miracle, the fact that you have waken up to the day. you are embraced by the thing called the day. Time embraces you like a brother. Time is an entity you can talk to but you ignore it all your life.

This is where the fragmentation, aloneness, alienation, and fracturing of our society happens because we put our entire psychic focus on to other equally, depressed, equally lost individuals. You lost your Earth by wearing shoes and disconnecting. You lost your roots.

You shouldn’t be demanding that experience is always fresh and new, it’s the mind of the experience that needs to be fresh and new. What we have are these people with a dead mind going “turn me on, give me more stuff, I need more stimulation, I’m dead, animate me”, this is our current condition. How sad.

When we wonder why the world is in the state it is in. The mind is what needs to be continually incarnating, refreshed not experience. This is what the world should understand.

Instead of using and striving for Enlightenment, we should use the term Luminescence, which is a very masculine way of looking at things. We look at it like “lightness”, not accumulating, attaining, acquiring and having but BEING. We are Light Beings.

Instead of trying to embrace, allow yourself to be embraced. We’re not hearing ourselves. You can’t own the oceans of the world, but you can dive into it.

I love the way Michael Tsarion defines our life: ” There is a river, the river of time, I look at it as the river that carries the cosmos or as the Mayans call it the river of creation. That’s a silent river we don’t hear anymore because of our own clutter. Now, on that river is our life. We’re born not into the world but from the womb of the world, we’re born from the womb of the Universe. We’re born into this movement and you deafen yourself because on the river is a boat. The boat is consciousness and the boat is a creation out of the womb of the world, but on the boat there are oars. 

The oars are the Ego, and the oars is the Ego of you thinking you are directing your life. That’s sorcery. The magic is to let go of the oars and to let the boat go on the river wherever the river wants to take it. 

Oh no, no, no, I can’t trust the river, give me the oars and then you row yourself into a huge rock, into a whirlpool, you start banging into other boats, losing direction and some idiots want to actually row upstream against the flow of the river. This is the Super Ego man. So the Gods looked down and they laugh. They put the oars there to see where we are at. 

The Donald Duck moron in the boat who is paddling away is the one caught in his own ego thinking: “If I don’t paddle, Im not getting anywhere”. 
It’s all about effort, it’s about me. Although the Universe rains down horrors of pain and suffering to that kind of person’s life, they will never learn. They get to like the sound of their oars, the adrenaline rush and feeling they are directing their own life. 

But the real art of life which is the magic of life, which is the enlightenment is to let go of the oars and then slowly acculturate yourself to the sound of the river. Because that river by the way for all your paddling and for all your rowing and hysteria is taking you precisely where it wants you to go. So you can spend your whole life rowing and it won’t matter because the river is still master. All your rowing is just sending you up shit creek without a paddle, it’s a futile waste of time.”End of quote.

Many of us don’t get it until we are near to death or dying and start reflecting back on our lives wishing we did it differently.

In the end, it’s not even taking you to where you want to go because you missed the sound of it and this is where the New Age movement misleads people in teaching them they must hold on to the oars and control their destiny. After all the paddling from not going anywhere you are tired and then you fall for the “don’t worry, a savior is on it’s way, relax”. If would have been so much better if you had the courage, know how and trust in your intuition to let the boat go. In the end you’re exhausted and then the new age movement says: “everything’s an illusion and construct, you’re a prisoner of your own mind, don’t worry, just meditate and raise your frequency so you can ascend”.

But man doesn’t want to hear this because the Program installed is that you must be in command. The program is Ego. They’re selling us the false ideology of individualism and a false understanding of freedom.

They do not want you to be happy because when you are in a state of happiness, you need nothing, you’re connected to mother Earth, when you’re happy you don’t want wars and don’t need to be right or black or white.

In order to find the happiness inside, you have to let go of everything outside. All the obligations, responsibilities, the guilt, the clock watching and you have to accept each individuals for who they are. Being happy may require getting rid of people in your life or setting boundaries so you can’t be manipulated.

You don’t have to stop living your life or change your life to be happy but you have to change the way you view your life and understand why you are here. Attaining joy or being in a state of happiness is not a decision or spontaneous evolution. It requires a lot of inner work.

When you can say: “I’m feeling good, life is good, all is well and I’m grateful to be alive”, you have found your place in happiness. You see, the world around you can be a mess, the people in your life can be miserable, you may even hate your job but that has nothing to do with happiness.

When you notice the sky, hear the birds, smell the wind or air after it rains, drops of rain on your face, that is happiness. When you’re sitting on the beach, take a stone and throw it in the water, feel yourself fall to the bottom of the ocean floor. You are that stone, you are that ocean, you are all that is.

When a bird flies above you and chirps, know it’s saying hello and when you hear thunder know that Mother Earth is thirsty.

How difficult can that be? Choose happiness. I can tell you that each morning IS magical and that means I’ve lived another day, how divine is that?

I didn’t mention cars, jewelry, big homes, yachts or designer purses. Actually being happy can save you a lot of money. Happiness is a choice but before choosing to be happy you need to know what it means. You will never get bored of it, you never get tired of it and it can be contagious if shared with others.  Happiness is a permanent state of mind because once you’re truly happy, you will never want to go back being unhappy.

I made my choice long ago, boy I wish you everyone could be happy too. Being happy together is even better, don’t you think?