Just a RanT

I have been really slow in approving all the comments that wait for approval. Just so that you know for those of you that are new, your first comment needs approval, after that, it posts automatically. I don’t feel that I need to control every comment because it doesn’t make this a free thinking blog then. So far I have been lucky that in 5 years of keeping this blog I have only had 2 trolls or bad comments. I guess it’s because even the typing has energy.

Can you accept that everything is energy? Everything is energy/vibration/sound so even me typing this post right now is energy and  I believe that the not so happy readers don’t stay on this blog too long because they don’t feel comfortable with happy and joyous energy. Just my thoughts on that.

But back to approving your comments. It’s a one time thing and I’m finding it very difficult to come back and write on a regular basis. Some may ask  me why? I receive a lot of emails if I don’t post something in a few weeks. Some readers are almost petrified that I won’t be writing because they enjoy what I have to say and so at times I feel obligated that I need to write something.

After my partners death, it was much easier as I had an excuse, but as time went by, life changed drastically. For years I was living a schedule and so I gave up doing a lot of things because I can’t take my Camera and go into nature knowing I have one hour to photograph. Now, I can get on my Scooter, grab my gear and just ride until I find something to photograph. I don’t need to look at my watch knowing I have to come home to take care of my partner and the household, it’s amazing to feel so free. So, the blog was part of that escape at night when I could not go out anywhere but couldn’t leave the house because there was a time when my partner needed 24 hr care. The blog became my Journey, sharing my thoughts and experiences, I could sit at my computer all night if I wanted to and share.

This is a Scorpion about 1 cm in length, my first Macro shot. 

Now, I can sleep as long as I want and be outside as long as I want, so the blog kind of fell by the wayside. But, it’s important to me because you dear readers give me acknowledgement and I think that every writer seeks that.

Look, things are getting really crazy, it’s January and trees started growing new leaves in November, some are fruiting but also dying because it’s too cold. Nature is confused, and if nature is confused, then what is humanity?

Maybe nature isn’t confused. Maybe it’s just adjusting it’s biorhythms? Can Nature be confused? Isn’t Nature our guide? What do you think? I feel Nature’s confusion as I walk through it. I live in the middle of Nature, from my Sun-room I am surrounded by nature and as I sit there observing, I feel confusion. After all, why would an Almond tree blossom in November instead of March? Or does the Almond tree already know it has to change it’s cycle? If we are use Nature as a guide, then perhaps we should take heed that Winter is turning into Spring and Vice Verse; it means that we should adapt to Nature. How can nature be confused? Can the frequencies that are being emitted by those Cell Towers and all the other technology damage nature and thus it’s confused? These are questions I think about while I am out there walking because everything is different and I can’t figure out if it’s because Nature is confused or is Damaged. Whatever the answer may be, neither one is a good one. Confused or damaged doesn’t lead to anything good.

I met a new kitten today, a Feral cat that my girlfriend was feeding and while all the cats ran off, he came up to me and so he’s being delivered in the next few days as I was on my Scooter today and could not bring him home with me. He’s that Felix Cat on Purina Felix pouch foods but has a beautiful energy. This is what I got for thinking about using a Feral cat to test my negative manifesting!


The Dark Side of Manifesting

Interesting subject isn’t it? You may ask, has Ines gone to the dark side? I’ve been gone, but only from the blog. I needed time out, many changes after my partner passed away and I wanted to share something with you, something that I feel is so important.
My partner and I worked out the financial part and Estate 7 months before he passed away. He has 2 children from previous marriage and they never accepted me as part of their dad’s life. They acted like teenagers, you know: ” Daddy left mummy for a younger woman and we don’t like daddy because mommy told us he didn’t love us anymore, and SHE did something to him to make him leave us”. That was the attitude they had and I wasn’t bothered by that but the reason we did the Estate is because even Toni knew his kids would come after me. He passed on July 18th and within hours they were calling to find out if their dad left a Will.
My point to the story is this: After we signed the Agreement, it was a way to protect me from his kids so that they could not take the house away from me and I knew that they would be upset, they expected that Toni would leave them everything and I should be out on the street. So, for months after signing this agreement, I was obsessed with: ” They are going to be really pissed off, I better not tell anyone in case they find out, Paul is going to come after me and he will do whatever it takes to destroy me, etc, etc.”
At the Estate Hearing on Nov. 14th, just as I was going to waive my rights to Ancestral Land that Toni owned, the lawyer butts in and says: ” We appeal, we are suing, and we have filed Criminal charges”. Yes, they accused me of denying him the proper medical care, denying him his prescribed medications, accused me of Quackery and thus causing his death.
I told you Ines, you see, you were right, you knew this was going to happen.
You may ask: ” Ines, how do you know you manifested this and it was just meant to be?” Because I have been manifesting for years now, uncontrolled, but I have been manifesting for 4 months, all I could think of was how they were going to come after me.
Before I continue, the Police Investigation was completed in a few days and all charges were dismissed, but the fact is they did try. I haven’t yet received the Official Paperwork, but I’ve been told to go home and enjoy life.

The power we hold is scary, you need to understand this. I have been writing about this for years, and yet I became a Victim of my own truth and what I preach and what I believe to be true.

It’s impossible to control every thought. We were not designed to exist in this kind of environment where we are living in this Matrix and Illusion, so we are constantly in a Stress Mode from making breakfast, tending to the sick, going to work, raising children, paying taxes, putting up with noisy neighbors, we simply don’t have the time to Meditate or to control our thoughts. Only Monks have that time while they are up in their Temples to Meditate, but then they don’t need to worry about raising kids, driving in traffic or putting up with noisy neighbors. You get my point.
It was in these past few months that I too had the time to think and contemplate, to learn how to monitor my thoughts and watch how and what I think because you know that saying: ” Be careful for what you wish for?” It is fucking true!
We are Creators, we manifest whether we know it or not, are aware of it or not, but we manifest our own reality. I love listening to Abraham Hicks, the information is wise and empowering because whatever that being teaches is what I already know. Thinking about it creates the idea, but focusing and meditating on it, brings forth the energy to manifest it and then you have this ” Good feeling” inside when you think about it. For the last 10 years, I have manifested everything I want and need. I live in abundance even when I didn’t have funds to pay the bills today, I felt rich and knew the money would arrive, it always does. I never think: ” My wallet is empty or I don’t have money”. I always think:” I have abundance and the Universe knows when I am ready for it”.
So, my thoughts led me to something dark. Is it possible that I manifested Toni’s death? When he was diagnosed with PAH in 2014, the automatic protocol along with other drugs were Diuretics. He was collecting fluids around the heart, the heart enlarges because it’s not getting enough oxygen from the Lungs and so the only way they knew was to give him Diuretics. It never solved the problem, but they kept increasing his dosages to the point where he was skin and bones. Even with him taking 2L of water everyday, it never stayed inside long enough, so this caused his blood to clot abnormally and for years I would tell Toni: ” These diuretics are going to kill you”. I believe they were the cause of his death as he came home from his checkup a week before he died. They found a clot behind his knee, but figured it was just one little clot and sent him home with Clexane injections to break it down. The Coroner said it was possible that the clot didn’t break down and travelled.
For years I have been thinking: ” These fucking diuretics are going to kill him”.
No, don’t get me wrong. I am not blaming myself for his death. Those of you that have been reading this blog for years know that I gave it everything I had to care for him lovingly, but it makes you wonder. Whether it’s knowing or unknowing, can we manifest such things? Can we manifest harm to someone else? I don’t have those answers. I know that I can manifest for me, but I’m not sure that I can’t manifest to others.
I know that we are powerful, I know that we are Creators, but most people will find excuses when life doesn’t go the way they want. The reality is that we did manifest the good and the bad, just by thinking it that way. When we constantly repeat in our minds: ” I have no money, I can’t pay the bills, how am I going to survive tomorrow, I wish I can find a job, I need to borrow some money”, the Universe just gives us more of what we are thinking about. I call that Poverty Consciousness. So, when we come sad because we didn’t get that job that we wanted; did you think about what you were thinking on your way there or the days before the Interview? How about this: ” I hope I get the job, I hope I can dress and impress, I need this job, what happens if I don’t get this job?” These are the common thoughts we think on our way to accomplish something. The self doubt, the worries, the insecurities all giving instructions to manifest what we are thinking.
Do be careful for what you want. I’m not talking about wishing or hoping for something. Those are passive thoughts and they don’t create anything. But if you focus on something and make it the center of your attention, that you want it so bad and believe that you will get it, you will get it when you are ready for it. Take it from me, I have been manifesting good and bad, but now I am learning to really be careful for what I want or think because I do believe that we influence other lives with our thoughts. I do believe that.
We are in the Terminal Madness, I have the luxury of listening to Fox News, RT News and Press TV all day long and the world is divided, we are on the cusp of a rebellion or revolution. Humanity knows that something is not right, and it knows that things have to change, but they haven’t yet figured out who they are. It all comes down to being aware of the power we hold and the power we are. We are so powerful it is frightening at times, intimidating and often I want to disbelieve this because our thoughts are constantly passing by, we are like a factory track of products moving along the line to be packaged.
You may ask how do I change this? It’s easy and it’s not easy. Like everything else we want to learn, we have to practise and dedicate some time for it. Instead of meditating which is usually about stopping your thoughts, focus on your thoughts, just observe them, follow the pattern of your thoughts and then start catching them: ” This wasn’t conducive to my existence, or this one doesn’t benefit me etc. You can have an empty mind, but what then? Why would anyone want an empty mind? We can’t manifest anything when we shut down the mind, we want to alter it’s reason for thinking. Think only thoughts that are: Positive, that are productive, that solve problems, that are proactive, thoughts of what you want, how to get what you want, basically, you are God and you get to Create whatever it is that you want. Having an empty mind is having an empty life. I want to live life in joy and have abundance. Isn’t that what everyone wants? No, I don’t want a good job and I don’t want to drive a nice car. I want joy and abundance.
You know, we have a H1N1 flu epidemic, I guess because we are a smoking society, this Virus affects the Lungs and many people even young people succumb to bed for at least 10 days to 2 weeks. It’s a nasty flu, and been around for a few years. Everyone is afraid to go out, the Pharmacist is wearing a mask. I decided that I don’t want that Virus and I have made it my #1 enemy. I have never had the Flu,   I do not want you in my body, please leave, you are not welcome”, So, my point is this: People are terrified and I smile, I don’t get the flu because I don’t want them critters in my body. Believing this will keep you safe, but the moment a self doubt enters your mind, you’re finished. There cannot be any self doubt, there has to be this knowing about what you believe. Like you are already living it, you see yourself that way. I know I’m rambling but I had a lot to say.
There is a dark side to Manifesting, I’m trying to figure that out now and see but I need to focus on something and make it turn bad, that’s the part I can’t decide. I thought about a feral cat outside and focusing my thoughts on it, but I can’t wish harm to anything, so this is going to be tough to experiment with and I believe it is without intent that we do this. We see it all the time, yelling at a child: ” Don’t walk there, you will fall, don’t touch that it will bite you”. Why do people fear dogs yet were never bitten by them? Because their parents probably scared the shit out of them as children and they cling to that belief. Thing is, they do get bitten as adults. Did the parents manifest or did they manifest by believing the dog will bite them?
Something to think about.


Note from Ines: One of my readers sent me an email with this link I wrote as you can see 3 years ago. It was interesting to read my own thoughts, I thought I would repost for you readers that didn’t dig into the blog. Thanks Jen! 

This post is solely based upon my own observations in regarding to the behavior in the last year of my readers/visitors, mainly they are responses to the posts by me or another author.

When I first started the original blog inesradman.wordpress.com (shut down since then) but can find older posts on https://outofthisworldx.wordpress.com/ines-radman-updates/, the intent or purpose of the blog was to share my journey and experiences into what we would unknown or the “occult”, as it’s meaning is exactly that; based upon my experiences and research over a span of 30 years. As I became a researcher in this area, I began to notice so many false prophets and I felt the need to protect people from following these deception agents, and not to expose them and catch them with their pants down so so to speak. My method has always been asking questions and if they refuse to answer, I do a write about and ask publicly.

It was never about exposing although I did use those words, but deep down it was really a sense of protection, I have always been motivated by a sense of injustice and can’t turn my head when I see it. Perhaps other bloggers can give themselves credit for “exposing” them, but I think that is ego based reasoning and the need to be right, vindicated and recognized as the “villain”.

My true desire was to protect people from those false prophets, gurus, channelers etc., because when we first start our journey into the unknown, we are faced with a multitude of information, different views, opinions and just as many so called experts that present their version of reality and it’s very easy to get caught into a dogma that appeals to us. It’s how we attract in the beginning because we don’t know how to discern. It’s like driving through a dark tunnel, you’re in control of the wheel, the car and feel confident you will drive through but you have no idea how long that tunnel is.

The first part of my journey was delving into the religious aspects, all religions. After my NDE; I questioned my catholic upbringing, not that I was actively participating in it but I did baptize my children according to “tradition”, as my mother said and when I spoke to catholic elders about my NDE, they all told me it was some form of devil temptation, although what this thing tempted me with, I don’t know but I didn’t buy that, it didn’t make sense to have such an incredible experience and give the devil credit for it.

So, I began studying various bibles from different religions. There was a time when I had 9 or 10 bibles spread out on my living room floor comparing each sentence that interested me. In essence I was looking for the true god because the one I was taught to believe in was mean as hell towards me and I needed to know why.

In the state of cancering, by accident (no such thing), I came across a second-hand bookstore and instinctively reached for a book on Nichiren Daishonin buddhism and I liked it. General/traditional Buddha worship was as complex as studying the bible and so when I came across this ‘ideology’ , it made sense to me. I instantly bonded with the book and its philosophy of clearing our karma in this current lifetime and NOT in all lifetimes in the past. Nichiren said there is no such thing as the past, everything is in the now in different realities. Go figure. Taking responsibility for my own actions probably saved my life from cancer because instead of blaming, I realized I had in many ways created that reality. I was an eager student, joined the organization SGI that had no elders or hierarchy and our meetings were about chanting Daimoku, chanting NAM MYOHO RENGE KYO.  This chanting would clear our karma from this lifetime and we would replace it with abundance.

It was the only requirement of us, to work on karma, to help others and to respect every living organism as it too chose this incarnation to learn something. I was involved in this right to the time I moved back to Croatia and unfortunately, there was nobody here at the time I could continue to grow with.

My point to this story was about being a newbie, starting a journey and we usually stop at something along the way that fits into our current reality or belief system. We stay with it until something new comes along or we outgrow the current ideology or the subject we put our faith into.

For 15 years, I was perfectly happy living this philosophy, I have to admit that my life changed in such a way that I no longer attracted negativity in my life or negative people, there were no obstacles preventing me from achieving my goals, life just seemed to level out compared to the extremes of ebb and flows only in hurricane like strength.

At the same time, I was involved in the new age movement. My first 2 books were “Kryon” by Lee Carrol and “Bringers of The Dawn”, by Barbara Marciniak. The new age bookstore or Esoteric bookstore it was called in those days was my favorite place to hang out, as we did not yet have internet in Vancouver until 1991. I was hungry for truth, I needed to know who I was and why I was here.

Buddhism and new age philosophy didn’t really meld well and I soon found myself in between two worlds, yet I had not yet found the answers and that was who I was and WHY I was here. Buddhism teaches you that life and death are continual cycles, but it doesn’t define purpose other than clearing our karma and going upwards somewhere.

Uncovering, exposing false prophets got old, I had evolved from this idea  and realized that they too had a role to act out in this production called 3D Earth. It wasn’t their deception, it was the possibility they could cause harm to others.

Now, the point to this post is about where are today. As I have learned through my journey and full accepted that I create my own reality, I now take responsibility for everything that happens in my life and that I am free to do and live, create according to my desires so long as I don’t hurt anyone with my actions.

I notice that when I write or post articles about this subject, I get NO comments. Articles about false prophets, gurus, deception, the matrix, well just about every subject will generate comments/participation, but the moment I post how powerful you are and how you create your own reality, I can hear a pin drop.

Even 20 years ago, we considered ourselves an arrogant race because we then believed that we were the only creation of god in the Universe. At that time, we only had one Universe. Much has changed since then and although we may no longer be arrogant and have slowly accepted the possibility of alien races, aliens that are good or bad; we are still in denial and this has been my observation.

We love to debate, we love to argue, we love to expose the bad guys and by nature we are curious; but when someone tells you that you are powerful and that you created your current reality, you seem to run and hide. This is no small blog anymore. I get over 5000 visitors each day from all parts of the world.

What part are you running from or denying? Are you in denial about your powerful nature, your responsibility in this current reality or both?

I don’t think you are disagreeing with me because those that do participate through comments or writing emails in fact love to debate with me and share their thoughts and opinions. I receive at least 25 to 30 emails each day.

Those of you that have been with me from the start (about 150) know that I am not set into a certain belief system and that I never debate your views rather respect them and often thank you for your input because YOU have contributed to my growth as well!

I know if you didn’t agree with me or perhaps have another view to share,  that you would do that your silence is actually telling me one or all of the reasons below:

  1. You don’t agree but don’t want to comment
  2. You agree but not yet ready to take responsibility
  3. Until you have proof, you’re not prepared to consider this possibility
  4. You don’t agree, you’re a victim in this reality and it’s not your fault that you have a crappy life. You simply don’t believe that we would choose to create suffering and wars.

Which is it? If you answer NO to all of the above then:
1. You are in denial of your true self
2. You do not yet know your true self
3. You are skipping lessons and need to go back and work them out, this stage is too advanced for you

Every single cult, organization, group, person/expert out there that is telling you what is happening or what is about to happen to HUMANITY is merely expressing their own reality.

For a few years I judged these people based on true or false, right or wrong but now I see them as people creating their own reality and pushing it out to others to accept as their belief system.

ANY person that is teaching, channeling or sharing a philosophy or prediction of possibilities concerning the human race in general is merely projecting their reality on to you.

Take a look at the past 10 years. Has any ONE of these folks, EVER been correct about something?

No, they have not. And when things don’t happen as they claim, they simply blame humans saying that humans can change the outcome. Bullshit. Their version of reality is theirs alone. They have a specific role to play in this production and it may be their current reality but it is not and never was YOURS.
You create your own reality. Ascension/integration or becoming a higher vibrational being is not a mass/group event. It is an individual event. If we come here to learn, we are rewarded for our hard work. Why should some ignorant couch potato watching Kim Kardashian swing her fat ass, who may be a good person get to graduate with me if he/she has not done the work?

So, you may ask: Who do I trust then? You don’t trust anyone. You can read and listen to what others have to say but as an example: George Kavassilas and Cameron Day, will both tell you that their information is solely based upon their own personal experiences and they teach empowerment. They simply share their experiences and both also claim that we each create our own reality.

People to trust are those that are sharing and teaching you how to access the inner knowledge and power. People that teach you how to raise your vibration, how to access your higher self, how to have lucid dreams, expand and regain your memory back are the ones that you will learn from.
People that teach personal power, personal responsibility, are the ones that are true teachers and more than likely were “given” these roles rather than choosing them to help humanity remember who you are.

I didn’t have spiritual teachers, we are; you may call it Pioneers of bringing occultism into our society, raising questions about our true history. We learned through trial and error, we got caught up in cult leaders and entities such as Kryon, Ramtha, and Seth; but they taught us many things as well, it was part of the process we had to go through. A tree doesn’t flower until it grows buds. An apple doesn’t form without flowering and being pollinated first. Any individual our there sharing/teaching information about the human race, about OUR current reality and about OUR possible future is simply projecting their own reality.

I have written a lot about my astral travel and lucid dreams. It’s taken me another 10 years to figure out that my dreams are actually part of my Soul having multiple experiences. I can recount about 7 or 8 different realities I exist in, but I have no idea what dimension/space/time/level/density/world this is happening in so most of these people that channel or get messages really don’t know whose reality it really IS and anyone that is acting as a messenger for a god or gods is compromised. In other words, they are interfering with our free will and they do not have a good role to play in this production. They are actually instigators to piss us off, fool us, deceive us so that we can get mad and wake up! You cannot go anywhere because this reality is an illusion we created to play out, travel or movement is ridiculous.

Think about it. If you are here to create your own reality in order to experience that is IS, you don’t need anyone telling you what to do or what to believe in. You are creator gods, you are a divine spark of source and you can run but you can’t hide.

Supreme rule coming directly from Source is: Do not interfere with free will. It’s like waking up someone from a deep coma or throwing a cold bucket of water on a person sleeping, it literally changes their reality even if they do not want to believe what is told to them, it changes their perception. This is the supreme law and the only law from Source.

Don’t deny your powerful self. That feeling of “knowing” who you are instantly changes your life because you stop thinking and doing things that impede your growth in the physical and spiritual reality. Ok, you created a shitty reality, fine, you figured it out and now you have the power to change that. Don’t get down on yourself because you thought you were doing the right thing, this is all part of the lessons we came to learn.

Your silence is telling me that you are far from graduation and that you should maybe take a few steps back because the prerequisite to graduation is “to know thyself”.

Our purpose here is to make this world a better one, if you are not contributing to that purpose it’s because you still see yourself as a human physical being. It is here that we learn responsibility because we can’t occupy a light body, create through thought if we have not learned responsibility for our thoughts and actions.

Here is an example:  You are now a higher dimensional body, occupying a crystalline physical form and in front of you is standing someone you know also in a higher dimensional body form and you don’t like them very much. You may think: ” I hate this person and hope he gets struck by lightning”. Next moment you see him being struck by lightning and he falls to the ground. Good thing you didn’t think “I hate this person and hope lightning kills him”. Do you get my drift?

We cannot graduate in this state because we can’t take responsibility for our thoughts and actions so you can run from this but until you work on it, you will not graduate.

I’m not ready to graduate either, I still have a lot of work to do and one of my challenges is intolerance toward people that are closed minded or live in a strict unwavering belief system. Even though I know that may be part of the lesson they came to learn, I still believe that I can help them learn faster! So this is just one of the lessons I am learning, tolerance. It is joyful work, it is rewarding and fulfilling because it is the purpose I am here and when you have purpose, you know you are on the right track. Yes, there is a reward otherwise we would have no incentive to grow. What is the incentive?

The incentive is becoming a fully conscious multidimensional being. It means we are no longer restricted in our senses/space/time/understanding of who we are. It is a birds eye view of all that is and continuing our soul existence with an experience of actually living in a physical reality and never having to wonder what it is like.

Doesn’t that sound divine? Isn’t this something you want to strive for? How do you get there? Easy. Live your life with the purpose of making this place a better one. That’s it. Everything else is the stage/props we created to make that happen.

The Nature of Dreaming and Reality as a Soul

The last few days I have been listening to the Audio Book of Seth and The Nature of Reality. Of course, I may catch a few sentences here and there as I am doing other things, but I spent the biggest part of the day yesterday listening as it was raining outside and I wasn’t feeling that great.
As you may have already read in my writings, I leave my body at night or what I call dream time. For many years I thought they were dreams, reflections of our current conscious state. Some people interpret dreams which may or may not reflect our conscious state if you believe you’re SOUL and therefore, that dream state is merely a reflection of all your different realities that you are experiencing as a Soul. What convinced me was an event during sleep where someone in that reality who I also know here in this reality told me to hurry up and go to the bathroom and come back. I woke up, running to the bathroom thinking ” hurry  up so you can get back there”. It was after a few of these events that I started to chart the different realities upon falling asleep and up to now have been able to remember 9 different realities that I exist in.
Well, I caught an audio portion where Seth speaks about these realities and that we can enter them consciously through Intent. In other words, before falling asleep we make our intent known what we want to do after falling asleep, so last night, while I was getting comfortable into bed and my cat Nero trying to find a spot close to me, I thought: ” Tonight I want to experience other realities and remember them when I wake up”.
It was intense. I remember being aware of this fast moving reality where my partner is in it, he’s in a bed, he’s not himself, like he’s got dementia and he’s thrashing around like a mad man and I keep clashing with my conscious mind thinking: ” Hey, you’re supposed to be dead, why are you here disturbing my life again”. These realities shifted fast from him to a woman running around with spider like arms and legs, to a cousin I know bringing me ashes of a friend and me rejecting them, to watching a guy walk over a rubber lake, he kept jumping up and down and I was laughing. He threw his fish hook and it just bounced on the rubbery lake, then a scene I see this guy with another man in a robe swimming in the broken rubber surface he’s trying to save this guy from drowning. It was one scene after another, odd, crazy, absurd in this reality but in those I didn’t react with fear or negativity, I simply watched in amazement as to what was in front of me. There were numerous other events/realities that passed by so fast and I can’t remember them.
When I woke up, my first thoughts were ” Oh my god, it was not real, he really is dead”. The visions went through me fast as I tried to remember them, sitting on the potty reviewing everything I just experienced and felt so confident that I would remember all of this in the morning. Well, it’s now 9:00 am and I remember only what I have written here, I know there was much more, many realities that flew by in a time frame I can’t even begin to fathom because we base everything on time here, but in reality, there is no time, everything exists in the same moment, just as I experienced myself in different realities all happening in the same moment.
Jane Roberts and her books on Seth are true. I have been reading them off and on for years now, I simply don’t have enough time in the day to do everything let alone read all the books I have waiting to be read, but I can tell you that something changed last night/this morning.  The number 9 has been in my life for a long time. It represented the Dimension that I came from, at one point in this existence as a Soul that number reflected that dimension, now I think it might the realities that I currently experience in real time as a Soul but while awake in this reality and body, I am not conscious of them.
It’s the reality that we exist in right now that is toxic, negative, duality based and we are controlled and programmed so our awareness of who we are are denied or we are severed from Source, or the Veil around the planet prevents us from that awareness. Whatever the reasons are, I am fully aware now of my other existences as SOUL, that this reality in which I am writing this to you is just merely one of them.
To have this knowledge makes me feel very powerful, it confirms everything I have been writing about over the years, the intuitive thoughts and feelings come through much faster and stronger as my belief system changes from a human to an Old Soul. To know that I can consciously with Intent just leave my body during sleep and enter/remember the other realities I am experiencing can sometimes be intimidating, but it’s merely proof that I am not a human with a Soul, rather a SOUL in this body having the human experience.
I wanted to share this with you and get your thoughts on this. The world we live in is not intended for us to externalize our current events, we have been duped into believing this and therefore, we corrupted this reality however it was done. I don’t believe there is a bad guy or bad society or bad Cabal, I believe they are all extensions of our projections and belief systems.
If this is true, then whatever happens in our human future is really a matter of us determining what it will be just as I write about. It confirms to me that our reality as we know it now is based on our projections, that there is no BAD society or BAD Cabal or Bad Controllers, rather that we have created them in order to experience what we are now experiencing here in this reality. If this is the case, then there is no good or bad, truly there is not. There is only projections of our united consciousness creating this reality; however we don’t like it as humans, however difficult it is to feel hunger, pain, destruction, it’s what we came here to experience.
This reality is like the HELL that religions talk about. We have actually created that HELL through our own projections, through maybe a plan gone bad and this is the end result, but we as SOULS have created this experience. If there is no such thing as death, then there is no such thing as hunger or destruction because they are mere experiences we have chosen to experience, to enhance the Consciousness of the Soul just like a victim of sexual abuse can help others to understand what it is like to be abused and help them heal.
I feel so privileged as it takes courage to open/expand your mind to accept that something like this can be true. It’s one thing to write about it, but it’s another to experience this. After I woke up, wide awake as I was, I laid in bed thinking about whether I wanted to go back, it was so fast and so intense, the human conscious part of me wasn’t sure if it wanted to go back and experience perhaps something I didn’t like.
I have never had dream time experiences where I have felt any negative emotions/feelings such as fear or pain. One experience I still vividly remember is me walking over hundreds of snakes. I was careful not to step on one and yet I didn’t feel fear, just awe as to how many were below my feet. There is not a reality in dream time where I feel negative emotions,at least I don’t remember. It seems that this reality here as a human is the only freaky and fucked up reality that I exist in. Very interesting experience, it’s mind boggling to me as a human yet deep down, I as SOUL feels very proud to have explored and allowed myself to travel into the unknown as we know it here in this reality.
To KNOW that I being the ALL THAT IS can actually learn to explore and learn of my different realities is exciting, like an Inventor inventing a new product. I feel like Einstein  though I have no idea how he felt but I can only imagine how excited he was, each time he came up with a new theory or invention.
To KNOW that our life here is merely a ‘blip’ in a continuation of Soul experiences helps me understand and deal with this life in this reality much better. It’s true empowerment from a SOUL level and not an intellectual level as we know it to be. It’s one thing to intellectually come to some kind of conclusion or theory, it’s another to KNOW and Experience the true nature of our reality.
Jane Robert’s Seth is right on, the years I have spent analyzing his work is paying off. It’s simple really, but the most difficult part is ” accepting” the idea/notion that we are SOULS and are in complete control of every single experience we have here and other dimensions. If you can’t accept this as a possibility, then you can’t go to sleep at night with that Intent of wanting that experience. We have to BELIEVE this notion, the conscious mind has to open itself to that possibility before we can actually move forward. I know this to be true because it’s taken me years to get to this point.

The Eye of the Storm – Terminal Madness

I’m back but I’m not. It’s been a wonderful 2 months for me. The toxic energy of death was obvious after my partner passed away. The entire home took on another new revitalizing energy. With vigor, I threw out all the furniture and painted then replaced with new furniture, new colors, new energy. I sold my car and bought myself an Electric Scooter, I bought 2 bikes and tons of things for my recreation.
 For 2 weeks I detoxed, my body simply broke down and went into a healing crisis. Things showed up I never knew existed, but it was all part of the cleansing and healing process.
Even though I haven’t been writing at all, I have been online everyday listening to the Fake and Not So Fake News. Watching the Kavannaugh/Ford debacle was sad and I have a lot to say about that so this post will be a long one mixed with many subjects.
It’s a shame that with all the information and disinformation that a few very important issues were not brought up by ANYONE regarding Dr. Ford.
First, let me say that Politics doesn’t interest me in terms of discussing or writing about, unfortunately, I am forced to listen or watch during the News Hour; even though the Ford/Kavannaugh saga was all about politics, but a lot of the Media and those that took Dr. Ford’s side didn’t bring up the following issues, issues I think were just as relevant.
First let me start by saying that I am sharing my opinions with you and that doesn’t mean I’m right, but so far, I have not been wrong on anyone I have analyzed because of my uncanny ability to FEEL, even if it’s through the monitor, I can jump the time line effect and feel them. Remember, there is no such thing as past and future, all events happen in the moment.
Dr. Ford was never sexually abused. The experts who read and analyze body language, including myself will tell you that her body language was pure lies and acting a role of a feeble, weak, traumatized woman. She could never answer any questions without referring to her notes, which is enough proof that her role was practiced and memorized.
But, lets for a moment assume that Dr. Ford had experienced some form of trauma. As a Psychologist with a PhD; you would think that she would have healed herself after 35 years from the time of the event. How can a PhD Psychologist be a credible expert in working with clients/patients while she herself supposedly is ” still and currently” traumatized by an event that happened over 35 years ago? And if it’s not possible to heal someone with past trauma, why in hell do we spend years in University studying human behavior and getting a degree that can’t heal someone from a trauma and according to Dr. Ford, it wasn’t even sexual trauma. In other words, it wasn’t rape. It was someone putting a hand over your mouth and you thinking he would ” accidentally” kill you.
In her testimony before the Senate, she states:” He put his hand on my mouth and I was so afraid he might ACCIDENTALLY kill me”. Go back and listen to her testimony, yet NOBODY ever mentioned this very highly important message. How did she know he might accidentally kill her? This was a message to Kavannaugh. ” I’m sorry, you’re really a nice guy and would never hurt anyone, but you can’t win the nomination”.
The women defending Dr. Ford are not thinking about their partners, husbands, sons, brothers or any close males in their lives that could potentially be destroyed by a single accusation that can go back for years or decades. In fact, I hope that every woman that blindly defended Dr. Ford experiences everything B. Kavannaugh’s family just did.
Truth is, we don’t know the truth. We don’t know if Dr. Ford was traumatized, but the truth is that most of us did crazy things in high-school and college. Almost everyone, even the geeks did silly things during our teenage/puberty years. It was normal then, but today, no. Having a beer makes you  a serial rapist. Truth is that what was accepted as normal behavior 20 years ago, is not accepted today yet we demonize the past according to our current moral and social standards.
We don’t accept Slavery today, but why do we need to remove any Statues that were defined within different social and moral values? It was accepted then, it was a different age, a different mind set, a different culture. We can’t go back and erase it just because we don’t agree with it today. How stupid is that?
This ME TOO movement is nothing but an agenda to Emancipate men. As if women don’t have enough power today, we can now just accuse some male for assaulting us and ruin their lives without any proof because we are women and we should be believed. Really? Do you women actually realize how much power you have today? That you can manipulate your partner/husband and threaten them with calling the police if you don’t get your way? To say that women are not equals is true. We are extremely powerful and this power given to us is now causing more harm than good in society, well, in US Society. We don’t have those issues here in Europe. Although women consider themselves modern women, we still stand by our men and give them the ” male” power they deserve and as given to them biologically.
What is going on is the Terminal Madness I have been writing about for the last 3 years. Do a search on the blog and see for yourself if you didn’t start your journey with me together. There is plenty of information on Terminal Madness so, right now, we are in the ” eye of the storm” of this Terminal Madness.
This is not and never was about Politics. What political party or politician anywhere in the world works for the people? Politics, like religion both work towards stripping humanity of their dignity. Neither one allow humanity to think for itself.
If it’s not about Politics, what is it about then you may ask? I will answer the same way as I have since the inception of this blog.
We all chose to be here, in this reality, in many numerous lives/reincarnations to save this planet from imploding. To raise the vibrational reality, to take back control. In order to do this, we had to create the madness.
As I have written on numerous occasions, when we have the basics for life, we’re not motivated to change our circumstances. The Controllers of this reality are working very hard to keep us dumbed down, in the dark and keep us busy surviving. We can’t possibly fight the system so long as our lives are endurable, so we all; whether consciously or not, knowingly or not, create this madness in order to motivate us to fight. We’re not there yet, but this Terminal Madness is what we chose to experience, it’s all part of the plan as difficult as it is for us to accept this notion that we have created this and that includes the Politicians, the Deep State, Religion, every aspect of humanity is involved. There is no good or bad. There is only the ” experience” of freeing humanity from this Prison Planet.
Whatever you are doing now, is what you should be doing. Each one of us have a role to play, however insignificant you feel it is, it is what you came to do. Each one of us individually is but a drop of water, while together we create oceans, rivers, lakes and other forms of water bodies. There is no Ocean without the drops of water. It’s the drops mixed together that create the ocean and give it power to move, so as individuals joined together, we create the reality.
Dr. Ford was not traumatized, she chose to play that role because it’s not in the Interest of the Controllers that any Country experiences true Democracy – Demos – The People. Democracy is just another program such as Religion or other organizations that promote something for the betterment of humanity. As if we are stupid and ignorant and don’t know how to live our lives.
If you don’t believe me about Dr. Ford, do your research. Her entire past was scrubbed clean with more than likely ” Bleach Bit” before she set out to accuse the good man Kavannaugh.
If she was traumatized by someone, what the fuck is she doing, working as a Psychologist if she can’t heal 35 years of repressed or suppressed trauma after the so called event?
That insults me as a Psychologist, as someone who has lived through hell years of sexual abuse and trauma and to say that I’m still a victim and still traumatized?
The man that raped me at the time was 24 years old. I was 12 years old, but a very mature 12 year old who had a crush on an employee of my father’s business. It’s true that I wanted his attention, it’s true that I agreed to meet at my home with him when my parents were not home. It’s also true that I didn’t even think about sex, as a 12 year old, I just thought he might kiss me, that we would sit together, hold hands. You know the dreams we all have as young girl. Who thinks about having Sex at 12 in our current society? But it went beyond a kiss and I didn’t fight back, although it hurt a lot, I thought that must mean that he loves me. It’s the way my dysfunctional mind worked at the time, but that doesn’t make him innocent. He knew well what he was doing at 24.
Many years ago, I made a conscious choice. Also, it was the reason I studied Psychology, I was intrigued by my childhood and why people hurt the people they claim they love. But I made a conscious choice to keep it private from my children and people close to me years on later when the memories came back during an very stressful period in my life and I had experienced a complete nervous/mental breakdown. These memories resurfaced when I was 29 years old, 17 years later. In other words, I had no desire to report this man, my only focus was finishing my degree and getting better.
I always had a choice to come forward but I chose not to at the time for many reasons that I thought would serve me better. By this time I was also a single mother and many decisions had to be made based on what was best for me and my family. I did tell my mother when I turned 30, when I was well enough to talk to her about it, but she didn’t believe me and I thought: ” If my mother doesn’t believe, nobody else will either”.
Here are some reasons or logic to my decision:
1. 17 years had passed, this man married and had a family of his own. He made mistakes but we are all entitled to a 2nd chance, people change. Youth and the way we are raised all play a role in how men grow up.
2. I had a crush on him, he worked for my father, at the time I felt responsible for inviting him into my home when my parents were not present
3. Both of us acted irresponsibly, him more so than I as he was an adult and the act itself was Rape even though I didn’t say NO
4. 17 years later without any proof, it would be my word against him, my mother didn’t believe me
5. People change, they deserve another chance. Had I heard that he did it to someone else, I most likely would have spoken out
6. The outcome needed to be healing not revenge. I wanted to heal, to move forward, to forgive myself, to forgive him
7. Even if I was to come forward after so many years, it wouldn’t change anything in my life and would destroy his even if he was found not guilty.
I didn’t want revenge. I wanted to be a Good Psychologist, I wanted to heal and to use my experiences as an abused child to help others. My attitude at the time was that I needed to be well, so that I could raise my children. Revenge was the last thing on my mind. It was more important for me to heal and move forward, to forgive and I did that.
What would I accomplish now, coming forward after almost 50 years?  Is this what the ME TOO movement is about?
Most of the women who came forward had a choice just like me to speak out and report the abuse/allegations right away but most of them chose not to because their JOBS or CAREERS were at stake.
We don’t have to come forward if we choose not to. But if we chose to stay silent, then we should think about the damage we may cause 10, 20, 30 or more years later.
This is not so much about revenge as it is about healing. I’m not talking about Serial Rapists or men who rape using violence. I’m talking about men with power, I’m talking about all the women that came forward decades later that didn’t use the word ” rape” or ” violence” rather used ” inappropriate sexual behavior“.
If Bill Cosby’s women came forward right away, perhaps he wouldn’t have made a career of using women as sex toys, despite over 50 women coming forward, I don’t recall any of them using words such as ” rape” or ” violence”. He wasn’t accused of raping any women, he used his power to intimidate them into having sex with him. He didn’t force them at gunpoint, he threatened their careers and these women chose their Careers over their own dignity.
Weinstein and Cosby are angry. They know just like I do that their women chose their careers and consented to the sex albeit not willingly or desiring it, but they always had a choice.
I don’t have an issue with coming forward, I have an issue coming forward after decades to accuse someone of inappropriate behavior that we consider to be today, yet 30 years ago, we accepted being slapped on the ass, we took it as compliment. Any woman that says otherwise is more than likely a Feminist. It is how it was. Things were different in my youth. Men whistled at me when I walked by. Men did little gestures in a nightclub to get my attention. It was almost a cult in the 70’s to have a one night stand, we didn’t have the violence and rape we have today. So to say that something that was accepted 30 years ago is now not accepted is just crazy.
So, Dr. Ford, supposedly a very good Psychologist with a PhD sat in front of the Committee acting out this terrified and traumatized victim of an event that she could not remember much about but was SURE 100% that her assailant was now Supreme Court Justice Kavannaugh. She’s a fucking Psychologist for Christ’s Sake and she couldn’t help herself; yet she teaches Self Hypnosis? Give me a break, only in America can something like this be believed and accepted as truth.
I don’t mean to pick on Americans, but most of them have to be under the influence of some psychotic substance or some kind of mind control through cell towers or frequencies. I’m not saying everyone is Psychotic either; but guys, do you have any idea how “Dumb” and ” brainwashed”  you sound, believing or even considering that Dr. Ford is the victim here? You’re all victims of some mind control, it’s like you’re in a different reality.
Perhaps, I’m in a different reality. I often feel that way. I feel that I am no longer part of this insane madness. My world is not this world. Nothing in this reality makes any sense whatsoever.
Oh my beautiful human race, have you no idea how powerful you are and how they fear you? Stand up and take control. For starters, get rid of your cellphones, they are your mind control mechanisms, they are using the phones to zap you with frequencies to make you angry, violent and aggressive. I am sad for you, I feel like an entire nation is dying off and is about to self destruct. Could this be a replay of Atlantis again? Remember, you always have a choice. You are here to do the work, you and I created this reality, don’t blame anyone else.
As I write often, this has to happen. Didn’t I tell you that it would get worse? Oh boy, we’re not even half way there and I”m still feeling what I wrote 2 years ago. I fear that the US will be attacked by a foreign entity/nation. What Trump is now doing is taking humanity to the brink. There is nothing wrong with America first, but there is everything wrong with ” nobody else can be first”. We are treading in dangerous waters but hey, we all chose this movie to play and act out. It will be interesting what the screenplay says for next year.
No no, no Ascension, no Lords, no Saviors, no Aliens or Blue Avians. Simon Parkes just thanked his followers for donations because he was sick and actually said how great it was to eat ” Organic chocolate”. Can you imagine that? Not only does he live on donations from his cult followers, but he gets to enjoy ” Organic Chocolate”. What a fucking loser and what fucking idiots to believe anything this guy has to say. No, there is no KNOWN future to predict. We do that as we go along. I wrote and have been writing from day one of this blog that there is no Savior, that we are our own Saviors. The Simon Parkes and all the other GURU’s have come and gone, still keep spewing shit to the dumbed down followers because their egos are so big they actually think they are special and that a Savior will come and save us all.
No, no my dear readers. YOU are the Light. YOU SOUL have chosen this reality, YOU old Soul are more powerful than you know.
We keep seeking truth externally. The truth lies within this body, at the core of SELF is SOUL. The SOUL knows why it’s here in this body, the entire play is written, but we have been programmed to look outwardly, therefore, the end result is now this Terminal Madness. As always, I will continue to share, it may not be often and my topics will now vary, whatever it is that I am feeling for the day.
Be strong, be faithful to yourself, seek truth internally, the external world is merely a projection of your thoughts. And if you choose to give up your cellphones, read up on some Seth Speaks. Seth quite eloquently describes humans and how our reality is created. I like to listen on YT so I’m not stuck sitting down.
Much love!

Taking a Pause

My partner passed away on July 18th and I have been making a lot of changes in my life. It took me a while to release all the anger I was feeling. Sadly, my partner’s health was improving but they sent him home from his annual checkup with a clot in his leg and 3 days later, it killed him.

I love sharing my thoughts and experiences with you, but there are so many changes happening in my reality that I’m not prepared to continue for a while. I need to make those changes and adjustments that are important. When someone you love is gone, everything changes, including the path we’re on.

For those that have just arrived, please go through the blog and take what you can and for those that wait a while to be approved, please don’t be offended, I will get to it when I can.

I hope you’re all enjoying the Puppet Show going on in our reality, we’re close to collapse so this is all part of the game we have to play out. Be safe and be with love.

In A Mud Hut

What is the ideal culture or way of life? What would you choose if you had to? I have read bits and pieces of Agenda 21 but not in great detail. I basically listen others speak about it, but I have a  simple understanding of it. It’s not on my list of curiosities because I can’t do anything to change it.

The Plan is to create a One World Government, One World Police, One World Religion, blah, blah and melt us all together. Can it work? Is this a good thing or bad thing? Fighting against it could lead to more wars as we are doing now, imposing our democracies on nations that have lived by tribal laws for thousands of years. To join and unite might be possible if everyone agrees that this would be good for everyone which means we all have to shed our clothes, sterilize our bodies and start with everything new. It won’t and can’t work because most people associate themselves by the country they live in or are born in. You may be an American because you were born in America, but your ancestors came from different parts of the world.

This identity is important to our modern culture today, we identify by this culture and way of life, culture is deeply ingrained in old continents and countries such as Africa, India, Asia and Europe, parts of the Russian Federation, South America etc., while the newly developed cultures in the past few hundred years founded in Canada, US, Australia are based on laws of that land. We brought our cultures to our new land and it was melted into the existing culture though I don’t see how that is possible because we first killed the Indigenous people and then formed cultures accordingly. This is a social issues that I’m not well versed in, but you get my point.

Here is an example: For thousands of years in India, Africa and other parts of tribal regions and countries, girls were prepared and taught that when they got their first menstrual period; they are considered women and can be married off. Biologically speaking, yes, they are mature to give birth to children. They may  not be mentally mature, but from what I understand, they are groomed and prepared for every aspect of their marriage including sex. In India girls are groomed at an early age how to please their future husbands, so they may not all be immature, it’s just a way of life.

In the West or modern societies, we use legal age to determine the maturity of a person, in most countries, 18 is considered legal age where a girl can marry without her parent’s permission and if any man touched her with or without her consent, he can be charged with a crime. I have read of many instances where one partner was not of age, the other was and parents sued the adult for raping and in many cases were won. The point is, our laws determine when and if someone can get married or have children. An 18 year old girl in a modern society is more likely to be less mature than an 18 year old woman in India because she started having children at a very young age and has enough experience already to grow and mature into a mature woman.

The Middle East culture is ancient therefore almost impossible to impose laws that the West forces upon it through occupations and removal of their dictators. Most of us in Modern Society would risk our lives to save our girls from having sex with someone at the age of 12 because we are law abiding citizens and if the law says a girl can’t have sex until she’s an adult, then we can’t fathom otherwise. It’s the modern society mentality.

Which culture is the right one? What would you choose if you could change it? I tend to think like this. If I raised my daughter to be a responsible adult, taught her all the things we don’t teach our kids anymore, provided I groomed her towards marriage as being the biological process all girls go through, I think it should be me to make that decision if she’s ready or not. If my daughter got her period at the age of 13, which she did and she was groomed into understanding everything about her body and what happens during and after intercourse and it was her desire to marry, I would support that.

My daughter was married at the age of 18. She was very mature. As a single mother, I was forced to teach my kids responsibility at a young age. While in elementary school, they had a list of chores on the fridge that they CHOSE to do if they so wished. In return, they would get paid at the end of the month. This taught them responsibility, it taught them to ask me if I had enough money for a pair of Nike sneakers because they understood the value of money. My daughter started working at the age of 13 with her grandmother, cleaning offices on the weekends and has never been unemployed since. She had her own money, while living at home, she contributed to the household, I didn’t ask her, she learned that by hard work and appreciating how much money it costs to live.

I didn’t approve of her marriage, she eloped with her boyfriend because she knew I would not approve it, but it wasn’t because she wasn’t ready. It was because her boyfriend was 7 years older than her, he was a Bible Thumper, Christian fanatic and I raised my daughter in the Buddhism philosoophy. I was afraid he would strongly influence her beliefs and I was right. The marriage lasted 10 years and she ran as fast as she could because he used the bible to control her. Luckily, they parted on good terms, but the point is, I didn’t worry about her maturity.

In my youth, it was normal to graduate from High-school and get married if we didn’t choose to go to College or University. Most of my girlfriends from High-school got married right away, I waited a bit longer and married at the age of 21, but only because I was pregnant and my parents forced me through guilt trips about shaming the family etc. That’s how immigrants from Europe brought their culture to the modern society. Upon starting our menstrual cycles, we have on average a 10 year peak fertility period, after that, it starts dropping very quickly so that by the time we reach 40, we have a 10% chance of getting pregnant.

What’s wrong with choosing the husband for your daughter? Of course, my first response is, no, we should marry out of love. In our Western Modern Society, people marry because they fell in love, but let me remind you that our divorce rates are now at the 50% mark. So much for LOVE. What is love? Just because you love someone doesn’t mean you can marry them or live with them. Love doesn’t solve problems and often we make the wrong decisions because we believe that Love can solve everything. It can’t. We can love but we simply can’t get alone. I can’t force my husband to pick up his socks if he likes to leave them on the floor. What does love have to do with that? If I can’t deal with his dirty socks on the floor, what good is love then? It’s a myth. Love doesn’t solve all problems. Love isn’t and shouldn’t be the prime criteria for choosing a partner, but let’s not get too deep into this subject, it’s not about love today. You get my point.

In these arranged marriages, the girl may not love her future husband, but her parents found a suitable man, her marriage will last much longer than in modern societies, she will have many children if she is able to and money is Never a part of this equation. Why? Because poverty exists everywhere. Poor people marry in Canada, marry in the US, poverty doesn’t choose love and love doesn’t choose poverty.  In India, it is part of their culture, it’s how it’s always been, it’s accepted though the West has influenced that now and there are movements to stop this. Just because they don’t like it, doesn’t mean they have to stop this. People should choose their own destinies and we should leave foreign cultures alone!

Typically, in these underdeveloped countries, poor families can only find a poor husband for their daughters unless she falls in love with a higher caste and elopes otherwise they will kill both, but the poor marry into poor, middle class marry into middle class, etc.

You may say: “It’s not fair, she should choose her husband out of love. She will be miserable, etc.” Here we go again. This answer at first glance may sound logical, because we in Modern Society have over aggrandized Love as a criteria for marriage.

There is no such phenomena of this criteria in ancient times and pre biblical cultures. Not to say people didn’t fall in love and marry, but love wasn’t the criteria. In those days, there was no such thing as marriage. One took the other, made a vow or whatever and were considered married. Today, we need a piece of paper to be married, but not then, it was simply a formality. Men in the bible mostly chose genetics, women that would bare them children. You didn’t hear about women rejecting men because they didn’t love him. They knew their biological role was to give birth to children, take care of the household and provide meals for their men that toiled all day long. In fact, in biblical times, men could have as many wives as they wanted so long as they could take care of them all.

This still goes on in different cultures and religions. One wife will carry the water all day long for the household, the other will work in the fields, one will work in the kitchen, the other tend to the children and they all got along, there was no jealousy, there were ranks, first come and first serve, it was all accepted because it was a way of life then.

So, not being in love with your future husband is something we in the Modern Societies consider to be cruel or disrespectful to the woman’s needs and rights, but if you look at both sides, arranged marriages last longer and women eventually either accept the marriage and many grow to love their husbands – rich or poor, it doesn’t matter.

In a populous country such as India where there are 5 women to every man, parents starts looking very early on to ensure their daughter gets a husband. There is huge competition and because of this competition, parents really work hard on presenting the best to potential husbands. There is nothing wrong with this and what makes us think that our way is better?

Look at our modern societies, we have single parent families, kids that see one parent on weekends, 50% divorce rate, parents using kids as paws in divorces, women waiting too long to have kids so less children are being born and immigrant populations growing where the first generations will soon if not already become minorities. Maybe this is all part of the Agenda 21 as well.

How does that make our modern system better? We are now down to 1.2 children per family, while immigrants and those in underdeveloped countries are at 4.5 children per family.

To go by Agenda 21 is not an impossible task, they’re doing a really good job in this project. I think I read or heard their plan is to remove 2/3 of the population; it will be those countries that won’t convert into “modern” societies and accept democracy as their way of life. They have been sterilizing African women for 20 years, thanks now to Bill Gates, he’s sped that up by offering free Vaccines and Malaria medicines.

They don’t want 12 year old girls to start families, they want women to work hard until their peak fertility stage is finished and if they are lucky, might be able to have one child or one not normal child. They don’t want welfare mothers, so the parasites and Cannon Fodder will be eliminated.

Look, I don’t agree that a girl should be married off as soon as she gets her period, but that’s because I have been programmed into Western Modern Society rules; but, if that’s their culture and they are fine with it, who are we to judge or criticize their way of life?
Look at what we have accomplished with our ways. Welfare, single parents, 50% divorce rate, 144 suicides daily, children being used in divorce, children living together with different fathers, gay men raising children to be gender neutral. We’re losing our male/female identities, yet we think our system is better? Really? Do you really believe that?

The only reason the under developed countries are still in that condition is because the large corporations have come, stolen their resources, destroyed their natural lands and given nothing back other than sending them GMO Corn, rice and flour to further kill and sterilize them.

Why do we feel that people who live in mud huts without electricity or running water are deprived? Because we have flushing toilets with seat warmers so our fat asses don’t get cold while sitting in a warm bathroom? I can tell you who would survive in a Pole Shift and it surely will not be those of us living in modern societies. Those living in mud huts would survive because they know how to live with nature and how to use it to survive daily. Meanwhile, a city that goes without water for a few days is already suffering from bacteria outbreaks and disease, riots and a dangerous place to be if you get caught in it. That’s just water folks. Our immune systems are weakened because we have overly sterilized our environments, while they are exposed to all bacteria nature provides and have strong immune systems. We are taught to believe that just because they are skinny that they are not fed well. That’s bullshit. Most are lean and mean machines that are very healthy but without the cellulite and pot bellies like our modern societies from eating too much.

If a pole shift happened or some major global event, those people living in their mud huts would just build a new one over night and their mud huts are energy efficient, let me tell you. The new Earthships being build around the world using mud and automobile tires are so energy efficient, so are mud huts. So, 2/3 would be gone and I’m talking about us, the modern society, while the 1/3 would be them that would survive. Moringa trees are used as super foods, but their seeds also serve as water purifiers. Nature provides us with everything we need and they know how to use it for their everyday lives.

We have been lied to about Modern living and technology. We don’t live any longer than they do and our system is messed up because nothing we consume is natural or alive. Some people in these impoverished nations may not be able to afford meat, but at least they still have some land around them or forests where they can forage for food.

Living in tune with nature means going out every day and harvesting what you need for that day. They may not have refrigerators to store tons of toxic foods like we do, but most of them don’t need prescription drugs and their way of life is the true way of life, yet we have demonized these nations because their people still walk barefooted and don’t have the modern amenities that we do.

So, I asked myself: What advantages do I have over a family that lives in a mud hut (energy efficient, no heating costs) without electricity?

I can’t think of one. Technology maybe speeds up cleaning or cooking or getting around, but it also breaks down, has to be repaired or replaced and costs money each time. Electricity or energy costs money and before we got it, we arose at dawn and went to sleep at sundown. We’re slaves to energy corporations, frequencies are killing our brain cells while we sleep. I don’t need a flushing toilet, I can just go out to my septic tank, open the lid and do my thing. Put a tarp over it for rain and in the old days when there was no electricity here, we just took a pail with us to our room and used it later to fertilize our gardens.

I eat organic vegetables from my garden but I’m also forced to buy dry goods that have traveled thousands of miles, only to be warehoused for who knows how long before I consume it.

What advantages do I have? The modern life that we are forced to live in provides me nothing because I have to pay taxes on my home. A home as you know costs to maintain, repair and replace. I have space that looks nice but never use it, I have to pay for all these things but are also a necessity for most because if they work all day, they don’t have time or the energy to collect wood, start the fire, prepare the food or forage for it, get the water from the well for cooking and later bathing before going to sleep before sundown.

Been there, done that. I’m now considering selling this huge house that costs me a fortune every month for a tiny house with land so I can be even more self sufficient and control what I eat. I might even get a goat for milk, some chickens for eggs, but I want to be in control of as much as possible. We’re just pawns for the corporations to make them wealthier and more powerful who in turn pay politicians to get favorable laws and regulations. I feel sad for kids born from the year 2000 on, they have a 70% chance of getting getting cancers with the now new G5 and G6 mobile phones and by the time we get out of our denial and our governments that care so much for our well being tell us this, 3 generations will be destroyed from technology alone.

We don’t have any advantages living in a modern society because most of us dies from technology, prescription drugs, radiation, irradiated food, GMO food, toxins in our environment and bacteria we have no resistance to.

I would live in a mud hut without electricity any time and any day but I have to move to that country that allows it, to underdeveloped countries because I’m not allowed to build that on my land, yeah, my land, forced to live their way and by their rules and regulations.

How is that at advantage and how dare I judge a 12 year old girl, groomed for marriage, prepared for her biological role as a mother, nurturer and wife while our generations run home to mom after their first marital argument?

We have no right to judge others, but, it’s really those that judge that are guilty of the very thing they accuse others of.

We’re not just modern, we’re hypocrites! I will take that mud hut anytime and forage for my daily bread, but I’m enslaved in this bullshit system and nobody gives a rats ass about you, yet you’re all still quiet.

I watch Fox News regularly, what can I say, it seems that no matter what you say or do, you’re either a republican or democrat; everything is politicized, people are sensitive to everything, nobody respects different views, I see it all falling apart very soon, just as I predicted it would 2 years ago. I’m sure glad I’m here in Croatia, but it’s no longer an underdeveloped country so I can’t build my mud hut here.