Something changed in me on October 7th. Whether it was a coincidence or not, not a day goes by that I don’t ask the same questions. Let’s start with tonight. I decided to eat leftovers from yesterday. I made a potato salad and breaded some bull testicles. You heard me right. A few years ago as I was in a butcher shop for the first time, I saw these football shaped mounds in a bowl and I asked the butcher what they were. I love experimenting and trying new things so given they were so cheap, I thought what the heck, I don’t have a lot to lose. He showed me how to prepare them and gave me a few options on how to cook them. The next day, I cut them up in strips and breaded them, fried them up and served them to my daughter with a salad. I didn’t say anything because it’s known that if you tell someone something they might consider to be disgusting, they would turn away from it. After she finished, (she eats fast), she looks at me and says: “Mom, that was the best chicken strips I ever had, so soft and tender”. Then I laughed and told her what it actually was.

So, I ate leftover bull testicles and potato salad but could not eat very much. I was hungry before loading my plate and when I looked down at my plate with the mound of salad and pieces of testicle, I felt nausea in my stomach and I felt guilty that I could not eat all this awesome food while Palestinian children are living in tents, sleeping on the floor and have nothing to eat. These are the lucky ones, their bodies are intact, they did not get hit directly, but the point is that I have not stopped thinking about the events in Palestine and the suffering.

Every once in a while during the day I will click on RT News or Al Jazeera in hopes to hear that there may be a ceasefire, and of course they are very graphic in the aftermath of a bomb dropping and I have to stop looking at this.

Why is it that I watch my full plate of food and can’t eat it, while fathers are carrying their severely mutilated child to the hospital while in shock himself and has not yet had time to even absorb what is really going on.

Why am I writing this? Since October 7th there has been a struggle within me. The Human I am in this body is angry, frustrated, sad, doesn’t understand why I live in a beautiful home, have plenty to eat and have never experienced war while the Soul that I AM knows that it had to be this way, that we all had a role in this reality, that in order to wake up more of humanity, this had to happen so they can see the EVIL that it’s on it’s last legs.

I struggle with this everyday. Every activity I engage in questions what a Palestinian mother would be doing right now, when I’m out walking and seeing our children riding their bikes and scooter, I think about what a Palestinian child is living through. Every time I open the fridge to decide what I want to eat, leads me to think about children across the planet, 40 million refugees that lost their homes in wars and are scattered around the planet and in refugee camps. This is my struggle between the Human EGO and Soul that knows. Part of me wants to pretend that the war is out of reach, not my problem, that we have never had a time in our recorded history where we have had Peace. Then SOUL listens carefully and shines this energy of love throughout me, comforting the human EGO for caring. It is really difficult to define this struggle that I go through each day.

I know we live in a construct, I know this reality is an illusion. I know that we are creators and don’t know that. Problem is we unknowingly create good and bad. We create whatever our thoughts focus on and that is a power we should be afraid of because 95% of humanity has no idea they are creating through thoughts. Everyday that I am awake, from the first moment upon awakening, I have to remind myself of thought that might harm me or lead me to create something I don’t want. And then it came to me.

Right after my partner passed away, I keep a Journal since I was 10 yrs old, it is a way of dealing with my daily life, sharing on paper my joys and disappointments, make big decisions and then once I’m done with the page, I throw it out. For months I wrote about my partners kids, I wrote about how they were going to make my life miserable, how they were going to try and take away my home from me. Our culture here is such that parents leave everything to their children, even if they themselves have to go hungry to give to them, even if they don’t deserve it, they spend most of their lives saving and putting away to ensure their children have their estate. In my village of 400 people, the stone homes now hold 5 or 6th generation of families. The stone house next me, albeit abandoned, is 300 yrs old. Our ownership rate is 80% and 20% rental. You are considered poor or lower class if you do not own a home. Renting is a very negative thing. So, here I am focused on what these two people are going to do to me, and they did everything I thought. You see, whether I want to believe it or not, that is all I thought about for 4 months waiting for the Estate Hearing. I manifested my greatest fear. My partner left me our joint property, we built the house together and we created a contract as our lawyer said it would be better than leaving a will because they can contest the will. Despite this, they found a loophole and accused me causing injury which could null and void the contract. Point is, I own 1/2 of the joint property and my partner was trying to protect me because he knew his children wanted me on the street. They blamed me for their father divorcing their mother, whatever, but that was the situation at the time.

At the Estate hearing I was hit with a private lawsuit, accusing me of being responsible for my partner’s death, a Criminal Complaint for Quackery and Drug Trafficking. They offered to rescind the criminal complaint if I give them the house. I created this and it took me 5 years to finally realize this and answer my own question: “Why is this happening to me?” There is no other answer to this other than I created this reality. You know, I feel better now, knowing that I am responsible for what happened, that I can’t blame anyone for this. But, two good things came out of this. My home is worth twice as much as it was 5 years ago and I now have irrefutable proof from the Criminal Investigation that my partner’s kids didn’t do a damn thing to help their father in the last 4 years of his life. Irrefutable evidence from doctor’s testimonies that I actually prolonged my partner’s life with Cannabis Oil.

The plan was and still is to sell it, get myself some land with a few mobile homes and buy a Campervan. I want to do some hobbies such as Metal Detecting and Photography, Magnet fishing, hiking etc. To be totally free is all I want to be. To not have to pay these corporations for energy usage, to reduce the footprint I live on, a huge 5000 sq ft home but only use a small section of it. It was my partner’s dream along with me to build a home that we could later sell and make a profit from so until the Lawsuit is done, I can’t do anything. Here in Croatia, you can put a “mark” on the Title that says there is a pending Lawsuit. This was done to keep me from selling my home because nobody is going to buy a home with a lawsuit pending. Soon that will be removed and I can start looking at land and that is all I think about. The island I live on is 19 km long and 2.5 km wide, very small, no matter where I choose to live I will be close to the ocean.

I lost my appetite tonight, as an Intuitive Soul I know it had to be this way, I know we chose our roles in this game, I know that Israel is the centre of all evil, the Khazarian Mafia headquarters and that that is where the final battle is taking place. Despite knowing this as a Soul, I can’t stop being sad as a Human Being. What have we become? How is it that we have advanced in a short time technology wise, but have not moved one inch as a civilization? Because The System is designed that way, to keep us in a prison, to usurp our minds so that we create their reality. But when you struggle with being a Human and a Soul all in one, only a Human questions why these things happen. It’s a struggle and I think that is part of the Transformation process when both EGO and SOUL become one, in love, peace and eternity.

What is Q and what purpose does it have?

I have a daily routine in getting my information, part of that routine is to watch Al Jazeera and RT News and a few “patriots” during the day, but when I go to sleep, I sit up and read off my phone Telegram and read the following channels: Captkyle Patriots, Sovereign Redneck, Praying Medic, D and Frenz, Q The Storm Rider, Tarot by Janine, Project Camelot, SGAnon. Every couple of days I may join a channel or leave, there are a few more that are about to be removed as I found they were not who they claimed to be or they peddled this Christian “god is in control” theory.

Most of these folks either follow or believe in the Q movement and are known as Anons. I have not fully bought into this although I do often contemplate about who this Q movement is. I know what is being told to the public, that they are a group of people with Q clearances, and that this movement was started either during or after JFK’s assassination and that his son JFK Jr is alive, never died in that plane crash. That this movement was set up to annihilate the Deep State/Cabal. I refer to them as the Controllers.

This is briefly what Q followers and decoders are told. My question has been and still is, how does Q know what will happen in the future? We are told that perhaps it could be through Project Looking Glass. Sure, it’s possible even though I have never seen how this looking glass works, but there are psychics out there, there is Remote Viewing, there are people who can access the Akashic Records, so there is not just one way to look into the future. What they are not telling you is that there is no such thing as future or past. Everything exists at the same moment, it is merely a different frequency. You can be sitting in your home right now, tuning the radio to a station. Even though you have found the station you want to listen to, the other stations are all streaming as well, so this is how our reality works. And I know this because I leave my body during sleep and observe/engage in my other realities.

I believe based on listening to the patriots, or truthers or Anon folks that Q is just another psychological operation because if you’re not confused by now as to who is good and who is a traitor, who is a white hat and who is a black hat, then I take my hat off to you. Some will say that it is necessary to fool the enemy. Ok, if confusion is created on purpose, how do we know how what to do?Are we to depend on these Decoders that get it wrong all the time? Some say we need to have a revolution or Civil War, some say we need to just sit back and let God do his work such as Captkyle often says. He and his Telegram warriors constantly post about how GOD IS IN CONTROL, don’t worry, God has this. What message does this send? Well, I would take it as I don’t need to do anything or worry about anything because God will take care of me. Really? Why isn’t God taking care of the Palestinians right now?

That is the same as a Palestinian just losing his home and a few children but screams: “Allah is great”. How is Allah so great if he allows such tragedy into your life? Where is the greatness of this god? If he were great, he would never let this happen to you.

I often get clients who after their treatment will say “If God allows it”; this is the response I get when I tell them that they are fine now and to go home. I’m sure it’s an automatic response, they don’t think about what they are saying. Sometimes, with a client that comes on a regular basis, I will sit and talk to them and ask them why they say that. Explain to them that they are actually saying that they have no control over their lives and that God will decide if they will get better or not. Often, I get a positive response because they don’t think about these silly clichés taught going generations back. It’s often the religious ones that speak that way, not realizing they are giving their power to another entity. It doesn’t have to be god, but God/Creator set us up to be powerful creators, our thoughts create our reality, and if 1/2 of the truthers are out there are pushing this agenda, I have to question their motives because they ARE truthers so one would think they would seek the truth about religion and who god is don’t you think?

I highly recommend to watch this video, it will clarify a lot of the religious aspects of how they were set up for us to believe in. I have been listening to Jason for years now and I feel he is 100% honest, everything is researched, he was in prison for over 20+ years and that’s how he started to research. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0TwMQLZYVw

Who is Gene Decode?

Beware of PAYtriots

If you search the blog, you will find a few more posts mentioning Gene Decode. The post above was written October 25th, 2022.  I have always felt that something wasn’t right with this person. So far, and I’m not the greatest researcher as I base my opinion on intuitive feelings and energy readings, I have not been able to find anything negative or anyone questioning Gene Decode. I have a lot to say about this after listening to him for a few years and the people he hangs out with as a guest on their channels/shows.

The first thing that I always feel is secrecy, the need to hide one’s identity. I have written about this before. I don’t buy the reason that one wants to protect their family or their identity because there are true Patriots and real truth seekers who are putting their lives on the line to share truth and expose evil. I simply don’t buy that. Who is really Gene Decode? What is his real name? How do we know he’s a 20 year military veteran? Has anyone ever seen him in person? Please let me know because I have not found that anyone can vouch for his real identity.

Look, I can’t accept any information about someone I know nothing about, don’t see and can’t verify. This individual is a walking computer. He can talk about any subject, quantum physics, astronomy, Nano technology, you name it he does not pause when explaining these subjects. He does not think or pause, it just flows out and then he will throw in some southern accents or “ya know” slang language, but when it comes to explaining whatever topic he is asked, he does not flinch or think about it. There is no fucking way that a person at his age, assuming he’s truthful about his background that could put him at the age of 55 to 60 years old can learn and remember that much information in one lifetime. I’m sorry, Albert Einstein may have been a genius but he knew nothing about tree roots, he was a genius in his area of expertise. It is now questionable about who he was too because the theory of relativity has been debunked. Everything we thought was true is a lie.

My biggest problem with this person and any individual that uses “the one and only begotten son” is either ignorant or is purposely misleading people. I am a daughter, you are a son, we are all sons and daughters of the Creator. In the bible Jesus never said he was the only son or that he was better; in fact he said that what he could do, we would do better. I don’t see anywhere that Jesus himself recognized himself as the ONLY begotten son. It’s been debunked long ago that the story of crucifixion is fake, many books from the bible have been hidden in the Vatican, there is very little about Jesus in this Bible so an intelligence such as Gene to accept this is questionable as to what his true motives are.

We were not designed to incarnate here and serve a GOD, we incarnated here because our Creator gave us free will as SOULS to experience all that is, to learn, discover and reconnect with Source. We as Souls have a purpose, and we are LIGHT BEINGS, a mirror of Creator and our journey here is to discover who we are. Remember that, Creator created Souls who then took it upon themselves to have a human experience and enter a human vessel, so FREE WILL is the will of Souls that we were given to explore and experience. We are here now because we are the ancient Souls with the most experience and we are here to take our planet that was originally designed as the “living planet” and eventually taken over and destroyed. We are here to take back our power that was taken from us here on Earth or we can look at another perspective that we live in a simulated world. I love listening to Jason Breshers or archaix.com; this man has incredible evidence through ancient books about our history and it is worth your time to listen to.

A footer from Genedecode.org: “ _{Any rents, tears, holes, or missing areas of any kind in any of what I am is to be filled by the indwelling of the light of the Holy Spirit, the word of the one true God of all creation and the healing and compassion of His only begotten son Jesus Christ. As it is said it is now done and sealed in the authority of the one true God of all creation the living God of all love, light, Creations and compassion and his only begotten son, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit.}“

The Bible was written by over 50 scribes. There are so many definitions and explanations over this book. We know today that the God mentioned in Genesis was the Elohim or the two Annunaki brothers, they ruled humanity, they did not give humans the free will. “Let US make man in our image”. These gods demanded loyalty, defined commandments that we were to abide by, they punished those that didn’t agree with them and I don’t know how anyone can say that they were loving gods. Just the story of Moses alone was written 800 years after his death. Excuse me? Who can pass down and remember something that happened 800 years ago? Moses went up to the light/fire which was a spaceship and he was given instructions on how to serve these beings. Jason at archaix.com claims that they were actually called the Annuna; and came from other parts of this planet, the ice wall is a border and on the outside of that wall are many continents, far more advanced civilizations that came here to our continent. It would make sense, if we are a prison planet then nobody can get in right?

This is where SERVICE to God comes from, the bible. Let me go one step further. The Bible was designed to create a reality they wanted us to believe. To this day the “gurus” keep referring to the bible about events that might take place or what the future will hold. This is to generate or create the reality those evil gods wanted us to create for them. A perfect example is now the focus on “Revelation”, if you keep talking about it, insist on relating those events to the ones we want to believe will happen, we will create that reality. Fortunately, humanity is waking up faster than they thought and so we will not create another Revelation event but you get my drift. We have been programmed over thousands of years to hold certain beliefs so that we can create their reality. I have written about this in past years, the creators of this human vessel know how it works as they have worked on these body suits for millions of years and have perfected it for them. We don’t have a clue who we really are, but the Soul knows and the Soul is trying to communicate with your human brain and struggle with the Ego, it’s all by design.

These gods, knew humans better than we do today, they created new versions of our body suits, genetically modified us over time so that we are no longer the beings we were intended to be, so they knew how to manipulate our minds, knew our weaknesses and strengths. Knew how to mobilize us to create their realities and that is still happening today.

Here is an example: I keep reading that we are to expect another pandemic. Bill Gates is one of the people that is putting this out there. The only way a pandemic can happen is if we buy into it, believe it, focus our energy on that and we would create the Pandemic they want.

Gene or whatever his real name is is a highly intellectual genius, to be such genius mind and to spread this bullshit about Religion and the lies and made up stories in the Bible has an agenda and it’s not a good one. Why is he misleading people? I can’t verify his information is correct. I’m just a Psychologist and it would take years to study and learn Astronomy alone, never mind everything this person knows. I would even goes as far to say he’s a clone.

For someone that is so highly intelligent, one would think they knew that we are light beings, and therefore, I have good reason to doubt his integrity simply because he’s managed to fool a lot of people by impressing them with his knowledge but I don’t see anyone questioning him or checking out his background. Google AI is involved in this because there is nothing out there on this individual, nothing. And the tags of the google search seem to openly show that it doesn’t matter who he is because he’s got 30+ years of research behind him. It does matter, because blind faith is toxic and can be dangerous.

My journey started in 1990, how many years is that? 33 years? So, by that logic, it doesn’t matter who I am because I have 30+ years of research behind me and I have exposed a lot of fakes and fake gurus over the years. I don’t do that anymore because that timeline is done with, this is now our time to focus on ourselves, to absorb the energies coming from the sun, to disassociate from negative people, from negative events, from negative thoughts, to clear our hearts from anything that can impede our transformation.

Gene Decode is impressing people with his knowledge but his intentions are questionable. Do you know that years ago he had to qualify you if you wanted some healing recipes? He gives out medical advise and gets away with it. I filled out the form and disagreed with the only begotten son and I was rejected to receive this health information. It is there that I started to think about what this person is doing. To judge me for my religious beliefs yet teach others to forgive and to serve others? This form contained many questions and asked if I believed in the only begotten son. Of course I said no and that my beliefs are private and should not have anything to do with health. So, only people with his religious beliefs were given the information. Was he collecting names? If he is a servant of god, is it not his job to service everyone, that’s what his footer on his website reads.

This guy is not who he says he is. Now whether he is a good guy, or bad guy with good or bad intentions, I can’t say. I can tell you what I feel: He is a psychological operation, focusing you on this One and Only god and his one and only begotten son so that you hold false beliefs and when it’s time for us to raise our frequencies and transform back to our original forms, you will be so shocked that it will impede you, you will miss the boat and stay in 3D until you have learned your lessons. In other words he’s giving you valid and important information but he’s also giving you fake information so that you believe in this one god and fail the “ascension” timeline portal. Now, this is what I feel, it doesn’t mean I’m right and if any of you have better information, please share.

Don’t forget, you are light beings, you are powerful beings, don’t be distracted by humans that feel they know more than you do. Many of the truthers out there and so called Paytriots are out for the money or to mislead you. They are wolves disguised in sheep’s clothing. The best place to get information is within. Soul knows everything, there is no death, time is a construct, soon all will be how it was intended to be. I predicted how things would go and that it would get really ugly, we are now in the final throws, desperate throws of the Evil ones fighting their last battles and like a cornered beast, they will do whatever they can to take as many with them as possible.

Our brothers and sisters in Palestine are now completing their roles and we thank all with love for choosing the roles they did because most of them won’t know this until they leave their bodies, in such a culture and religion; even if they knew, they could not talk about it, so as ugly as it seems right now, it had to be this way, the world was not waking up as fast as the timelines and portal needs to be activated. Know that everything is going as planned and NO the Q and white hats have nothing to do with it, if we are to continually believe that we need saviours, nothing would happen, it is WE the Souls, the Beings of Light that will transpire into peace and love. They can take credit all they want but I believe that the Q movement is another mind control program because when people use the movement to make a shitload of money, it loses it’s credibility and power to manifest. Just my 2 cents worth, just thoughts for you to think about. In the end, nobody knows the real date, real time or exactly how we will become the original Beings of Light, the less the enemy knows the better.

Love you all.

We Are The Ones We Have Been Waiting For

Firstly, I apologize to those that left comments and I did not approve or respond. I lost interest in WordPress and there was so much going on in my personal life that it simply was not a priority. Without even looking/reading at any comments in the last year, I do have something to say.

Only those that have been on this blog since the inception know that my journey was about exposing the frauds that prey on those seeking truth. It’s very confusing times but mostly everything I felt and predicted happened. There is no Saviour, there is no Jesus returning, there is simply a timeline where humanity is waking up and realizing that they have been duped for eons in time.

Just because I haven’t written anything in a long time, doesn’t mean I have stopped researching and exposing those that are now making a shitload of money off gullible truth seekers. Like I always say, once I find the information, I can feel that person that is giving information and I watch/follow them carefully because they eventually slip or expose themselves for who they really are. I understand that those who offer podcasts and do interviews need to make a living, I get that, but at the same time, I don’t feel that I should pay to get truth either. If they claim to help humanity, then the information should be free or at least offer those that can’t afford a subscription free plans. People like Gene Decode, Kerry Cassidy, Underground Patriot, Michael Jaco, Nino Rodriguez; it goes on and on not only charge for their time but have MERCH set up for T-shirts, mugs and whatever else they have to offer. This is not right, these folks are PAYTRIOTS and are making a shitload of money off those that are willing to pay to listen. If there is anyone you have questions about, make a comment and I will see if I know that person and in a few days I will be posting about Gene Decode. I have mentioned him a few times in the past, but I’m going to do a more detailed expose on this guy.

In the meantime, stay strong, stay true to your Soul, these are hard times, the ones I wrote about that it would get much worse and crazy because people have to SEE Evil just like it is now being revealed in Palestine and Israel. Don’t give up, trust me, there have been times when I wanted to leave this planet in a positive way because I experienced near death so I know what to expect, but I also know that I chose to be here for a reason and I feel that I have not yet completed my mission.

Besides, I have one more dream to fulfil and that is to purchase a Campervan and enjoy a van life here in Croatia. I recently turned 65, I’m in good health, been actively camping and metal detecting but a Campervan costs money and my lawsuit over my home is finally ending so I will work on selling my home and getting the Campervan and property to put a few mobile homes on it for my family and cats. I really am excited for this new stage in my life. The Lawsuit over my late partners estate has lasted 5 years and I finally caught the corruption, reported it to the respective agencies and threatened the Judge that irrefutable evidence was withheld and he did nothing about it, and sent it to him. My ex lawyers were working both sides and probably got paid to keep this lawsuit going forever and destroy me financially, but something told me to check it out and I was right.

It’s been a tough 5 years, my partner’s children reported me criminally for Quackery and Drug Trafficking, the investigation was done by 2020 and all charges were dropped, or all accusations were rejected but this is what I had to go through when greed is in question. Croatia is probably 2nd in corruption after Ukraine so if you want to live here, you don’t get loans, you don’t get credit, you pay everything in cash and don’t get into legal problems, lawyers go where the money is. You can buy a Judge and someone can ruin your life because they have money to do so. I battered and won because TRUTH always wins, but not necessarily when you need it to win. There were lessons in this journey to help me change the way I live and treat others. Honesty in this current reality will be used against you. I’m not saying you should lie, I’m saying that you should be careful what you share with others and that includes your own family. During this time, I experienced betrayal from my own son, who came to Croatia with the pretence that he was going to take care of me, but when he got here with his wife, there were conditions for that such as signing the Title over to them. Needless to say, it got ugly and he left owing over 3600 euros in utilities unpaid and when I asked him to take care of it, this is what he wrote: “Go fuck yourself”. So yeah, it’s been a wild ride. Both my son and his wife were jabbed twice in Canada, they were always in their room, and they had mental issues, I believe the JAB screwed up their brains because this man that I gave birth to, is not my son. My weakness is as the Main Investigator told me was that I was brutally honest and with that trust everyone, but I’m better for it, stronger for it and not giving up on my dreams. Look at this way: The ugly is coming out from all directions, including your family members, people have gone totally nuts and I don’t know how it is in other countries but if you walk in the cities here, nobody is looking up, they are all stuck on their phones, so sad.

Stay strong, love who you are and remember you came here for a reason and whatever you are doing now is what you came to do. See you in a few days.