This journey that we are on was forgotten when we entered into this physical world. In other words, we forgot why we are here.

So, why are we here? Is this a question you ponder about or have figured it out?

I am Soul, this body I use to have my human experience is called Ines. I am immortal, eternal, infinite and have always been. When you really truly start to believe this, things change on a huge scale.

On my journey, having learned and understood that I am here for a purpose, I could never understand why I choose this body. Over time and constant questioning of higher self I learned that we don’t choose the body. We choose the parent and with that, we take on the genetics of our earthly parents. Even if we were to choose a physical body to use, there is no guarantee that we would live a long life if that is what we choose because so many factors come into play.

We enter the newly conceived child at different stages. We can enter at the time of conception, during the pregnancy or even during birth. This answered my questions about why I would choose a deformed body to live in. Maybe that was my purpose, to have an experience of being deformed and experiencing pain and suffering? Maybe the Soul that was my earthly mother wanted to experience giving birth to a 10 lb baby. This was the reason why I was born with Congenital Scoliosis, this body simply didn’t have enough room in the womb and probably stayed in one position  until birth. She did tell me that it took her 5 days to give birth to me. Being born in a communist country with very little technology was dangerous, but we made it.

So, going back to this body and I as a Soul. What do we actually choose and what do we actually experience? How successful is our goal to experience? These are answers I don’t know because so many factors depend on the outcome. I may be doing what I should be doing, but people around me are not able to fulfill their goals and experiences they chose to  have here.  Perhaps and most likely, I made a deal with the Soul that was my earthly mother to have this experience together.

In a way, this reality has to be a construct if we are to experience what we came to experience. If that is the case, then this construct was purposely designed for Souls to come and have a human experience. It would make sense that we are enclosed in this prison planet to keep those out that aren’t part of the Human Experience. We can assume that we are the only planet of Humanoids, therefore, Souls enter a human body to have this human experience. If we were to open it up to any Soul or any Body; then it would no longer be the human experience, right?

I have learned over the last 40 years that the less I think of myself as a human, the more in tune I am with everything around me. I have become the observer and one thing that is very difficult to do and which I consider to be the Holy Grail of Earthly Life is ” disattachment”.

What does that mean? I can only tell you what I think it is because I have been burdened by this since the time my children were born. I questioned myself as a mother because I didn’t freak out, I didn’t miss my kids, I didn’t run after them to keep them from falling into a imaginary hole, I was glad to get away for a few hours and didn’t think about them. This was confusing to me because I do love my children but couldn’t understand why I wasn’t so possessive of them.  Even today I see parents obsessed with their kids, while I never had that feeling then or today.

As a child living at home until I left at the age of 16 in Canada, my parents constantly moved. We were never in one place more than a few years. I did the same after leaving home. In fact, I got very antsy being in one place for a year. Was this from my parents moving or from the fact that I was already in tune with my goals here and didn’t attach to anyone. This goes for me even today. I have many friends, but I’m not attached to any of them and that includes my partner whom I love very much but when we are separated, I don’t miss him.

I may never know for sure but what I am sure is that the Older the Soul, the more in tune it is with nature and it’s not attached to anyone or anything because it intuitively knows that this experience will come and go and it will go on to new adventures.

Let’s look at people that are very sick and know they are dying. Most fear death like the plague. Those that belong to religious institutions or believe in gods believe that if you are good you will go to heaven and if you are bad, you will go to hell. How silly is that? The point is that most fear death because they don’t know what is waiting for them on the other side and because they consider their life here to be the one and only one.

Those that don’t fear death, probably had an enlightening experience in their lifetime which helped them understand better. Had I not died and gone to heaven for 12 minutes, would I writing this today? Would I know who I am today without that experience? You don’t have to have an NDE to come to that conclusion but it sure helps. It’s like having a cheat sheet in your hand while you are searching for the truth. That cheat sheet helps you be more focused because you already had that experience and are now verifying it through information.

I am an old Soul/spirit. An old soul simply means that it has had many many experiences. This body I occupy is called Ines. By feeling this way, I have changed a lot in this lifetime. Like a car you drive, your body requires maintenance, new parts and cleaning. Your car needs gasoline, oil, filters and tuneups, so does the body. We can then more realistically take responsibility for illness because it’s obvious we didn’t service this body well enough. When seeing yourself from that perspective, the reality changes. I no longer feel angry about constant wars and rumors of wars. I can laugh at the great American Puppet Show going on right now as ” disclosure” takes place. What is coming to the surface now is disclosure. It was never about Aliens or ET’s, it was about the secrets being disclosed.

I love this life, this human experience because I get to choose how to live it. I’m here for a short while, I get to play the human game and once I’m done, I get to go back home. You can’t play this game being attached to people or things. Material things are part of the human condition and that usually means that you’re either a very young soul not yet understanding why you are here, or you like many others, went rogue because you weren’t strong enough to break through that temptation.

Not everyone completes their lessons or experiences, but it’s not true that we have to come back and re-experience or reincarnate. That goes for those that believe in reincarnation and get caught in the Karma trap. I wrote about this many times. In fact, I’m preparing my partner now to think about this. Once he crosses over, he must believe and think that he’s going home. I often tell him that he not only needs to know his human life but he also needs to know his transition and where he will go from there. You don’t want to go to the light, it’s a trap. Simply practise thoughts about ” going home”, so when the time comes, you will go home wherever that may be. I believe that we all have different homes and that we were not all created in one reality but many of them.

I am Spirit/Soul; I am eternal, immortal, infinite and beautiful. This body is called Ines, this body is holding up well, I guess I still have a lot of things to experience.


Three Great Minds

This is by far one of the most interesting discussions I have listened to in a long time. So much of what is said here has been written on this blog so it’s nice to know there are others with the same experiences. It not only resonates within me but it confirms a lot of things I have experienced and dealt with over the past 40 years.
There is no saviour. You are not  your body. In order to get something, you have to give something and work at it. Enjoy!

A Rant

No matter which way or how I choose to start with this subject, I can’t write about it without politics involved. If we take the U.S. as an example, every single event and subject is now politicized.

Let me start by saying this: Dear Americans, your country is going to war and it will push everyone on this planet into a war.  No matter what you believe or think, your government is doing whatever it can to start another war and this one is going to be a big one.
Today, Fox News announced that ” Assad’s regime just bombed his own people”. If you look at RT News; or Press TV; or Euronews or even Al Jazeera News; you will not get this version. This is just an example of the outright LIES your media is presenting to you. No, it’s not FAKE news, it’s outright lies.

In our news, I’m talking about European News and Asian News there is a whisper going around that Trump will not allow N. and S. Korea to work out a peace deal. It isn’t conducive to the billions of dollars of US Military bases and war machine to just bail out. It’s not just LIES and FAKE news; literally, your American Historians are not writing history the way it actually happened.

So, 13 Russians meddled in the elections? Do you really believe that? Can Americans be so fucking stupid to believe this? I mean, your government really thinks you’re as dumb as Forrest Gump or have the brain capacity of a bird.
We are in a very dangerous reality and I have no doubt that we will get involved in a war and it doesn’t look good for Americans because the US is no longer a world power and its allies have turned rogue. Not one country will support the US in ANY war, let alone a Korean War again. China and Russia will surely get involved and they are already on alert and I can tell you this as well, America will die a slow death. No, you won’t be bombed like Iraq, Afghanistan, Libya, Syria or Yemen.  You will die a slow death as China and Russia unleash their EMP weapons over the continent.

I am so angry and yet I can’t pinpoint what I am angry over. Maybe I’m angry because nothing has changed. I’m laughing while watching any US news outlet; it’s like watching the greatest Puppet Show, the scandals, the political winching, the outright LIES about any country the US can’t control, it’s just madness.

Guns don’t kill people. People kill people. No laws will change a mad nation armed with guns. Make no mistake, these kids were not shot by a mentally deranged young man, he was brainwashed and mind controlled  to do this by the Deep State. Why? Because the Deep State is afraid of you and they want your guns and they will not stop short of killing 1/2 the nations children if they have to, to take away your guns. Thing is, we’re just talking about registered guns. What about the 250,000 million guns that are unregistered?  How do you control that? You can’t. You are being stripped of the last hope you have to protect yourself and your family. The Deep State wants your guns and they will get them but not before China and Russia annihilate your country back to the stone age.

The entire planet has somewhat strict gun laws. Even those countries that don’t have such strict gun laws do not have crazies going around shooting kids in schools. It’s a cultural problem, a mental problem, a deeply divided nation, neglected mental health issues, neglected veterans, pompous beliefs of grandeur that Americans are taught, there are so many different reasons why people kill, but it’s not because of gun laws and find me ONE country that has this problem. I dare you to find me a country where despite gun laws, madmen go around killing just for the hell of it. It doesn’t exist. So, it’s not the guns stupid, it’s the chemtrails, fluoride, antidepressants, HAARP and who knows what else is being snuck into the food and water. Let’s not even mention GMO’s that are rampant in US fields. GMO foods are banned in the EU and Russia. What does that tell you?

Oh boy, we have some big problems don’t we? Croatia is in the middle of all this, we’re a small country and we’re not even worth a bomb dropping because that bomb costs more than the entire Croatian economy, but we’re downwind from the radiation and more to come. As if Fukushima was not enough, we’re headed for another war and I can tell you that Americans will be the worse off. How do I know? I was there, watching it all happen and it’s not coming from Russia or China; our dear off planet friends see no end to this madness and karma is a bitch.

What do I say now? I say what I have been saying for years. Get ready and be prepared. Plan for the worse and hope for the best. Your only survival is water, food and medicine if you have health issues. Also, make sure you are taking Iodine and Potassium Iodide to protect your thyroid but also keep you healthier. It’s so cheap that anyone can afford that, but get ready. I have been ready for years, and though I didn’t plan for a war, I planned for natural events such as earthquakes or volcanic ash as we are very close to 3 active volcanoes in Italy. Last time one of them blew, there was a nuclear winter for 6 months and most died. I think I read that only 10% survived that year so I do have reasons to prepare here.

Terminal madness is upon the entire planet and has been for some time, but as the corruption is being exposed, the Cabal/Deep State lashes out even stronger and they will stop at nothing to ensure there is perpetual war.

So, what are you doing to prevent this? You still believe your one little voice matters not? If that’s what you believe, then get a gun and get it over with. To sit back and watch it all unfold without you doing anything about it is the same as doing the deed itself.

Everything is political now. Your greatest enemy is your own nation dear Americans. From the outside, the greatest threat to humanity is America. Take a peek into some media from Europe and Asia and see for yourself what the world thinks of the US government and its people. We’re all tired of being bombed and bullied, karma’s a bitch and the next poke at N. Korea will result in war, take my word for it.

Your world is exactly that, your world in a cocoon called America. Take a peek outside the box and see what is actually going on and who will pay the price. Because of this Americanism; the American people will pay the highest price. Guns and bombs don’t differentiate between people and a government, just like bombs don’t detour civilians to kill the terrorists. Bombs are like antibiotics and chemotherapy, they kill everything in its path. Take notice.

Do something. Say something. Give a damn about what is going on. Guns don’t kill people, people kill people. Last night, we had a car pile up on one of our highways and two people died. It’s been on the news since last night, it’s just a big deal when people die here, and if a madman entered a school and killed some children, you can believe me that that gunman would not leave alive nor would citizens wait for the police to arrive. It’s never happened in our country, it’s unthinkable to just shoot someone for some mental or emotional issues.  We are one of the poorest EU members, have the highest unemployment rates, probably the most guns per person and yet we don’t go to schools and shoot children. How dare they give other countries advice on democracy and freedom!

I heard someone say: ” They  attack us and hate us because of our democracy”. Do you honestly believe that? They attack us because we bombed their country back to the stone age, because we killed entire families. What the fuck would you do if someone did that to you? You would become a terrorist too because that is why they become terrorists. They want to terrorize you the same way we did it to them. Can you imagine standing up from the rubble after being bombed and finding out all 17 members of your family were dead? No you can’t imagine that, but maybe you can understand why people become terrorists. When they lose everything, they are prepared to die for their revenge.

Democracy is an illusion, a word without meaning. This is why communism was feared. Grant you, communism wasn’t implemented the way it should but communism was a good thing in Yugoslavia. Talk to any Croatian and he/she will tell you that life was much better at the time. It’s how Communism is translated or implemented that is taken out of context. We all started in tribes, that is communism or living in a Commune. Everything we have been fed is lies and more lies. Hell, we don’t even know where we come from or who our ancestors are. We are lost, have been lost and will continue to be lost until we realize we don’t need governments to tell us what to do.

So much for Peace.


Massive Flu Outbreak?

Massive flu outbreak? Here’s the real story the media won’t touch. The lies, the hoax, the scandal. I covered part of the scandal the other day, but here I’ll give you much more. By Jon Rappoport In case you haven’t been following the uproar over the flu outbreak, you’ve missed the fact that… Health authorities […]

via Massive flu outbreak? Here’s the real story the media won’t touch. The lies, the hoax, the scandal. — Jon Rappoport’s Blog

Bodhi Be in Hawaii: On “Missile Morning” — Exopermaculture

Notes from Ines: I was going to write about this today, but as you can see, another subject came up. Here is how I would respond to this false alert. I’m grateful that my government is testing and ensuring that my safety is important. What is all the fucking hassle about anyways? It just shows that Americans are scared as hell, paranoid in the worse way and ungrateful, find fault in everything, and very very ungrateful for the lesson they faced that morning. Nothing left to say about that. Anne did a great job in this!

When we are not foolishly distracted from important world-changing events by quibbling over the word *shithole, we are parsing the reality or unreality, mistake or false flag, actual or fake, agenda-driven or not, message that all Hawaiians received on Saturday morning at “around 8:07 A.M.” I’ve heard the many theories: First the MSM version: it…

via Bodhi Be in Hawaii: On “Missile Morning” — Exopermaculture

The Principle of Mentalism as defined in ” The Kybalion”

Principle of Mentalism as defined in ” They Kybalion”, Hermes was a very wise man but I think he was also one of the ‘gods’; in other words, a non-human or even hybrid. Before I quote the chapter on Metalism, let me explain why I feel he wasn’t human. What you are about to read is also my philosophy and in the times of Hermes, most people were primitive in their knowledge and understanding of who they were. Just reading the Kybalion, it’s obvious to me that Hermes didn’t sit under a tree for years trying to figure out what life was about. He KNEW the truth. There is no theory or concept mentioned in his works, it’s GNOSIS (knowing).

” The ALL is MIND; The Universe is mental”. This principle embodies the truth that ” ALL” is mind. It explains that THE ALL (which is substantial Reality underlying all the outward (external) manifestations and appearances which we know under the terms of ” The Material Universe”; the ” Phenomena of Life”; ” Matter”; ” Energy”; and, in short, all that is apparent to our material senses) is SPIRIT, which in itself is UNKNOWABLE and UNDEFINABLE, but may be considered and thought of as AN UNIVERSAL, INFINITE, LIVING MIND. It also explains that all the phenomenal World or Universe is simply a mental Creation of THE ALL, subject to the Laws of Created Things, and that the universe, as a whole, and in it’s purest parts or units, has its existence in the MIND of the ALL, in which mind we ” live and move and have our being”.

This principle, by establishing the Mental Nature of the Universe, easily explains all of the varied mental and psychic phenomena that occupy such a large portion of the public attention, and which without such explanation, are non-understandable and defy scientific treatment. An understanding of this great Hermetic Principle of Mentalism enables the individual to readily grasp the laws of the Mental Universe, and to apply the same to his well being and advancement.

This principle explains the true nature of ” Energy”, ” Power”, and “Matter”, and why and how all these are subordinate to the Mastery of mind.”
The End of Quote

I came across this Philosophy listening to Leak Project on YT. Though I didn’t read the entire book, I did listen to the Audio Version and this philosophy corresponds to mine. Not just because I believe it to be true but because I have experienced enough to know it’s true.

We create our own reality, we are our thoughts projected through to create matter or the reality we are currently experiencing. I have written so much about this subject and this book was published in 1908. Hermes could not have been human to present this philosophy or he was remembering all his incarnations. The book alludes to Hermes actually being Thoth who was as I understand Annunaki.

This philosophy wasn’t accepted as did any other philosophy that wasn’t based on religious dogma taught to people. To this day, a majority of the worlds population believe in a god, that they were created by this god and most worship this god in order to receive something back. Any religion or philosophy for that matter that teaches that only God and God alone determines your destiny, that you are powerless and that you only have this one earthly life is what keeps humanity from seeking their true identity.

It hasn’t changed since 1908? Why is that? All spiritual or metaphysical teachings encourage knowledge and study. All these different philosophies including Gnostics encourage advancement in their spiritual journey. In other words, the purpose of learning is to advance the soul in it’s eternal quest for experiences that will eventually bring them back to Source. Why are we no further ahead today than we were say 5000 years ago?

We are all philosophers. I think it’s hilarious that Philosophy is a subject taught in school for which you can actually get a PhD. for; as if it is something you learn to do, but hey, I don’t know of any modern day philosopher that is making a good living out of that. What they learn is differentiating between various famous philosophers, breaking down their thought process on how they came to the thought which philosophy actually is. How do you judge the contents of a philosopher?

How long or how much longer will it take for humanity to figure it out? The information is readily available, all humans have to do is make a decision to further explore their belief systems. Until most of us are on the same page, we will continue to create a negative reality. Continue to war among each other, choose who is worthy and who is not. Until we wake up, we will stay on this path of self-destruction.

For those who will say: ” It’s the Cabal stupid, it’s all their fault” I say: Bullshit! It’s an excuse we create to not take action or responsibility.

I’m starting to believe that this so called Cabal was just another psych.op. or diversion like everything else propagated by those that do not want humanity to figure out who they are. I’m a mere projection of my spirit. I am not my body, I am SPIRIT or SOUL that can ” think” any reality I want to create. Even I; the human struggles with this concept, even though I have experienced BEING and in the presence of Source because this human brain/computer is not designed to help me grow. I can’t say this enough. The brain belongs to the body, it’s function is to keep this body alive not to serve the mental projection we create.

Why hasn’t humanity evolved in the last 5000 years? I can understand how difficult it was to access information before the internet, but it’s been around since 1991. The internet is our living library and those that chose to question their belief system found what they were looking for.

Ok, so now that you know, what next? This is what I ask myself even now as I write this. I may know who I AM, but it’s not enough. I want to control and manage my mind creations to consciously manifest. The Higher Self is actually the SPIRIT of me that is controlling my reality because the higher self was once in this body. I believe Atlantis or the fall of Atlantis changed our bodies. We were using much more advanced body suits and were functioning at a 4 or 5 dimensional reality, but in that event, we descended and so did these bodies to a 3D reality and the body was not able to hold on to the Higher Self or the connection to Source. That said, higher self is also I but with the separation, we forgot about this and just as we separated from Source or the ALL, we were no longer consciously aware of our true state or identity.

Hermetic Philosophy is presented to you as something to ponder about. I will not stop seeking parts of my true self. Knowing is not enough. I want to be in that awareness, just as I can’t drive my car unless  I know how it works under the hood. My friends and family get frustrated with me because when I buy a new appliance or gadget, I’m not satisfied with reading the operating manual. I go online and look for the technology and how it works. I’m wired that way, simply curious.

I sit here as a human being, I have to live int his reality as a human, but I want to know “why” I chose this body and this experience yet I know this logic doesn’t apply in the ALL reality. We are simply experiencing ALL that is without reasons.

Just like you have to study certain subjects to get your degree, the Soul has to experience everything to advance. Our purpose is simply to BE, no conditions or logic or reason, but with an eternal goal. To advance the Soul, to gain experience and knowledge so that we may rise into higher dimensional realities.

We haven’t evolved in terms of this: We talk about peace and love, yet there is no peace and not much love in this reality. Isn’t’ this what we are striving for or did we forget that too?

What is preventing us from maturing? Our denial of our true selves? It’s just simply too painful to accept the fact that everything we believe to be true is a LIE, that we went on this long journey not knowing our true nature. Denial is powerful force when placed in front of truth. Sometimes, even I don’t want to know some things because it’s simpler to hold on to my existing truth.

We do this all the time. We convince ourselves that we do it for noble purposes such as hiding the truth from our kids or delaying a medical test because we’re not yet ready to get the truth. We do it to small kids all the time. We keep things from them believing it’s best for them; yet we know that in a certain time frame, they may found out themselves. It’s not about lying, no no, it’s about allowing them to live in a false paradigm. It doesn’t matter that their dad had an affair, it matters that they don’t change the way they view their father. That’s a false paradigm and with consequences, always. It’s the law of nature that all things hidden must eventually show up like you opening your door 30 years after your father had the affair and this person claiming to be your sibling.

Everything has consequences here. What are you going to feel about your dad? Would you rather have known about it then, when it was real or 30 years later? It will shatter your paradigm about your dad. Instead of having 30 years to get over it and move in, you are now back to square one, shocked and your perceptions of your dad change.

We are so quick to blame others for our situations or outcomes. The Cabal or the Matrix or Elite may be real, but everything that has happened to us is due to decisions we made. Maybe they are here in the same way that we are. They create the negative and evil reality that we fight against? They are part of this game as well. The existence of a group supposedly controlling us isn’t the problem. The problem is that we made choices to believe or not, doesn’t matter that we were lied to or that there is a grand deception going on. Besides, most people today believe that our governments are corrupt and that someone in the dark is pulling the strings.

Which now leads me to the question: If this Cabal or whoever is controlling us know that this material world is not real and that it’s a projection of mind, why have they accumulated so much wealth and power? They know who we are and who they are. Since it’s all an illusion and they know it’s an illusion; what is their purpose? I don’t see them any different than you and me. Remember, we are all creating this reality. In order to fight for love, we must sow hatred and fear. In order to remove fear from this planet, we must spread love around. This is a duality or synergistic planet. Everything is Yin and Yang, therefore, one cannot function without the other. The controllers are the Yang of our Yin; they too need to create the conditions for us to rebel eventually. I don’t believe there is a conspiracy rather, we are all conspiring to hold on to this paradigm because we forgot who we are. Most of us actually believe that we are human beings with a soul.

Thing is, we have been so separated and fractured that we can’t change anything individually. In order to stop this madness, we have to be unified and within 48 hours, we could crash the entire system. All it takes is 48 hours for at least half the population to not go to work, not spend money, not use any cards, not make one single transaction and we have crashed the markets, created chaos, started a war against them and there is more of us, so we would win. But we can’t do this until we remember who we are. Fighting as a coward or fighting empowered with truth are two very different things. When you’re fighting empowered your energy is high so you do spend less and get more.

It all depends on humanity and what it ” thinks” and this takes me right back to the first year of this blog. There is no saviour because we don’t need to be saved. This reality is merely a projection of our  mind. The mind has to see the change and not focus on the present condition. We have to be the change. We manifest our thoughts. If I’m thinking that I ” don’t have” all day, I only manifest more of it. Until humanity is aware of it’s power and how to use it, we’re doomed to continue in this reality.

Personally, the current human condition doesn’t concern me. For years I believed I could change the world if only people would listen to me and do as I told them to. But, this reality is no longer part of mine. I have removed myself and I’m just the observer. Because I alone can’t change the human condition, I can only continue my personal journey and ensure that I’m not burdened by mistakes humanity is making. Change starts within us, individuality is not a friend of ours. This was the deception so that we could separate and view each other as single entities.

We, as human beings have not made any progress, that’s a fact. I’m not talking about external progress such as technology and medicine, etc. I’m talking about the Human Condition. Humans still believe they are humans with a Soul and created by some god. When we stop believing this, we will switch to ‘ being’ the spark of the ALL or Source and this reality just shuts down. This is tough shit to swallow. It’s like telling your child whom you bought at the sperm/embryo bank that you are its parents technically but you’re not biological even though you as a mother carried it for 9 months.

You see my child, I carried you for 9 months so dad and I watched you come into this world but you were in a lab with other embryos and we chose you, how special you are!What happens here? Let’s assume the child turned of age or his mature enough to get this information. The parents actually view this child like their biological child, I have no doubt about that. But how does a person act after finding out their biological parents are out there somewhere? There is nothing wrong with having children this way, but then there is. This family lived a false paradigm and if this couple had no problem being inserted with a foreign baby, why couldn’t they adopt? Isn’t that the same? Maybe better because you get to tell that child that you chose her and that she/he was special.

How does this Embryo conceived child deal with her existence? Her past is false, her present is false and her biological parents are unknown, not to mention that there may be hundreds or thousands of her siblings walking this planet. It’s a false paradigm and I doubt that the parents thought deeply into this matter. They were focused on having a child and probably had a good story put together and maybe even feared that dreaded day when they had to tell the child the truth.

The truth is we haven’t advanced and I believe our purpose here is to experience and learn, to change the paradigm, to turn this reality upside down and start over again. But then again, does there have to be purpose for our being here or having this human experience?

There are billions and trillions of universes out there, each one of us as Spirits or Souls are experiencing on multiple levels. Don’t think for one moment you are just here having this experience. It would be Ungodly to give you such a task as this one; but that’s another post!

To Be a Cell

The title may sound really strange or it might have gotten your attention. I was a cell, in other words, I became aware of my cellness. The last few days I have been really focused on getting rid of my sinus blockage. It’s been since August and none of the nasal sprays I got work. In essence, I wake up and for an hour or two discharge a lot of material.

Since we are in a flu season, this virus is the pneumococci  that attacks the lungs, I have kept my partner indoors and limited my exposure time outside as well. Even those that don’t have lung problems are thrown off their feet and land in bed for 10 days or more.

I’m trying to find the right entrance into describing me being aware of my cellness. It comes with constant thoughts about our Immune System. My partner was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder where his joints swell up and become very painful to the touch, never mind trying to move around. Although for years it was diagnosed as Gout; a hospital stay last year prompted his pulmonologist to have someone look at his swollen elbow. He was told he had a rare autoimmune disorder.

So, last night while really high on Cannabis Medicine, I focused on the Immune system in my body and while meditating on it, found myself traveling through a thick dark substance. From here, I can’t explain to you the details, it was out of body experience and when I came to this morning, I was able to understand how the cells work and the Immune System.

Picture the Immune System as an Army. We have a land army, airborne army and water army and an administrative army.. Our immune system is divided in a similar way. We have several Immune Systems that protect our body from external enemies and internal where we may produce too much or too little of something.

The immune system is pre-programmed to kill. In other words, the Army that protects us from external invaders is programmed to kill bacteria, viruses etc; it recognizes the bad from the good. It knows nothing else, other than to protect and kill enemies. What happens is for several reasons, the Immune System is compromised and when it reaches a certain point, it doesn’t know how to stop. I saw the Immune System attack a dying cell, it was really just speeding up it’s demise. But, it didn’t stop at the death of that cell. It kept killing everything around it. This is what an Autoimmune disorder is about. It automatically overkill’s or over produces antibodies causing Lupus, and other autoimmune disorders.

Often, it can correct itself after the baby is born if the mother gives it breast milk and if that milk contains the immune food. Often, mothers don’t eat right or abuse their bodies so whatever they did, goes directly to the baby through the milk. But if everything went well, the baby received the best milk solution, the immune system can repair itself. Problem is, it doesn’t last long. In countries where babies are given multiple vaccines, these babies lose whatever benefits they received from the breast milk and now have to focus on fighting invaders, viruses, and other toxic substances. 90% of the time, their immune systems fail and cannot deal with the enemy. Combine that now with another 2 years of receiving vaccines and the baby’s body is totally damaged. I have yet to see a healthy 4 year old. I have seen one child whose parents chose not to vaccinate despite the laws but they will be doing home schooling so they are not worried about being accepted in school. This 6 year old has never had a cold, never a running nose and every few months it has a fever for a few hours. They know it’s the immune system just doing a test run and they don’t try to lower the temperatures.

Our bodies are so carefully designed and programmed that we have yet to understand it. You can’t see blood traveling through the arteries and veins in real life, but I traveled them last night and witnessed the incredible chaos that happens in just the blood moving throughout the body. The arteries become translucent and I can see outside where I am going, just incredible, I can’t describe what I saw but I recognized each organ and connective material.

What I can now say, after that experience is that we are every part of us. We are the cell, we are the artery, we are the immune system, we have this awareness that we are ALL parts of this body, and that we can if we choose to, control the health of it.

Science doesn’t yet have the technology to see how the body actually works in a real life scenario. Did you know it takes roughly 45 minutes for the blood to leave the heart and return to it? Yes, we have instruments such as endoscopic and laparoscopic type, but they only see a very small piece or portion of the area they are viewing. They don’t see the micro size of a blood cell. Each cell is a different color/energy, as I was moving with the blood or being the blood, I was immersed in a rainbow of colored  substance, kind of like this: You take a white paint, pour it on the floor and then dump a few colors on top, take a spoon or sharp object and you create swirls. This is what the blood looks like traveling through it.

We think blood is real because that’s what we believe it to be, but BEING a cell, there is no consistent or constant color, it’s changing as energy moves. Everything is energy.

Here is another experience that relates to energy. I only take my Cannabis Medicine a few hours before going to sleep. So far, I have not taken it during the day because I’m a caregiver and the Cannabis makes me really sleepy, I wouldn’t be able to function. Once I start feeling the Cannabis, I go to bed. I actually look forward to this part of the day because in my fully aware condition I am able to focus on anything and manifest it into what I want. This night, I went to bed, everything was normal and just as I positioned myself I started to get stomach cramps. Let me tell you, pain is very intense when  you’re high and although the pain was familiar to me as ‘bloating’ pain, I still had my doubts. That little Ego pops up and questions me: “Why are you doing this? What do you get out of this experience? Are you really feeling what you think you feel?” But each experience I manage to shut the Ego down faster, so after my mental hit over the Ego head, I continued to BE the bloating experience while thinking to myself: “Thank you for this experience and now that I have experienced it, I am good, I feel good”. I could feel the pain subsiding but it started to move down my legs and into my toes and then GONE.

Pain is energy. Energy doesn’t disappear, it transforms it’s polarity but it’s in a constant flow, so the pain energy basically left my body. So, the question is: If I didn’t know this, if I didn’t try this, what would happen to that pain energy? Will it transform into something else, will it stay in the body, will it shift polarity? I don’t know, but I know what I feel and experienced.

How can I write about events in the world when I am having such incredible experiences? How do I define these experiences to someone who has no concept of them let alone experiencing them. What I am learning is that I AM in and out. I am the cell, I am the energy, I am the stomach, I am the pain, I am the blood. I AM ALL THAT IS; I’m creator within the creator, I am Ines within her and beyond her. I am up and down, left and right, I am ALL that is. Although I’m learning how to use this newly found discovery, I’m looking forward to more experiences but for now, my life on the outside is changing as well. It seems that my internal being is more conducive to having fun then externally. Is this what we are to learn? That everything outside of us is a projection of our thoughts and that we are complete inside, but manifest these experiences because we want to physically experience pain, suffering, illness, joy, happiness, jealousy etc.?

I’m starting to shift to that theory that we create everything, perhaps this is the higher self sending us messages to pay attention to these things or to explore further. Nothing is a coincidence, everything has purpose and although we may not understand that purpose at the moment of making that decision, most often, we do understand later as something happens that only confirms our intuitive self knew all along and that we should listen to it ALL the time.

From now on, you are going to read out of this world posts from me because the external world is no longer part of my reality. I have said what I had to say, so far, everything I have written about has manifested so let others continue the journey of the Prison Planet, but for me, I think I just made the discovery that we came to discover here. Our inner world, inner reality which is actually our external reality projected outwards. Fascinating!