Get Over It

Source: Waking Times | by Dylan Charles

It seems the fear is taking over. After all, it’s been such an integral part of our lives for such a long a time now that, sadly, life just wouldn’t feel normal without it.

They used to say that if it bleeds it leads, implying that fear-pimping was somehow an acceptable part of economic growth. But, we know there’s more to the story. We know that fear is a tool used for social control. It’s a weapon of mass destruction and mass deterioration of mental health. It’s a technique used to entrap us into lower consciousness, to keep us humming along in a dense vibration. It keeps the reptilian brain in the driver’s seat, and used to create conflict and chaos.

Most importantly, though, fear, whether real or perceived, keeps us focused on survival and security, forgetting that abundance and cooperation are both possible and far more enjoyable.

“Fear begins and ends with the desire to be secure; inward and outward security, with the desire to be certain, to have permanency. The continuity of permanence is sought in every direction, in virtue, in relationship, in action, in experience, in knowledge, in outward and inward things. To find security and be secure is the everlasting cry. It is this insistent demand that breeds fear.” ~ Jiddu Krishnamurti

Those in positions of power in government and in the media know this all too well. They use fear to influence the behavior of the masses. They front it as an offer we can’t refuse, telling us it’s okay to be afraid, because, we have them to protect us. They use it as justification for the ever-expanding military industrial complex and the Orwellian Permanent War. They use it to manufacture political consent, and to manufacture tolerance of the ever-incessant attacks on privacy and liberty.

And here’s the catch-22: The more we give in to the tyranny of fear, the less secure we are. Fear is a trap, and here are five tricks it uses to enslave you.

1.) The Fear Tells You to Indulge in Anger and Hate

This one is widely understood, but worth repeating. If you’re unable to overcome fear, then you’re open to anger and hate, of which we see so much of in our world today. What is rarely discussed, however, is that fear is what fuels the anger and hate, and that fear that drives the unrest and chaos we see in our world.

Yoda, of course, said it best:

“Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.” ~Yoda

2.) The Fear Expects You to Abandon Rationality

There’s a stark difference between fear and caution. Caution is a functional process that occurs in the present moment to keep us out of immediate danger. The fear in question here, on the other hand, is more like an art form, a type of refined capacity of human imagination. And imagination doesn’t need rationality.

Fear tells us to ignore facts, statistics and direct experience, and focus instead on hype, sensationalism and comforting lies. It draws our attention to the worst case scenarios, no matter how ludicrous they may be. From this perspective, sensible solutions to problems are practically invisible, and options are thin.

3.) The Fear Wants You to Try to Control Things Which are Beyond Your Control

“We think we are running things. But unless we reconcile what our unconscious and subconscious fears and motivations are, we are just a child on a bus with a toy steering wheel making ‘vroom’ sounds with our mouth. We aren’t in control of shit.” ~Aubrey Marcus

As individuals, there is only one thing in this world that we control: Ourselves. We have absolutely no say in the thoughts and judgements of other people, we have no control over the actions of others, and we have no control over the development or course of world events. We only have the ability to control our own thoughts, actions and reactions, although, fear would have us believe otherwise.

4.) The Fear Instructs to Take Sides and Mob Up

Divide and conquer works as a political strategy because it capitalizes on fear to push people into groups and mobs in attempt to find security. We see this in big ways in society today, and as hearts harden and the war of rhetoric heats up, people will find it more and more comforting to join a group and participate in mob action. Fear is driving us toward a new feudalism, into a new divide.

“It takes nothing to join the crowd. It takes everything to stand alone.” ~Hans F. Hansen

Do you have the courage to stand alone?

5.) The Fear Orders You to Close Up Your Heart

Heart-centered being is anything but a sign of weakness. On the contrary, it is the most courageous way of being, for it requires you to be vulnerable, a feat which is only possible when you totally abandon fear. But fear orders you to keep the heart closed. It tells you to lock up love in a safe place and guard it with the ferociousness of a caged lion.

When fear subjugates love, humans become wild animals, incapable of accessing empathy or of exhibiting compassion.

“Don’t give in to your fears. If you do, you won’t be able to talk to your heart.” ~Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

Final Thoughts

Fear certainly can be a dangerous master, but what exactly is it? Can you touch it? Can you see it? What color is it? Is it even real, or is it really just a lapse in discipline of the mind?

Spiritual growth stops until fear is confronted and overcome, but, on the path to self-mastery, fear is the first thing to go. It’s the first unneeded part of yourself that gets ferreted out of the psyche and dragged into light from the dark hollows of the subconscious mind. It doesn’t serve you well, and your spirit knows this. Do you hear it?

How do you reconcile your subconscious? Get still enough to hear it whisper to you, and then bring it into awareness. How do you get still? Meditation, floating, yoga, breath, ecstatic dance, plant medicine, time in nature… many ways up the mountain.” ~ Aubrey Marcus


Flat, Round and Manifesting Reality


I may make a fool out of myself with this post, but it feels right so we’re going to talk about the Flat Earth. As this post shows:, I wasn’t concerned so much because it wouldn’t change my life in any way, it didn’t matter if it was flat or a sphere; but Michael Tellinger helped me decide in the above video because it’s based on Empirical Evidence. There is more proof showing the Earth is flat then there is about it being a sphere.

Michael Tellinger:


I can’t seem to link a YT video called ” Under The Dome”, good watch!

Most of our science and physics is based on theories and lies. Scientists would have to literally travel from Earth through the various atmo/strato/blah/spheres, through the Solar System and out into deep space to be able to ‘ prove‘  their science is correct.

The mere fact that we have no photos of the Earth other than what NASA admits to fabricating an image based on fragments of images the satellites collect then create a composite of what they think Earth might actually look like or want us to believe.

I’m not a scientist nor am I am expert in anything related to these topics, but I do have good intuition and common sense. I have seen enough to be convinced that there is no curvature in the horizon or looking at an object from a distance. Even from an airplane, I have never seen any curves in the distance. Even the clouds are flat and not rounded at the far ends.

So, this alone is good enough for me. If the Earth is round, then why don’t we build curved bridges? If we travel at approx. 50,000 m. per hour around the sun and then together with other planets move towards the galactic center, how come we don’t feel anything? The truth is what you see. If Earth travels at such speeds, how come chemtrails don’t disappear in a second? How come cloud horizons are level?

So, based on my research, I am now out of Denial and believe that we’re living on a flat Earth, encased in a dome and that we are like a giant terrarium for the rest of the living beings to observe us. It’s like being in a fishbowl and you know that story. The fish know there is a world out there beyond the glass but can’t get out and even if they could, they couldn’t survive. They’re aware that a world beyond what their eyes can see exists and can only speculate because even if humans knew they couldn’t communicate that to the fish.

Maybe we are an experiment as some people claim. Maybe we wanted to create a duality world, separate ourselves from Source to see if we could figure it out but had to be isolated otherwise someone could tell us the truth and it would ruin the experiment. This doesn’t seem that logical because the truth is being hidden from us at all costs. In other words, someone does know the truth and is going to great lengths to keep us away from the truth.

If the Earth is flat then so many things change. It means the pole shift theory is false or made up because it goes along with the round earth lie. If the Earth is flat, it doesn’t have North or South poles. Magnetic poles don’t exist and since we’re not allowed to travel to the North or South poles, it’s obvious they are hiding something.

Logic and common sense dictates that when you stand outside and look up to the sky, you don’t see or feel movement. I always thought this gravity theory was crap. We’re moving at thousands of miles per hour and then together with other planets in a spiral movement outwards towards a galactic center yet oceans don’t fall over or slosh around? Now when I think about this, how the fuck can gravity keep massive amounts of ocean from not overflowing?

South Americans would be standing sideways looking at the map with US/Canada in front of us, but water pours into their glasses sideways because of gravity? How does gravity know what’s East or West, gravity isn’t selective and it only works up and down not sideways.

The Pole Shift is about fear. Although I have always believed it to be an impossibility, and for the last 10 years so called experts and researchers have been warning about this happening any day, instilling fear into the masses because this is what control is all about. If this is the case, why don’t we get hit by meteors and space debris? If there are thousands of satellites in the Earth’s orbit, how come we never hear about one being hit or falling to Earth?

But wait a minute. Alex Collier has been in contact with Andromedans since the 70’s and I don’t remember anything about them telling him the Earth is flat. If it is, then Alex is full of crap or the Andromedans are not who they claim to be. How would he know anyways? It’s not like he hangs out with other Andromedans so he can discern who is real and who is a fake. I don’t think that Alex is dishonest, but I think he’s been duped because I have always believed that our right to not be interfered with must be honored and that those that do contact humans are not of the light but are dark entities trying to confuse us or keep us from finding the truth.

But wait a minute. Barbara Marciniak has been channeling the Pleaideans for over 40 years and I have been with her from the start, but I remember on a few occasions where they have said the Earth is not flat. If the Earth is flat, then Barbara is either a fake or she too is being duped into who the Pleaideans are really.

Billy Meier was told by the Plajerans they gave themselves that name; but that there is no such race as the Pleaideans. This would confirm something that I write about from the start of this blog. We are not allowed to be contacted; the law of non-interference must be respected, therefore the only conclusion I can come to is that those that do contact Humans are not of the light and don’t wish us well.

Nobody has ever traveled far enough into space to take an image of Earth. The same globe we look at in photos is the same from 100 years ago, only touched up a bit because of technology. We have satellites that can scan your eye retina yet we can’t get an image of Earth?

Because we’re restricted within a Dome/Matrix and like in the Truman Story, if we ever figured out the truth, we would cause a global civil war. Problem is that even if we found out the truth, we can’t make the Earth round. Does it matter whether it’s round or not? Is this really about whether the Earth is flat or spherical? No.

Nothing would change and this is why I wasn’t concerned about it; but if it is true that I live on a flat Earth then the question that will be driving me crazy is: Why are we being lied to? Was that part of the experiment that our goals were to figure it out? Why is this being hidden to us? What do we have to gain if we find out the truth? What does anyone have to lose by us finding out the truth? What difference does it make flat or round? Scientists have made many wrong assumptions or theories and have come clean many times and corrected their data.

We all know what even science and medicine can make mistakes. We also respect them when they admit to it and remedy the situation or correct the data. What is the problem with them telling us their research was incorrect and that they now believe the Earth is flat?

There are thousands of images drawn and painted from ancient history and civilizations depicting the Earth as a flat dome. They were not primitive civilizations. Some were much more advanced who lived before us. They built the Pyramids that we can’t figure out how they did it and we can’t duplicate what they built even with the technology we have today.

They lied about our history. They lied about how old our Earth is. They lied about the Pyramids, about alien gods and civilizations. They lied about everything. Why?

Because they don’t want us to know or find out we are powerful creators? They used us for their agenda. They hijacked our minds that they actually created (genetically altered the human body suit) and then used us to create their reality because they know how the mind works. They created dissonance in us so that we would believe the lies and through our thoughts create their reality. How?

Simple. They want to continue to rule and control this planet. They make up the story of N. Korea being bad and is a dictatorship. Because very few people are allowed in N. Korea, there is not much solid evidence to prove that Koreans are not hungry and that generally they are very happy. They have continually misinformed us to believe that N. Korea is a threat and this is then transferred to our thought processes and if enough of humanity believes that Korea will be attacked, IT WILL. This is how we manifest for them, which leads me to believe that if they need to use us, it means those that control us don’t have what we have.

I can’t say enough times that you are a powerful being and instead of being obsessed with finding the truth that you start learning how to use your power to improve your life and existence while you are here. Slowly, we will stop creating their reality and we will collapse it. When we collapse it, the dome will fall and we can finally free ourselves from this prison.

I may not be able to change this reality alone; but by using my power to create, I have created the life that I want. By focusing all my energy into what I want, eventually it manifests itself. The speed all depends on how much energy I give it. Usually, and lately; if I spend most of the day thinking about what I want, it manifests in a day or so, so it all depends on how much power you give to your thoughts.

Here is an example of something I want to manifest. How to and how NOT to.

How to manifest a greenhouse. After deciding that I want the greenhouse, I have to manifest the money to buy it. I don’t focus on the money, I focus on the intent. So, like anything, you build the thoughts to build the concept. I imagine and think about the space I want to deliver it to. What I need to do in order to clear that space, visualize the greenhouse itself. I draw out plans on how I want it to function inside. Do I want a keyhole shape raised bed or do I want half side raised bed and the other side as a working space. I see myself working in the greenhouse. This is what I write about, think about and see myself as.

What not to do or think: You can’t manifest by wishing something. I wish I had a greenhouse. I wish I had money for a greenhouse. I need money for a greenhouse. Will I be able to find the money? Will I be able to get it this year? These are non-intent thoughts. Universe isn’t getting instructions, it doesn’t see your plan or visualize the greenhouse. Wanting, wishing and hoping are all non-intent thoughts.

So, when you want to manifest something, you literally manifest that in your mind, see it the way you want to see yourself. If it’s having a lot of money, see yourself counting it or sharing it with others. See yourself shopping for things you want. If you need money to pay the mortgage, see yourself at the bank making the payment, sitting in your home relaxed and happy. You literally have to ” imagine” what you want to manifest. If you have ANY doubts, if you’re not sure, if you have self doubts about your abilities, you will not be able to manifest.

At first it takes a while because you have to remove the self doubts and uncertainties. You have to ” know” you are a powerful creator and your thoughts have to be intentions or visions of what you want.

I live this everyday, although I spend less time focused on what I want because I have everything I want, but yesterday I started to manifest a protector for my new cellphone. Today, I went to the mainland and found one at a price I could afford/willing to spend.

When I manifested the greenhouse, I actually went out to the garden to the space I wanted to build it and measured the exact space for it. I drew plans, I created a list of vegetables/plants that I wanted to grow. I researched on ideas; all day long I just thought about that greenhouse and how beautiful it would look in the garden. A few days later, as I was making a batch of Cannabis Oil; there was much more oil produced than I thought and was able to sell it exactly for what the Greenhouse cost me.

Stop creating their reality of wars, death, destruction, racism and negative behaviors and start manifesting your own reality by focusing on what you want and not what you don’t want.

When you’re watching something you don’t like, you must ” think with intent” in order to not create their reality. They are using methods to deceive you and insert thoughts into your mind so that you focus on it and create for them. ” This is not my reality and I will have no part of it”; is usually what I think when I come across things that don’t fall into my reality. By doing this, we will eventually collapse the Matrix/Dome.

This has been a very long post and I thought about separating the Flat Earth and Manifesting but somehow they blended really well together. I’m not the fat lady giving advise to others on how to lose weight. I’m actually living what I give advice about. I have experience in manifesting.

Let me clarify something. Manifesting is not easy. Why? Because we don’t have an entire day to just sit around, meditate on what we want. We all have to venture into the world, go to work, take care of our children, whatever else that we need to do during the day so we have to find time in between to focus. This is the challenge. The challenge is to remove thoughts that don’t benefit you in any way. To avoid discussions that don’t benefit you in any way. To stop worrying about the little stuff like do you have enough vacuum filters to clean the house or will you be able to buy lunch tomorrow because it’s a holiday. These things are like weights on our minds, they clutter the space we could use for more beneficial thoughts. It’s a process that requires a lot of practice and remembering that we are trying to manifest. A simple phone call can throw you off because the conversation upset you or caused you to worry about something.

I found it much easier when I became the observer, I didn’t react to the external stimuli, I simply saw it for what it was without emotion or judgement. Our minds are cluttered with so much crap that we have to clear the garbage first, set our goals, make a good plan and then start practicing it.  Like me, you won’t get it the first time, you may feel at times that nothing is moving or nothing is happening, be patient. Just losing confidence will stop the manifesting. You have to get to a point where you already have what you want. The Universe just gives more of what you have.

Hope this helped and hope I didn’t make a fool out of myself on the Flat Earth but it’s not about whether it’s flat or round. I want to know WHY it’s being hidden from us. I want to know why we are not told the truth. So, I will keep digging and searching until I find the answers.

Dumbed Down and Drugged

My usual morning routine is to make my coffee, sit at laptop and turn on RT news to see what madness is happening and where it’s happening. After watching what is going on in the US, I thought about writing a Dear American post but then thought it would not be appropriate because most of you that read this blog are not as stupid, ignorant, violent, disrespectful, hateful and drugged up or dumbed down as other Americans are. To make matter worse, I find this message below in my FB Messenger. My first reaction after reading this was sadness. I didn’t take offense to this, it didn’t bother me that someone would go out of their way to find me and then leave something like this because there is nothing to get upset about. I feel sad for all Americans that think and feel this way. What happened to the “Beacon of Light” America once stood for?

This person obviously doesn’t have much respect for fellow human beings, doesn’t value different views and opinions and unless you’re agreeing with him, he will label you as something. It’s just sad, really sad because as I often write, this is not going to end up very good. Trump is just another diversion to keep you chasing his problems, while things are being planned and done in the background.

There was a time when I was hopeful that humanity would finally open it’s eyes to the problems it’s caused and find a way to come together, but as each days passes, I am losing hope. Not for me, not for humanity, but for Americans because THEY, the Americans will decide the fate of their country. They can blame anyone they want for things going wrong, but this kind of hatred and violence will only bring more of it and this is what the cabal wants. They want chaos, they want disorder so they can bring in Marshall Law and bring in the big tanks.

There is no need for me to give out advice because each one of us are creators of our own realities, but it’s obvious this is the path Americans have chosen and I’m sure there is purpose in this, nothing happens by chance. And finally, this man that I won’t leave his identity obviously didn’t like what I wrote though he didn’t refer to any specific post so not sure what it was that triggered his deranged anger, but it must have something to do with God or god; whatever, let’s just hope he realizes what he’s done and has done me no harm, only to himself and contributed to  lowering his frequency.

“I just read your blog on OUTOFTHISWORLDMATRIX. CONGRATULATIONS!!! I hereby dub you as the NEW-UNSURPASSED BIGGEST MORON WHO’S EVER WASTED OXYGEN ON THE FACE OF THIS PLANET! ( Yes, I was yelling – I had to make sure your dense little pea sized brain could absorb it. ) You fit right in on that site with those whacko disinfo new age artists! Have you ever considered suicide? Honestly, that is your best option at this point. When this hits the National media airwaves, I promise to make sure your name and facebook page is listed as well as the morons who own the blog site. People need to know delusional idiots like you are really out there. See you on the tube… moron.”

Can you Dream?

As I sit here reading Michelle Walling’s posts, I realized that my moment was just blank. What does that mean? It means that I’m not fretting about the weather, wondering if I have clients tomorrow, not looking at the watch to see if it’s bedtime yet, not thinking about what I need to take out of freezer for our meals tomorrow. The entire day was spent just daydreaming about all the abundance that has come my way in the last few months.

I sit here, trying to explain the stage/phase I am at in life. This life. This reality. One that started out with so much violence, abuse, rigid parents, moving every couple of years, being sexually assaulted, dying while giving birth to my son 37 years ago, marrying another abusive man…the list goes on. The traumatic experiences in the first 30 years of  my life are enough to send someone to a looney bin or drive them to drugs and alcohol. At least that’s what the statistics show.

I’m sitting here, just being. Each time I want something it manifests. Two weeks ago I wanted to buy some things for myself and within days a group of clients show up at my door needing help and money just kept coming in. This happens to me everyday. A packet arrived this morning that I ordered shoes for my partner and myself, a package of leggings and some items for making creams. My wallet is never empty. I stopped watering a batch of tomatoes a week ago, with temperatures over 36C for the last 10 days, these tomatoes refuse to die and I’m still picking them.

Nothing seems to end, money keeps flowing in, I’m in constant gratitude for all the things I’m spending money on this year. I know that I talk about having a great life and it’s always filled with abundance. Now I’m literally manifesting everything. The difference is that I don’t think about the outcome. Will I make it or not? Will it come in time? Will I have enough to pay for it? I don’t think about it that way anymore. I just KNOW that Universe will provide and it does.

Then the mind does a trick on me: “Am I really here?” “Do I really exist?” “Am I a figment of my imagination?” “Isn’t life supposed to be difficult?”. The answer: I don’t care, it matters not. I am where I am, I am what I am. The past or future are just illusions we imagine but are not real. I am here in this moment and almost afraid to wish for anything because I’m afraid that I might become materialistic. Who me? Heck no. How do you stop money from coming? “Money, please don’t come, I don’t need it”.

I know life is tough for many people. I look at what is going on in the USA right now and I don’t know whether I should laugh or cry. I can’t decide if it’s funny or sad, comical or pathetic. Maybe I am not in their reality anymore. Can someone please knock on my door so I can be sure that we’re sharing the same reality?

You may think I’m nuts. No. I’m sharing every thought that is coming through. There is no fear, no apprehension, no worry, no cares, no negativity about anything, I am simply sitting here and trying to put in words how great this new reality is. What happened? What changed? What was the magic word or thought that brought me here? I don’t know.

The next step is to now look for new challenges. I think I’m going to go back to Photography and start recording the beauty of this island. I already have many postcards that I made years ago. Here are a few: n1277889945_11527_4304

My ancestors moved to the island and lived in the tower of this palace. They were servants to the Italian Marchi-Martini Family, that was in 1776.


You see, I can do anything I set my mind to do. I have never thought “I can’t”. I have never NOT accomplished what I set out to do. Isn’t that godlike? Isn’t that like Creator?

Ines and Gina

My daughter Gina and I last year when she came to visit from Vancouver. She's 38 years old. Wow. I still feel like I'm 38. Time stopped.

If we talk about talents, I can’t list them all. It’s not about how much I know and can do, it’s about doing it with heart. I never do anything unless I feel it and enjoy doing it. I hate cleaning house so I hire a housekeeper. While she cleans, I cook gourmet meals. Life is fantastic, this reality is complete, I’m ready to move on.

What about you? Do you have something to be proud of? Have you helped at least 100 people in this lifetime? Can you wake up in the morning not even knowing what date it is because you’re not slaving for anyone? Do you cook when you’re hungry? Can you take your partner by the hand and say: “I’m in the mood, can I take you with me?” What is life if you’re forced to live it by a schedule or because you have obligations, loans to pay back, maxed out credit cards? Instead of putting money away you went out and bought the latest smart phone, right? Do you know how much money you can save simply by not buying your morning coffee? A penny day for 25 years is million dollars. Did you know that?

So, if you had to rate your life right now would you say you’re doing everything you want to do? Do you have enough of everything? Do you check prices when shopping for food? Do you grow your own food? If you die today, will you leave a legacy behind? Do you even know why you are here?

I know why I’m here. I’m here to manifest and be an example to others. It’s one thing to just talk about it, another to live it. Are you living your life to your full potential? Can you walk away from everything and start over?

Screw the little things, they get us into trouble, clutter our minds for bigger thing and disable us from creating. True, life is what you make it. But what kind of life do you want and or do you even know? Can you survive 3 months without a paycheck?

If you never hear from me again, just know this: Typing on this laptop and sharing my stories got really boring. If I left this reality, you can be assured I did it with joy and knowing the other side was waiting. When I cross over, I’m heading straight home and asking Creator to give me an A in manifesting!

The Cannabis Story

If you have been diagnosed with Cancer, before choosing or accepting any treatments; you have to think about why your cells turned against you. It doesn’t matter that you HAVE Cancer, if you don’t know what caused it, you can’t cure it.

Many experts/scientists and medical researchers outside of the status quo give different reasons/causes for Cancer. Whether it’s an invader such as bacteria, parasites, viruses or fungus, whether the person did bad things to their body like smoking, poor diet, exposure to chemicals and radiation; the bottom line is that a once healthy cell for whatever reason turned rogue and started to replicate itself.

I’m very active in the Medical Cannabis Online Community and share my personal experiences with others, along with how I cured my partner from PAH (Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension), COPD that have the same outcome as Cancer. PAH and COPD are considered deadly and it’s a commonly known life span after diagnosis. For those of you that have been reading this blog for the last few years, you know the struggle I was having, arguing with doctors, writing letters and insisting on transparency when it came to toxic drugs.

Well, in the past few days a few people contacted me through FB Messenger. These are my people, Croatians. It saddened me to read and feel their desperation. None were actually Cancer patients, the people that contacted me asking for help were friends, sisters and co-workers. Three of them were Cancer and one of them COPD who didn’t get any benefits from conventional treatments and they were sent home to die because the Cancer had mutated.

These people were actually repeating the very same thing their loved ones were and that is contacting a stranger and asking for help without giving any specifics.

How do they know I was truthful in my posts? How do they think I could help them when I grew the Cannabis and made my own Oil? This is typically how people diagnosed with Cancer behave. A stranger tells them they HAVE Cancer and must start Chemotherapy as soon as possible. These so called experts/oncologists never ask the patient what kind of lifestyle they lived, what their diet is like, where they work or if they had any exposure to toxins to at least get an idea of how the Cancer developed.

In turn, the patient, having met the Oncologist maybe for the first time completely hands over their power to this so called expert/stranger, doesn’t ask any questions and dares to ask: “What are my odds?”

The people that contacted me told me their friends/co-workers didn’t look at other options after being diagnosed. They trusted a stranger/doctor, accepted the therapy no questions asked. So, like in most of the cases the chemo and radiation didn’t work, the Cancer cells mutated and only then do they get desperate.

It’s difficult for me to be understanding let alone objective because we live in an informational age. These people obviously have access to internet, have researched in different forums and blogs and found me so why couldn’t they do this right from the start? How come they didn’t or couldn’t just learn how to grow the Cannabis or find someone to buy it and make their own Oil? They weren’t even specific about what help they needed, they just asked for help.  When I asked them for more information, I would get a few short sentences and then it clicked and started to make sense to me.

These people wanted a quick solution and wanted someone else AGAIN to do the work for them. I have no experience with treating Mutated Cancer Cells so I couldn’t even offer the Oil to them for free. Because I don’t have that experience, I don’t dare give hope to patients whose bodies are damaged by chemo and the rest of it being eaten up by mutated cancer cells and tried to find a gentle way to say: “Sorry, I can’t help you, I can only send you love”.

For starters, candidates for receiving my Cannabis Oil are those that have not gone through conventional therapies. Not only do they have the best chance of being cured but their mindset is different. They have done their research, they have noticed people dying from Cancer and the conventional treatments don’t work and they take responsibility for their condition.

Treating mutated cancer cells can be successful but under certain conditions. I tell my clients if they choose Chemo to also take Zeolite so that it can detox and clean out the toxins so they don’t build up in the body and cause more damage. They have to remove everything from their lives that could have a negative influence on them including family and friends that are not supportive of their choices. They need to take supplements to strengthen the immune system, to be positive. To stay away from negative people and environments even if that means staying home like a recluse. To take walks in nature and notice everything around them, to observe nature and connect with it, if possible walk barefoot to connect to Mother Gaia.

I can’t help people that continue to harm their bodies through an unhealthy lifestyle because these all neutralize any Cannabis benefits.

It takes roughly 5 months from germination to harvest when growing Cannabis plants. cannabisaugust2

I’m in the garden everyday taking care of them and ensuring they get everything they need. They are like children growing up and about to give birth. Producing oil is costly as alcohol is very expensive in Croatia and difficult to obtain.


The oil seen in this photo was made last night from an entire male plant. Each syringe contains 6 gr. or 6 ml. of Cannabis Oil. That’s a total of 18 gr. plus 4 in the spoon. This is not enough for treating Cancer but enough for maintenance for my partner.

For only 100 gr. of Cannabis, I need 2L of pure alcohol and it’s difficult to obtain. Good thing my best friend owns a pharmacy and she’s able to get it for me. In the end, this oil will cure most diseases but patients have to do their part and contribute to being well and avoiding all thing that are detrimental to them. I made this batch last night and just because it’s a male plant doesn’t mean it didn’t produce quality oil. Look at it. It may not have high dosage of THC but only .05 mg is needed to activate the Endocannabinoid receptors, so this is good enough for my needs. In a few weeks, there will be a lot of buds that I will make into potent medicine.

The people that contacted me didn’t fit any of the criteria even if I accepted money because ethically I stand behind my product and if the Cancer patients allowed the Chemo to destroy their bodies, even the most and best Oil has little chance of working.

Had I been doing this a few years ago, I probably would have sent the Oil no questions asked and glad to be able to help but after really giving it a lot of thought, Cannabis Oil can get a bad name if patients don’t use it properly or continue to live an unhealthy lifestyle and in the end might blame me accusing me of not giving them good quality.

My Chinese Doctor and teacher/mentor Dr. Joseph Wu in Vancouver B.C., often told me that we should never give anything away because they won’t appreciate it. If we have to charge them 10 cents,  but we have to charge something. He said they would most likely misuse things because it didn’t cost them anything. He also said that we only give to the deserving ones and the non-deserving will die, it’s Karma and we can’t change their destiny; only they can.

For a long time I admired the founder of Rick Simpson Oil. His entire philosophy was based on helping people. For many years he produced the Oil himself and gave it away and then eventually taught others how to make their own oil for cheap and without using expensive equipment. I’m using his recipe and love it, it’s very potent and 100% pure Cannabis, I help others as well but only if the patients have no other way of obtaining it. In other words they don’t have a space to grow it or a means of buying the material to make the oil.

What changed last night was while I was doing some research on Cannabis Oil in Croatian, I came across a website that Rick Simpson has in Amsterdam. He was selling Cannabis products and the prices just knocked me off my feet. He was charging 100 euros for 1 gr. of Cannabis Oil. He claims that you need 60 gr. of Oil to cure cancer and if they had chemo then it would require up to 120 gr. At 60 grams, that’s  6000 Euros close to USD. For my country, it’s unobtainable. The average Joe here has to work 12 months to make that kind of money and you can’t charge it on your credit card either. This  means that his oil is only attainable to the wealthy and upper class of society.

What happened to you Rick? What happened to the down to earth guy that wanted to educate and help people? Did greed get to you? It’s a lot! Here in Croatia you can find the same Oil for 35 Euros because the market can’t handle more.

So, behind every cancer lies a story, a story of what that person did or didn’t do to their body whether it’s conscious or not. How does one proceed upon being diagnosed? Exploring all options and then choosing the therapy/or therapies. While in treatment trying to find out why or what caused the healthy cells to turn against each other. Perhaps visiting someone who can help the patients balance their mindset, removing negative thoughts, changing their perception about Cancer, learning to live a more positive life, stop having negative thoughts, learning to live a more spiritual life. If we don’t try and isolate the cause, chances are it can return even after successful therapies. This is the mind that creates another reality to get sick if we don’t stop it. Treating any illness must include body, mind and spirit otherwise the chances of a permanent cure is slim.

I have learned a lot on this journey together with my partner to get him well again. He has also learned that giving our power over to doctors is a sure death sentence. He was on the brink of life/death several times and perhaps it was for reason and purpose because he realized the drugs were killing him and not curing him.

His transformation is so incredible, his illness has brought us even closer, challenged our inner truths, strengthened our belief in self-healing and gave us an understanding that even death can be a choice when on the brink of it.

I’m proud of him as he went from a very religious man who only believed in Modern Medicine to believing he IS god and self-responsibility is his only choice for being well. I’m looking forward to many more years together with him and instead of fearing losing him, I can focus more on loving him while he chooses to stay a while longer.

Each have their own story, this is mine and I’m sticking to it!





The Infinite Invisible Power Within – Magic

I’m not just Ines. I wonder what my mother was thinking when she named me. I know throughout my childhood that she consistently look for fault in me. She wanted me to be perfect but used Reverse Psychology. Instead of encouragement, she called me names and expected me clean and wash at the same level as her. Imagine a 12 year old child expected to wash dishes the same way as a mother who’s had over 40 years of experience?

I’m not just Ines. I’m a mother, sister, daughter, life partner, gardener, photographer, herbalist, healer, psychologist, researcher, writer, blogger, housekeeper,  cook, pet lover, observer of nature, and many other things. You are too. Our identity is not based on just our name or what we do for a living. Our identity is about everything we are and humans are multifunctional beings. We don’t need diplomas or degrees to be considered experts.  The Matrix set this up so that at birth we’re issued a number (birth certificate) and like farm animals are forced to tread through life acquiring skills and diplomas that don’t create much for us except debts.  Our entire lives, we are programmed to believe that what we do/create is who we are. I am not a machine, I am Ines, the Creator.

I am also power, invisible and unnoticed, I come to realize this every new day as something new and different happens. I don’t live with a schedule, I simply live each moment looking for miracles and creating what I want. Looking back into my life, I have always succeeded in getting what I want but only now realized because I was unknowingly focused on it and visualized it until I made it a reality. I thought it was just luck all those years, but I realize now, I had the power to create and knew how to use it.

Which leads me now to my Cannabis plants and how I became aware in the last few weeks how I can change nature simply by my thoughts. When I first planted the 14 Cannabis plants outdoors on April 11th, I didn’t know the sex of the plants. It’s almost impossible to know the sexes until they form 3 or 4 nodes at least and there is a specific way to identify them. Because they were so small, I used my Pendulum to identify the males and females and placed a marker beside them;  because regardless that I trust the Pendulum, I always leave room for mistakes. According to the assessment, I placed the males and females separately so that when the time came, I could pull out the males. This requires constant attention to watch their development as they grow because if the males open their pollen sacks, they will pollinate the females and the result is smaller buds and lots of seeds.

Although I read and experts claim that pollinated females and male plants don’t produce good quality bud, I don’t care because it’s for Medicinal Use and last year being my first time, I let all males and females do their thing and I can tell you that I got so high from the Oil that it didn’t make a difference to me and my partner has healed. Regardless, I wanted to do it the way the experts advise to get the best quality Cannabis Oil.

According to the Pendulum, 3 males and 11 females. Out of 20 seeds that I germinated, 14 sprouted so this in itself is a high percentage in male/female germination rate. They say it’s usually about 50/50 and given that I had no idea what strains they were, I was at bigger odds.

Each day I would greet my females plants with “Hello my beauties”. The males were on the other side of the garden and so I had to go them and would speak to them differently. “I wish you were females because I will have to pull you out, so please don’t grow so fast”. I was really sad that I had to do that and each time I watered them or fertilized them, I would keep repeating this mantra.

A few weeks ago it was possible to see the sexes and the Pendulum was accurate, with the exception of one male between the females and as soon as it started to form the pollen sacks, I removed it and made some Cannabis Oil. Despite what the experts say about it’s quality not being as good as the bud part, my partner could feel the benefits and it was just in time because we ran out of the Oil from last year’s crop. He’s been taking such small doses over the year because I didn’t have much oil to start with and I wanted to ensure that he had consistent medicine albeit it being a small dose.

So, you’re wondering by now where this is all leading? It’s leading to the fact that the males, or at least I thought they were and they looked like they were males started to change. I thought I just made a mistake and waited to see what would happen. But it doesn’t end here either. Although I am a newbie at growing Cannabis, I was able to grow a few plants last year as mentioned they were males and females. They grew very thin and tall, I didn’t really take care of them because someone gave me the seeds and I wanted to see if they would even grow in this Mediterranean climate and soil.

During the winter and spring, I spent all my free time reading, studying and contacting medical cannabis experts and growers to ensure I would get the best quality crop.

The males, turned female. That’s it in a nutshell. In other words, with the exception of 1 male plant I pulled out and processed, I now have 13 female plants.

Logical thinking tells me that I either didn’t know enough to identify the males, the Pendulum was wrong, the strains were different and therefore, could look different when developing sexes; or the power of my thoughts and daily communication with the plants made them change or switch to males.

When I greeted the male plants, I would often say: “I wish you were females, because eventually I will have to pull you out, I’m so sorry that I have to do this”. Is it really possible to change the sex of a Cannabis plant through thoughts?

The Innate me knows that the power of thought with a deep desire to have females switched the plant sexes from male to female. This wasn’t about wanting more bud material, I never ever thought about it this way, it was a feeling of compassion that in this case of producing medical Cannabis Oil, males don’t contribute and therefore it’s recommended they are pulled out and thrown out.

Honestly, each plant can yield between 300 to 500 grams of bud.  500 grams of bud according to the producers can yield from 60 to 120 grams of Oil concentrate. Since my partner is well and his disease is in remission, we only need 2 plants to supply us both for a year or until next harvest. The extra plants would be used to help others and sell a small portion so I can cover my costs. Producing Cannabis Oil is not cheap, so I had no material desires, it was all about healing my partner and others.

I admit that I’m still a newbie at growing Cannabis. Although this is now my 2nd year and I have spent countless hours studying and reading books etc., there is room for mistakes, but I feel confident the sexes of the male plants were correct.

Lets look at another perspective. I germinated 20 seeds, of which 14 sprouted from unknown strains. Growers say it’s usually a 50/50 germination rate between males and females. What were the odds that I had over 90/10 germination ratio or 2 males and 12 females from 14 sprouted seeds? It’s unheard of.

So far and all these years, my pendulum has been accurate so I have no other logical explanation other than my power to create through thought.

My spiritual self acknowledges that it created the image and desire for those males to switch to females. Some may argue including myself because I’m a skeptic at heart that this is not possible biologically.

Dr. Bruce Lipton was able to show scientifically that living cells adapt to their environment; that the environment plays a mayor role in how a cell behaves. This Science that isn’t mentioned in the mainstream is called Epigenetics. There is truth to this otherwise why keep it a secret and why don’t we hear about this?

Our genes are activated by environment and thought. We’re not victims of our genes, we activate them through thought. Don’t take my word for it, research Dr. Bruce Lipton on his work over the past 20 years. Why isn’t Epigenetics mainstream science? Because if we knew this, we could cure ourselves and we would never get Cancer.

Do you have any idea how many times your body has fought off Cancer? We all have Cancer cells in our bodies, it’s really just a healthy cell for whatever reason turning against itself. The moment you think or have been diagnosed with Cancer you will either reject that concept and beat it or you will go home with it and die just as the doctor predicts you will.

Didn’t you every find it odd that Oncologists can actually predict how long you will live with Cancer? Don’t you find it stunning that they know what your odds of surviving are if you choose to accept their poisonous chemotherapy and radiation?

Our infinite power can either kill us or heal us. This invisible power is actually more dangerous to us when we don’t know we have it because our thoughts give the brain instructions and it then sends signals to the organs to execute our instructions.

Don’t you find it odd that the people you know that got Cancer actually talked about it and feared getting it? Fear attracts fear. Fear is just a brain function, it’s something we invented to control us. There is nothing to fear because it’s always about the unknown or possible future outcomes. When we fear those possible future outcomes, we are actually giving them power and they will manifest.

Our infinite power is dangerous when we don’t know we have it or don’t know how to use it. We get ourselves into so much trouble because we’re not aware of how powerful thoughts are.

50 years ago we started with “you have to think positive”. No, thinking positively like “everything will be ok” means nothing. What does positive thinking actually mean? It means foreseeing a future positive outcome, but what event are we talking about? There is nothing specific about “Positive thinking”. What Positive Thinking really is, is this: Instead of thinking that we will heal from the cancer, we have to change that thought to: “I am well and I am healthy”.

” I will heal from this Cancer”. The brain doesn’t know what to do with this statement. It’s not getting a command or instruction. This is a neutral thought. When you say “I am well. I am healthy. I don’t have Cancer”, the body then works on this. We’ve come a long way of positive thinking. It’s about giving instructions to the brain. When we want something we have to see it as already happened. I saw those male plants as potential females, I let them know this. Did I succeed or was I wrong about the sexes? I don’t know and I certainly can’t tell you for sure, but I do believe I did succeed. I just didn’t know at the time what I was doing and it took a few weeks to realize this.

This is what I’m talking about. We won’t get instant results. Our thoughts of something have to be constant, focused and we have to visualize that what we want. It’s a conversion of thought energy to creation energy. It’s believing you have this power but because we have been so dumbed down, we have lied and deceived about who we are, we have lost that ability and we’ve forgotten.

The next time you need to find truth in my story, use a plant as an experiment and I’m going to do the same. I am going to set aside a plant and not water it. I will talk to it everyday using words like: “You’re not dehydrated, you look great, your leaves are beautiful”. Do this everyday and every moment you have free and see if the plant will live and survive without water. Our plants die because we tell them they will. Go into nature, plants don’t die so fast without water because there is no energy out there telling them they are dying. Of course in time they will, but it’s 10 times slower and we look at our plants and our first thoughts are: Does it have water, oh my goodness it looks dry, if I don’t water soon it will wilt”. We literally determine the fate of our plants because someone told us if we don’t water them they will die.

And finally this: Does it really matter in the end how I got 13 females plants? It doesn’t. Maybe I want to believe that I created that reality. If that’s my belief, than my belief itself created the reality I wanted. In the end if you recover from Cancer and didn’t accept the toxic potions of modern medicine, do you really care how? My patients don’t ask me what my treatments cost. Most of them don’t even ask what I do. They want results. Some are curious and will ask what each method does or how I do certain things, but most came with a belief they will be better because someone told them they would. Did their power of thought or my hands heal them? Does it matter? The result is what matters.

We waste so much time analyzing and breaking down things yet in the end, what matters is that we get what we need and want. Our power of thought is a dangerous weapon when we’re not aware we have it. It’s also lifesaving when we know how to use it.

I have witnessed this myself over the last 10 years and to this day, after my patients leave with smiles on their faces (no pain), I still question this power. Did I really do this? You idiot comes the voice from within, get over this poverty consciousness and accept the power once and for all. The human in me won’t allow me to do that, the human brain is not designed to help us, it’s designed to keep the body alive. It has no relevance in who you are, the spirit/soul.

You are so powerful and don’t even know it.

The Aha Moment

I didn’t plan on writing today but since we’ve had a heat wave the last few days, I had time to sit at the computer and listen to about 10 hours of Billy Meier tapes. With the A/C going on and not able to do any work either in the clinic or outside, what better time than to use it for this post today.

Yes, I had an Aha moment yesterday on tape #10 of the Billy Meier case. I won’t leave any links, if you’re interested or have already done the work that’s your choice.
The AHA moment for me was while I was sitting on the toilet thinking about the last tape I just listened to. Although the mindset has been living as a Soul/Spirit occupying this body; the how’s and why’s weren’t always clear to me.

I know that I chose to incarnate into this reality but why and how has been not clear to me. Here are several thoughts of mine as to why we incarnate here:

  1. We choose to incarnate into this reality to have different experiences.
  2. We incarnate to choose specific lessons
  3. We come to experience all that is
  4. Our spiritual journey/experience is in a linear fashion so that each life teaches us something
  5. The Soul has a definitive mission in it’s own evolutionary process in order to BE All That IS
  6. We re-incarnate with a Soul Group and choose specific roles within each Soul Family
  7. Each reincarnation is determined upon the previous life where we have to clear our Karma
  8. Each life chosen is based on a natural progression that here in this reality we are unable to understand
  9. From the moment of conception of Soul; we are destined to experience everything that exists for the Soul to evolve or return back to Source once complete

There are many more possibilities and combination and I really can’t pinpoint which one is the true one though after listening to the Billy Meier material and his communications with various entities, I felt the truth within my being. In Tape #10 which is all about the Spirit and our spiritual evolution, there are 7 stages we must go through and it really resonated within my frequency as truth. This confirmation of what I believed to be true was so powerful that I have been literally feeling weightless today.

This feeling for me has been like I have lost 50 lbs and got out of bed this morning NOT feeling sore and stiff as I usually do. I kept going to the bathroom to look into the mirror because I really felt like I had lost so much weight.

This Aha moment is when I actually ‘feel’ myself as Soul/Spirit and have shed the physicality of my human body. It’s an incredible state of mind ‘knowing’ I AM Soul/Spirit and being able to separate myself as Soul from my body. Although, all these years I have known theoretically that I am not my body, today, I actually felt that. It’s an incredible feeling of ultimate power knowing this reality I chose to enter into was to have a new experience. Our goal or purpose incarnating here on this planet and in this Universe is to learn or through thousands of incarnations figure out our true nature.

Imagine being born or having your first experience? You’ve come into this world with NO memories, no experiences. The entities communicating with Meiers explained that our first experiences don’t last very long. We can just be born and not yet know we have to breath; or we walk past a tiger and be eaten because we haven’t yet had an experience with a tiger or danger. The next lifetime we will have remembered to avoid tigers or be more careful when walking in areas where there are tigers.

If this is true, one must ask: “Is there an end to this journey? Is each experience just winging it or do we have specific things that we want to learn?” If the goal is to achieve self awareness then it shouldn’t be or needn’t be planned out. This is where I get stuck.

I know that my goal is to experience all that is created or ALL that IS, in other words my goal is to become a Creator. Not just in theory or thought but literally be able to create consciously or experience all that I need to become a higher dimensional being.

We enter into our first life with an empty memory bank, the only thing we know is LOVE. Some body functions are automatic and instinctual in order for the body to stay alive such as breathing, swallowing, eating and elimination of body waste. Just to become fully developed adults takes approx. 18 years. Our Spirit is endless and when it leaves the body it takes the memories with it so we accumulate experiences. It may take hundreds of lifetimes to learn of our intuitive abilities; thousands of years to learn we’re Souls having a human experience. Buddhism teaches us that we must never judge another Soul because each one of us are in different stages of our evolution.

This is why, and I have written about this many times that the Cabal/Controllers have put out a very intricate and well thought out agenda to keep us separated, divided and blinded so that we don’t figure out who we are. They can never stop us, but they have slowed us down. There is nothing, not even AI technology that can prevent us from our journey. From this viewpoint, physical death is a blessing because we leave, re-group and return to continue with our journey.

This leads back to what I have also written about many times and that is that this reality and all other ones we incarnate into are just movie sets that we join as actors. Once we’re done experiencing this Universe, we move on to others. I think Michael Horn said this process last around 230 trillion years until we complete the journey.

I have always known I was an Old Soul, I also knew that life in this reality didn’t happen just once but time can get confusing when you’re talking about trillions of years though this is just a figure to give us an idea of how many experiences we can have, literally endless/timeless. We’re the only species that is in a Matrix and controlled by time.

Billy’s friends often told him that they couldn’t interfere with humanity and were not able to answer some questions because it could change the outcome of a possible event or future and this is what I write about in the early years of this blog when exposing the Channelers and biblical prophets.

Help could have arrived a long time ago when the Matrix was formed, but the natural laws of non-intervention had to be honored so all those channelers were either contacted by government mind control agencies or entities that don’t want us to succeed.

Every Soul creation is experiencing at different levels, realities, timelines, dimensions and it’s all happening simultaneously. I am all Universes, I am ALL that IS; but this human mind is only designed for this body and reality. As we evolve and connect with our higher selves, learn to connect with the Akashic records or can travel out of body like I do during sleep; we can then get better insight and knowledge of our true existence.

The challenge for me is that I can’t stay connected with higher self because I’m here in this physical reality that is based on time, I can focus and enter that world but can’t cook or take care of my clients while connected, so I’m bouncing back and forth getting glimpses of the true me but can’t fully appreciate it in such short intervals.

This dichotomy is challenging because the human me wants to complete its lessons while the Spirit me wants to leave this crappy place and go home. The Aha moment don’t last long because I have to exist in this reality but as I find more pieces to the puzzle, I get excited because I know I’m reaching my full potential.

I do believe that Billy did and still does maintain contact with his friends, but one must ask: How many lives has he changed by sharing his journey and an incredible one it has been for him.

But I’m the Skeptic at heart and although I believe what Billy shares is his truth, how do we know these entities have good intentions? Their information/predictions and insights into possible futures have been spot on and it’s not the information I question. I question the motives of these entities and what their agenda is. I’m not saying they mean harm, but I don’t see many people on this planet who have bought into the story.

There visits started going back to the 60’s and that’s over 60 years ago, yet very few of humanity have used their information to evolve.

In essence, you’re here to experience with no specific goals and when you leave the body you take with you all the memories of this lifetime and it goes with you to your next experience. Your goal is to complete your evolution of all knowing and all being. To finally know and become that what your true and innate nature is.

It doesn’t get any simpler than that. The changes we make on this planet all come from us. As we grow spiritually we change our paradigm and the mass consciousness shifts towards what we want and think. We’re such powerful beings and creators but don’t know this, don’t know how to use it so our state of mind is such that most of humanity has stopped thinking for themselves and are allowing the Matrix to feed us a false relaity which we manifest. As written many times before, they provide us with the script and we act it out for them to create their reality.

If you believe that Russia is going to attack you, and enough people believe this; we will manifest this.

I would love to leave this body and get out of here but I have to come back and take over from where I left off so it’s in my best interest to stay, learn as much as possible about myself so that I can return even more enlightened.

My biggest challenge and lesson has been to stop reacting to the events around me. For most of my adult life I carried with me rage and frustration at the injustice in his world thinking I could save it by stopping the injustice.

I now observe without any emotional attachments because I have learned that we are what we create. I can live in this chaos that others have created and still be happy, feel joy and live this life to it’s fullest. My reality is so beautiful, so rich and filled with abundance and this is what I came here to do. I didn’t come here to save the world.

I no longer believe in the “We are ONE” statement, I don’t believe this anymore, I think it’s just another religious dogma to keep us from manifesting. By believing we are ONE, most of us are leaving it to someone else to change something. We may have the same Creator and have the same purpose of figuring out who we are but we’re all really Yin and Yangs. We’re independent of each other, on separate journeys but we rely on each other to play in this movie called Earth. We can’t do this alone so we’re dependent upon each other but truth is you travel on your own road at your own pace. You and I my friend are just another face.

You’re driving South while I pass you going North. We’re not competing because there is no prize to be given out at the finish line but we can’t pull out either because it’s just how things are. At the end of the road you will know you’ve completed your journey because a sign will read LOVE. From Love we were created, to experience Love and depend on it to get us back home.

It’s a humanistic view of our journey but I know there’s much more that we have yet to discover on our own terms and free will.

We may have friends all over different realities and across millions of Universes but they won’t come to help us because even if they were allowed to, we’re too dangerous, we haven’t evolved enough. We’re a danger to our own species, imagine them landing and wanting to be friends?

But our realities have happened millions of times because we’re probably at that stage of evolution that we are not yet aware of who we are and why we are here. Our lessons are difficult or maybe we’ve evolved so much that we can handle violence and death; but  I believe we’re old Souls and are able to have the most difficult challenges to experience.

When you no longer believe in death, it’s a sign you’re close but if you still think or believe someone or some thing will save you, then you have a lot more lifetimes to experience.

You can live in this madness if you know who you are, I keep looking for Nibiru or some huge Space craft because every once in a while I wonder if I have it all wrong. Damn ego, likes to mess with me every once in a while.

Next time you have that Aha moment, cherish it because I can tell you from experience, that light weight feeling doesn’t last very long, we’re having a human experience and we have to coordinate our higher selves with this physical body.  I know you can do it and my way is not your way.