Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder?

Isn’t that what they say? What a pile of crap isn’t it? Absence gives you time to get your shit together without that other person getting in the way. If you’re missing someone or feeling sad because they are not around it’s because your love is a needy one and you’re dependent on that person to feel better.

I have been absent but only physically. My thoughts are always here in your presence somewhere. I made a decision last week to finally start my Croatian blog. You see, this blog in English was not planned at all. I started with the ” From Croatia with Love” because it was intended for my Croatian audience, but I had not yet mastered the language. Well, I finally opened the blog on mjesecina.wordpress.com and it took me 2 days to write a post because my Croatian is not mastered yet. Maybe not the basic language but when it comes to the topics I write about, it was difficult to write the first post.

The topics that I write about have been written millions of times over, there are more books out there in alternative reality then one can count, I wrote nothing different but with a twist: I write with love, honesty and a true desire to help others. I don’t make any money and don’t ever want to make money for helping someone. That is the difference between me and all those wanna be gurus out there trying to make a buck with the illusion that they are helping folks.

I have and always had an issue with those that claim to be serving humanity. I have an issue with the so called ” light workers” who moan and groan that their financial situations are bad. I have an issue with light workers feeling they are deserving payment for their hard work. Look, you can get a full time job or part time job or whatever, but your Service to others must be from the heart, otherwise its’ not a service it’s simply a career option and careers are paid for. I don’t buy this bullshit that those who serve humanity need to make a living. Of course they do, but they don’t need to charge the people they are helping, they can get a real job. Ok, I know, they spent a few months or years writing a book, I get that. I can accept books as a means of career, but the ” donation” buttons, the DVD specials and Webinars should be free.

What I wrote about so far on this blog was only a reflection of how I felt at the time, sharing the knowledge I had and giving people a different perspective on things. I never considered myself to be special or an expert at anything. This is something my partner knows really well. He knows that I won’t do anything unless it comes from the heart. If I do it any other way, it’s a favor or chore or responsibility and that’s not what I’m about. When you start living from the heart, everything comes from the heart and it’s ok to say NO when the heart doesn’t feel like giving. The heart is like everything in our body, it too has it’s overload days and it too needs time to regenerate, so if you’re not up to doing something, don’t do it. I’m fortunate to have an understanding and supportive partner which by the way is doing really well. He’s now being taken care of in one of our best specialist hospitals in Croatia and his lung issues are in remission thanks to Cannabis Oil.

He’s due to go back on May 8th to have some more tests done because he was sent there because of many blood clots forming that went on for months and the local hospital never tested him for this. Because of these clots they are not able to perform some minor invasive procedures, but even the specialist in this hospital, they were thrilled to see how well he is doing considering he should be dead statistically. His diagnosis 3 years ago was as follows: Pumonary Arterial Hypertension, COPD, Cor.pulmonale, a very weak heart, and Vit.k overproduction which causes the blood to clot abnormally thicker than normal.

I often think about not returning here, but then I never have the courage to say goodbye, something tells me I can’t let go yet and I’m sure there is a reason for this so I won’t make any promises. I’m trying to live my life in truth and with spring here, my Clinic gets really busy and of course my huge garden that needs me so when I have this urge to write, you can be sure I will.

Things are pretty crazy out there, I’m following everything and I am seeing those that said ” it’s coming” now saying it’s not. Those that screamed about Nibiru being just around corner are now saying “it’s not”. If you have been reading my blog for a few years you will see that I wrote this would happen. Nobody knows what will happen because WE determine that. We will either fight for peace or we will keep killing each other, the choice is always ours and always will be. Until people realize all the power lies within them, that the Universe lies within them and that nothing will change unless they change, things will just keep plugging along.
Yes, we might have wars and rumors of wars but damn it people, have we not had this as long as we have existed? When have we ever lived in peace? So, the bible thumpers are now changing their music too but for the life of me, I can’t believe they actually believe what’s in the bible. This makes them idiots and not credible because that book was never intended for the benefit of humanity.

The reality is that we create it. They input us with frequencies, ideas, fears and false hopes and we create this with our thoughts, thus, create what they want. Until we realize this, they will keep fucking with us. They don’t fuck with me, I figured this out a long time ago and I’m well protected within my aura energy field. Oh yes, the archons come along every once in a while to see if my energy field has weakened but one THOUGHT and they’re gone. They are really afraid of me and in one of my sleep states I saw myself as a creator of galaxies and the number 9 always shows up, so perhaps they know me from another dimension but I can sense their fear and disdain for themselves for fearing me. I don’t need anyone to tell me what will come or won’t come.

I am fully prepared to take responsibility for whatever it is that we have done to make this reality. I have some stocks of food and medicine, doing the best I can and living in the moment. This is all we can do while this transition takes place. It will take place, it’s just a matter of ‘ time’ meaning ‘when’ we decide to make the final move.

Here in Europe things are just as mad as in the Western parts, it’s no different here than in the US when it comes to stability. We don’t blame Putin here for everything though, we blame the EU for all our troubles. Imagine this: We are a country so wealthy that we can actually close down the borders and produce everything we need. I now have to buy meat from Germany or Bulgaria, lettuce from Spain, oranges from Italy while our farmers have gone bankrupt. So, like I said, it’s no different here but I think that us Europeans are a bit smarter and not so easy to fool. Europe is an old institution and it’s core is the Vatican so with so many wars and invasions, we have developed hard skin and don’t fool or believe too easily.

Mr. Trump isn’t going to make it. I said before he was elected that if they don’t assassinate him then he’s no different than the others but he’s playing a good game. I see a lot of violence coming your way, I also see some kind of natural disaster with lots of smoke and ash, these are visions I have had in my sleep. Just be prepared.

You’re always in my thoughts and you need to know that whatever you are doing now is what you should be doing. But if you’re accepting their game or going along with it, you will not be able to get out of it so let go of the fear and the frustration of knowing what is going on, just live this moment, live it from the heart and live it like you may not have another human day tomorrow.