Last night, as always just before going into my meditative deep breathing for sleep, I thank Gaia and Prime Creator for all that I am, for all that I have and sometimes continue with my conversation if I can stay awake and if not, just dose off.
Last night, my conversation with higher self was like this:
Me: What was I thinking when I volunteered for this:
HS:It was your choice
Me:I’m tired of the fight and I can’t wait to go home, what’s taking so long?
HS: You are taking so long because it went wrong and your memories were separated from your higher self (me) and so you lost your compass and without memories of why you came here, it’s just taking a bit longer to figure it out.
Me: Am I on the right track?
HS: Everyone is doing what they should be doing. Your last genetic design manipulated the heart signal so you use your brain logic constantly trying to figure it out rather than thinking with the heart. The heart connects to higher self and so this was modified so that you used the brian ego rather than heart/higher self.
Me: Will I be here to see the new Earth?
HS:Yes, very old age but by then your age won’t matter because you will reverse aging processes or leave to continue your soul journey.
Me: Did I already choose that:
HS: Nobody specifically chooses the end because before you incarnated here you were aware that the end all depended on how and when, so the outcome was determined based on humanity and how long it would take to figure things out.
Me: This body is tired, what was I thinking when I chose this model?
HS: As a human you are again seeing yourself as a body containing your soul. You are not your body, but it is uncomfortable for everyone to occupy these models because your chakras and electrical system was added so that you could be controlled better. Chakras are not part of your original design, they were added later so that energies could be directed into them and the teachings of new age encourage you to open your chakras so that they can enter them easier and control you.
Me: I always said that I don’t have chakras, does that make me special?
HS: Not special, but an old soul who figured this out in past incarnations so you had them removed in a dimension with higher technologies. At birth you remembered this and closed your crown chakra so that they could not evolve your chakra system.
Me: Thank you whoever you are my friend, I just assume you are Creator or a guide.
HS: No, I am you, your higher self a particle of Source, call me what you like but I am not separate from you. I am of you and therefore, you already know everything but your human brain and ego self is overpowering you because you’re in the fight or flight state for a long time and very rarely do you let go of that state to connect to me, your higher self.
Me: So, I’m in essence communicating with higher self?
Me: How can I gain full access to you/me?
HS: Feel me with your heart and just listen. Unfortunately because of this low density environment, you are living in, your frequency is not sufficient enough to keep me inside of you so this separation is actually your struggle. The struggle between brain/logic/ego and higher self connection.
Me: All this time I thought you were my guide or Creator. I am all that is, I am you, you are me, stop separating everything. Just know that everything is the way it should be and that you are all working according to the plan.
Me: But so much evil, suffering, deception.
HS: Yes, you had to create it in order to realize that something was wrong. It was planned to wake people up. There is no such thing as suffering, it is a human creation. You are having a temporary experience, you are not suffering rather creating that condition because humans don’t like to stay in that condition and it was necessary this time around.
Me: I guess I’m just sensitive to all that suffering.
HS: Yes and no. You are simply more connected to humanity and feeling the energy.
Me: Good night.
Strangely, these conversations only happen when something troubles me, but to discover that this voice/message was not a higher authority rather my higher self helped me understand better that all the answers are within us.
From a human perspective, we are really fucked, but we were created into this current model/body. 90% of our current functions are controlled by the genetic manipulation and controllers. The 10% they claim we know about called the human brain operates as a human so there is 0% left that we actually can control.
We were separated from higher self, separated from our memories and despite all this we are waking up. How powerful is that? Why?
Because even though we may not feel the connection with Source consciously, it exists. Our Creator would never allow a complete separation because that would mean the death of the Soul-Us.
Our memories as stated in several posts were not erased, access to them was blocked. Why do I think that? Because all memories are stored in the Akash so sooner or later we could access the Akash. Many people have that ability. It’s logical to me otherwise I don’t think we would ever be able to wake up and figure it out.
The crisis is over with my partner. After months of insisting his diuretic was causing blood clotting, I finally threw the damn box into the garbage. The next day he went back into hospital and after having his blood tested for blood clotting every day, his doctor took him off Warfarin the blood thinning medication because his blood went back to normal. This has been going on for 6 months now, and nobody would listen to me about the side effects even though the first side effect on the list is blood clotting.
My partner has been following his guru doctors for years and after almost dying last weekend again, he now learned the hard way. A diuretic is not a vital drug, in other words it’s not a life saving drug and to go off of it for a few day to see if it is causing the side effects is not going to jeopardize anything, but he was afraid to do this. I was so angry that day that I finally had to intervene, I just felt he was going to die that day had I not done it and it turns out I was right. Within 3 days my partner is looking wonderful and back to his normal self he was 6 months ago. I’m hoping they will let him out tomorrow.
Please don’t accept any drugs until you have thoroughly discussed with your doctor. It’s not just about side effects, but whether it’s a necessary drug and once you are on more than 2 medications, it’s almost impossible to know what drug is causing the side effects so my advise is to first talk to your doctor and starting going off each drug for a few days to see if that is one, then go to the next one. The drugs that cause blood clotting are the most dangerous. Luckily my partner had one in the lung, but what if it was formed in the brain or heart?
Thank you for all the wonderful emails and prayers.
May your day be filled with love and joy.